#general headcanons

Pierrot would honestly do anything for you. He would go to hell and back to make you proud of him, and would gladly go to any means necessary to get you what you wanted. In most cases he doesn’t even hesitate to do something. If you say jump he’ll ask how high, type of situation. 

I view Pierrot as a full fledged hand holder. There is something so intimate to him about holding your hand. They’re so much smaller compared to his and he can completely wrap one of his hands around both of yours. Sometimes when you are cold, he’ll use his hands to warm yours keeping them cocooned in his. If you ever need to get through a large crowd around the circus, Pierrot will hold your hand really tightly and help guide you through (well more like push people of of your way but yk, same thing)

Is a bear hugger. Every damn time he sees you, the first thing he does is tackle you and just swing you around with the tightest damn grip you swear he’s gonna break your back. Poor guy is just so happy to see his darling.

Speaking of hugs, if you allow him to stay the night with you he will flop on you with almost all his weight just like in the game. Why need a blanket when you have him to keep you warm. Surprisingly enough though, unlike his hugs, you can actually move around when he’s cuddling you in bed like this, if you need to get up, it's easy enough to just move his arm and ur free. Though he may follow you. And by may I mean will, he will follow you.

Pierrot sometimes doesn’t realise his own strength. He is VERY aware of how easily he could harm you, but sometimes his excitement and passion gets the best of him and he unintentionally can be a bit too rough when grabbing you. It's very rare, but it happens. And every time it happens even if you are in no pain or don’t even make notice - he will and just becomes a melting puddle of guilt.

This man is FASCINATED by cartoons. If you ask him why, he won;t know. But anytime you put on an animated show, he is sitting in front of the TV staring, unblinking at the screen. If there's music he’ll start popping or swaying along with it. If it's a rerun of a show you’ve shown him before, he’ll start quoting the show.

He once started quoting Bluey to you. Pierrot watched Bluey, the entirety of Bluey. According to him, an episode came on randomly when you were sleeping and he was fiddling with the TV and it hooked him. (this isn’t because i like Bluey. Shut up! it's a good show! Made me cry man that damn space episode… THEIR DOG CUBES WHY IS IT SO EMOTIONAL)

Pierrot can cook we all know this, if you ever wanted him to make you something he is ON IT! If he doesn't know how to make it, teach him! He would love nothing more than to learn from you, his beloved.

Breakfast in bed has become a tradition for him. If you allow him to stay with you or you join him in the circus, he will make you breakfast in bed as a surprise thank you gift for making him so happy. It was just supposed to be a one time thing, but the look on your face - the sparkle in your eye and the pure delight as you dig into the beautiful breakfast he made you, it became a very common thing. Sometimes he would ask you the night prior if you wanted anything in particular for breakfast in the morning. 

Never request cereal from him though - he will take offence. I don’t make the rules.

It is no secret that Pierrot is possessive. He follows us around from the shadows and is practically steaming from the ears if someone even looks at us with minor attraction. The few scenes in the official game shows us enough of just how bad he can actually be. Sure the Harlequin one was fair - but what the hell did this guy do to make DOCTOR scared of him?

As a result this makes him incredibly protective - Somehow Pierrot is always right there the moment you need him every single time. Someone being rude to you? BOOM he’s there; Did you trip up the curb? Oh look he’s caught you; Walking alone at night and feeling scared? Wow look now you can hold his hand! It's not because he stalks your every movement nooooooo.

Pierrot has really bad anger issues. Whilst he never shouts or has outbursts of anger: when alone he will break EVERYTHING in sight, whether by his own hands or throwing knives, something is getting broken. If it's feeding time, he will become almost feral when consuming his food. He will NEVER allow you to see this side of him - ever it would break him. As such he can never allow himself to be mad around you. Granted he won;t ever get mad AT you, he doesn’t have the heart for it to last more than a second. But other things irritate him to no end - a certain green goblin especially.

He loves taking pictures with you. Digital or polaroids, he constantly wants to make memories with you to just cement your face and being into his mind like a stone carving. So a photo is a great way to start! On your first official date, you asked to take a photo with him to remember the moment. He asked if you could make him a copy to keep, which you did. He now keeps that specific photo on his person at all times. He has so many more, but this one in particular he cherishes.

If it wasn't for his horns, Pierrot loves to be pet, it makes him feel like he did a good job. But unfortunately his horns prevent him from allowing you to pet him. Poor  thing is too scared you’ll run if you find out the truth. So he instead will let you rub his back whilst he nuzzles your neck, it's the closest thing he can get.

In order of most trusted to least trusted, if Pierrot had to leave for any reason, this is the order of how much he trusts someone to watch over you: Just take you with him (if safe); Ticket Taker, Jester/Doctor (depends on his mood); By Yourself; Your friends;  Strangers;  Satan; The depth of the abyss; Harlequin.

You could trust Harlequin, hell you may even view him as a friend - But to Pierrot, the world would burn first before he willingly trusted Harlequin alone with you.

♡ Let’s start off by saying that Tenna absolutely has a soft spot for you, as his trusted, wondrous partner: he can come off as obnoxious and demanding to his subordinates, and while these characteristics also pop up in the course of your relationship sometimes, he always makes it a point to be nicer to you and communicate as best as he’s capable of.

♡ You don’t even need to remind him who he’s speaking to much if he ever gets like that, because the love towards you that fills his heart does enough of a good job to remind him itself. You’re one of the few individuals he sincerely apologizes to whenever he’s made a mistake, and if for some reason he doesn’t end up apologizing straight-forwardly, he surely acts like hurting you even on accident might just be the worst act he has ever committed...until you remind him that going back to normalcy is what you guys should be doing instead.

♡ He likes praise...a little too much, perhaps. Your compliments never fail to make him grow a whole foot taller at least! If you keep your praise for rarer occasions, you might...no, you WILL catch a blush on his cheeks as well (in the form of SMPTE color bars on his whole screen)! In return he will compliment you just as much if not even more and you should probably prepare yourself to engage in his silly little antics...because depending on the context he might pick you up and spin you around as he chants all his adoration towards you!

♡ He’s also surprisingly clumsy when it comes to things like cuddling and hugging, unless they’re part of an act and he can get unserious with it: it might be because of his size, or even because of the lack of physical affection in his everyday life except when it comes to you...or both. Either way, he never really knows how to position himself, and usually his hugs in private are quick and a bit awkward at least at first. However, he would very much like to get cuddlier with you, so questions such as ‘Are you liking this, sweetheart?’ are ever-present whenever either of you initiates any kind of affection. Over time he becomes more natural with it but he still asks almost every time...just to make sure!

♡ Tenna is...quite passionate when it comes to his show! And as such he likes involving you whenever it’s possible; if you’re camera shy, don’t you worry, for you don’t even have to be part of it directly! Of course it would be awesome if you could be on stage together, but for him it’s enough that you’re enthusiastic about trying out his games and quizzes before the show airs. It’s never really an issue if you can’t get the answers right or you can’t beat a level, as long as you give gentle feedback on how to improve it. And if you ever do end up on stage, prepare yourself to be the spotlight! He’s VERY excited to have you there, and will make it his life mission for the night to get it across that you’re his beloved partner!

♡ Dates with Tenna are extravagant, so you should also be prepared each time he decides to take you on one! There’s no such thing as ‘boring’ when he’s involved, for better or for worse. Yes, sometimes he deems it a bit too important to be entertaining, when you’d just like to have a little moment for yourselves. It’s very difficult for him to unlearn to be an entertainment all the time, and to instead learn to just...be. Sometimes it has you wondering if he was programmed for it, but TV shows can be chill and so can he, by logic. So yes, it’s very much possible for him to tone it down and just enjoy his alone time with you, especially when you’re the organizer of the date. He learns to enjoy to unwind, and so you slowly become his safe, comfortable place.

GENERAL !

music taste: i think he would love 80s pop / rock. billy idol, bon jovi, bryan adams ( especially reckless ), the cure, and artists / songs like that. kind of like dad rock. he's really proud of it too. says stuff like "music now is so tasteless" or some shit.

occupation: professionally i think he would do something super hands on like construction or mechanics. he might also consider going into the army, but i don't think he would be there any longer than maybe 8 years. for fun or a side job i think he would write stories, probably science fiction like " the forever war " or " starship troopers " and use his background in the military to help write it.

hobbies: outdoorsey things, hiking, kayaking, fishing, hunting ( maybe ), writing, fixing things / handiwork, geocaching, cooking

style: he does not care whatsoever about the clothes he wears. military / work grade boots, dirty jeans, a worn cordory jacket. he often gets good quality items and doesn't replace it until it's literaly unusable.

at first you probably thought he was an asshole, which was definitely valid considering he is. it takes an acquired taste and peeling back lots of layers to find the real porco.

has a resting mad face, he always looks like he's extremely pissed off when zoned out. even if he's calm or happy he looks very unapproachable.

he has a whole lot of attitude. sarcasm, playful insults, deadpan expressions, etc.

a horrible texter. you'd have better luck finding him in person than getting a reply from him over text. it's a toss up if he'll answer the phone.

curses a lot but not often. when he does, he does it so well. he's one of those people who really makes cursing feel cool. he can turn it off in a second though if he's in a professional setting or around children, if he cares enough to.

is surprisingly super routined. he pretty much spends every day doing the same thing and he's totally okay with that.

he has kind of a wonky smile, but it's very cute.

he literally never gets sick. his immune system is off the charts he can spend 24/7 with a someone who's sick and not feel a thing. he's often the one who takes care of his loved ones when they're not feeling well because of it.

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ROMANTIC !

boyfriend type: he says he's a black cat bf but he's a golden retriever for sure.

love language: porco expresses his love through gift giving and words of affirmation. he loves to spoil you and make sure you feel seen and heard. he constantly uplifts you with his words. he doesn't even do it on purpose, his thoughts tend to escape his own mind and reveals how much he loves you and admires you. porco feels loved by physical touch. he's absolutely touch starved and is always cuddled up to you like a puppy. when no one else is looking of course.

petnames: princess / prince, puppy, my girl / my boy, dollface, babygirl, bunny, my star

dates: outdoorsey, active dates such as hiking trips, a weekend at a cabin in the woods, picnics by the lake, etc. he also loves staying home with you, talking about your dreams and things you fear. he loves to cook you nice dinners on special occasions.

it takes him a while to fall in love, but he only does once. when his heart picked you, that was it.

the two of you tease and argue with each other all the time people wonder why you're even still together when it's really just the way you flirt.

he loves kissing you on the forehead, neck, and nose.

he will always be there to take care of you, he would probably complain about it after but there's never be a time he wouldn't be watching out for you and the people he loves.

is obsessed with pda, yes let everyone know you're his.

porco loves you because you're one of the only people he can actually be himself around and feel comfortable with it.

will start actual fights over you if someone offends you or tries to hurt you. he doesn't think twice about the consequences when it comes to your safety & comfort.

loves spontaneous dates, he has a bit of an impulse problem and often funnels it into more fun and healthy things. so it means he probably planned a complete and intricate date overnight for the next day.

loves taking pictures of you, silly and ethereal, most of his camera roll / social media is you.

he enjoys learning more about you, even the tiny stuff like how much you hated your first grade teacher or how you dreamed about flying grilled cheese last night. whatever it is, he wants to know. but what he really loves is your deepest and most personal thoughts. he wants to be someone you trust that much.

judges people with you.

probably writes your name and his name on everything you own like an old married couple. tupperware, clothes, kitchen utensils, shoes, hats. like it's crazy.

loves passing useless information to each other. yes he wants to know how the details of how you ordered your coffee this morning, yes he cares about the weird passing thought you just had. he would ace the " i saw a bird today " test.

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Scenario 1. (smiling at him while he eats)

you both just recently got home, you were both unwinding after what you recently watched. It was a late screening, so Jacob was making dinner. You were thinking whilst he cooked... He did remind you a bit of Nikki. He was stalkery, he was a bit obsessed, and he seemed to rely on you to keep himself from lashing out or something. But you knew all of that already. But you decided you'd try and turn the tables a bit, you were gonna act like Nikki did, to freak him out, for however long you wanted. Just to make him see how you feel when you wake up in the middle of the night and he's staring at you or when he stands outside the door almost every time you go to the bathroom.

Once he finished making dinner and had dished it up, you hopped up from the couch and sauntered over to the table as he put the dishes down, smiling over at you. You smiled back and sat down, the sight of the almost perfectly cooked salmon was incredible, since you might as well be starving. A comfortable silence fell over both of you as you both ate, and after a minute, you merely fidgeted with the fork, staring at him whilst he ate, neglecting your half eaten salmon. You were simply acting, you knew that, but you were admiring him at the same time. This gave you an excuse to stare at him, especially his eyes, god you adored his eyes.

He finally took notice of you staring, looking up to meet your eyes, the permanent soft smile on your face was a little freaky. But the sight of you adoring him made his face flush, though he soon figured out what you were doing. He chuckled as he took another bite of his food, seeing you hold back a giggle pretty well. He swallowed and spoke up, "What're you doin'?" He asked, only receiving that same unmoving stare as a response, making him chuckle. "I can do that too, y'know." He responded, his tone warm as he stared back at you, his eyes soft but carrying that same obsession in yours. It was a little hard to tell if you were joking, but it was clear his obsession was genuine. He tilted his head and hummed as he admired you, smirking softly when he saw you break and giggle whilst covering your mouth. "You're no fair" "and you're cute" he retorted, chuckling at your reaction.

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Scenario 2. (Standing at the bathroom door when he's in there)

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He left you to go to the bathroom, you did plan on just staying in bed, but how boring would that be? Instead, you decided to show him how "you couldn't stand being far away from him".

You tried your best to be silent, shoving the bed covers off of you and tip-toeing down the hall, pajamas messy and hair disheveled as you arrived at the occupied bathroom. You knew you were acting, but this was a bit relieving, oddly enough. Being in his shoes for once, getting to see what he does when he does these things. You tried your best to stand quietly as you stared at the door, putting on a pathetic look, like you got upset being away from him.

You heard the toilet flush, then the tap turn on, ect... And finally, he opened the door. He paused at the sight of you, seeming slightly startled by you but it was gone fast. His eyes slightly widened as he registered that you were actually there, and how pathetic you looked, that pretty pout on your lips was priceless... Without even speaking, his eyebrows creased lovingly as he leaned forward and moved the hair from your face, kissing your forehead and chuckling through his nose. "Now, what're you doin' here? I figured you'd be in bed." He asked, looking at the way your pouted stayed, but lessened. "I got lonely... You were taking too long." You responded, sounding pathetic. He was only in there for maybe 5 minutes, but that made your acting even more effective, in your eyes. "Darlin', I was in there for a few minutes?" "I know..." He tilted his head and smirked softly, adoring this acting you were showcasing to him. "C'mon, lets get back to bed." He said, his hand moving to the small of your back, hearing you giggle as he guided you back to the messy bed you shared.

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Scenario 3. (desperately refusing he go to work) imma love this one... like the date scene fyi

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You both got up not long ago, but you had no intention of stopping your little show. You were both sat comfortably in the kitchen, sipping coffee in more comfortable silence. You knew this time, your acting was gonna be a bit much, but it might work. He had his work uniform on, and he put his now empty mug down, moving his hands up to tie his hair up. You had to start soon, huffing through your nose to gather your confidence as he started making sure he had everything for work.

"what're you doing?" your soft tone made him turn his head to look at you, him tilting his head like a dog at your question. He thought it was obvious. "I'm gettin' ready for work, baby?" He responded, registering the frown forming on your face. God, you looked like you were being abandoned. "I thought we were gonna have a nice day together?" You responded sadly, tone almost turning desperate. Why'd you have to do this to him? you know how hard it was for him to leave in the morning in the first place. "Darlin', you know I gotta go.." It sounded like he was actually in pain due to denying you, but he didn't want his boss getting mad at him. "but- I don't want you to." You pouted, eyebrows creasing as you put down your mug, eyes never leaving him. "Um, alright.. how 'bout this, I'll call you every hour, yeah? I really should to come to work today. You know I don't wanna leave ya..."

It was making you feel bad, but you wanted this to work, and you know he'll crack, he loved you too much. You watched him pick up his bag and sling it over his shoulder, moves hesitant as he walked to the front door. Without even answering his suggestion, you got up, but didn't walk to him. You stayed right there, but you did pout and cause your lip to tremble. "nooo, noo, no, no, no, no. I thought we were having a day at home? Don't leave me!" You said a bit louder, hands trembling a little. Did you feel bad? no. Jacob not only had the payment for the bills already put aside, but his boss couldn't care that much, he's there every other day. You almost didn't register how fast he put his bag down, but you didn't fail to properly register how fast he came to you, like you were gravity itself. He hugged you, his head landing in the crook of your neck. He didn't care if you were joking, he wasn't leaving. The sight of you so desperate to keep him was mesmerizing, he would've responded in a similar way if the roles were reversed. He knew you were simply copying the movie from last night, but he let himself imagine you were being genuine.

"Oh, Darlin'... Y'know I love you too much to do that to ya.. I'm not leavin'... I swear. I'm all yours. I love y'so much..." was murmured into your hair, he sounded desperate to prove it, even as you hugged him back, his emotions were intense. You didn't dare say you were acting, you weren't even sure if you were honestly. That worried you.

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Scenario 4. (kneeling next to him when he's sitting down to get a kiss)

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You were in your office, conveniently next to Jacob's office. He was busy helping some random woman over facebook. That's what he told you when he came in to give you a drink, he always let you know how his work was going, but you decided to act like you were jealous. You knew your Jacob would rather be brutally murdered than upset you, but you wouldn't make a big scene of it. Besides, isn't that something Nikki would've done? This was honestly similar to that scene when she moves that other girl to be next to Bear to get a kiss... Well, now you know what you're doing.

You put your drink on the desk in front of you, stretching and getting up, making sure you didn't look a mess in the mirror nearby. You huffed through your nose and walked out, leaving the door open behind you as you marched to his office. You turned the doorknob slowly and peeked through the crack of the door, only hearing the clacking of his keyboard. You opened the door properly, watching him turn and look at you, his bored expression immediately shifting to happy at the sight of you, making you want to smile but you kept your tiny pout. "Darlin', I missed you." You were just in the other room, but that was sweet. "Somethin' the matter?" He asked after spotting the pout on your lips, hearing a ping from his computer, signaling the woman he was trying to help had responded to a question, but he didn't even react to it.

He watched as you walked over, eyebrows rising as he watched you kneel next to him, cheeks heating up at the sight of your maintained eye contact. You pursed your lips, hands moving to rest on his lap. He recognized what you were doing and chuckled, leaning down and planting a chaste kiss on your lips. You hummed and smiled, deciding to get comfortable, resting your head in your arms on his lap. "What're you doing?" You asked softly, looking up at him affectionately. "I'm helping that same woman from before, she's a very slow typer." He said humorously, earning a giggle from you. "What're you doing?" He repeated your question back to you. "I was jealous. You're giving her all your attention.." you huffed, not expecting his reaction. His hand came down to pat your hair gently, cooing down at you "Oh, Darlin'... Why don't you come up? Y'know I'd never do that to you, I adore you." He said lovingly as you did stand up, climbing into his lap and getting comfortable, making him smile as he held onto you, kissing your cheek. He didn't even try to look over your shoulder to get back to the stranger, just looking at you. "Kiss me properly.." You muttered with a pout, so he did. He moved a hand to your cheek and leaned in, kissing you like you wanted. You giggled into the kiss and kissed him back.

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-After the fire he was manic for months. He finally felt free for the first time in his life; he did whatever he wanted to. He k!lled a ton of his old bullies, he hitch-hiked across states, stopped taking his meds, and stopped caring for his well-being as much (didn't check for wounds every time he literally did anything because of his CIPA). He felt like he was on top of the world and could get away with whatever he wanted until the slender sickness got him to the Slenderwoods even after officially becoming a proxy, so when he "crashed," aka "calmed down", and realized what kind of situation he was in and that he had no normal future anymore, the others didn't know how to handle it since they only knew him as his hyperactive, over-the-top self, and he doesn't remember most of the things he did in those months

-He went off all of his meds fully for like the first year of being a proxy, but he went off the rails so badly with his mood swings that Tim and Brian stepped in and slowly got him to start taking at least some of his medication semi-regularly again

-He was scared of Slenderman at first and what might come with proxy life, but after getting a little more used to the proxy life and having Slenderman as his boss, he became more loyal and sort of saw working for Slenderman as his purpose. Which makes him one of the proxies Slenderman shows most mercy to, although he does have second thoughts about how Slenderman treats other proxies and about how he literally physically can't escape him and live a "normal" life anymore even if he wanted to.

-His family was lower middle class, and they almost went broke multiple times because of Toby's hospital costs and the costs of his meds

-He was very scrawny for most of his childhood to teenage life and only got a little more muscular after a few years of living as a proxy, but he's still more on the lean side

-He still has the same cow plushie he had when he was a kid

-He was given Lyra's locket necklace after the car crash and still has it

-The black turtleneck he wears in his 17-year-old arc and up is his mom's

-He doesn't want to ever have kids because of all his disorders and bc he's afraid that he might turn out like his dad

-He has bipolar disorder, ADHD, CIPA, tourettes, schizophrenia, PTSD (After the car crash) and amnesia due to Slender-sickness .

-His schizophrenia causes him to occasionally see Lyra post-crash and have disorganized speech, along with other visual and audio hallucinations

-He does experience romantic attraction towards people, kind of, but suppressed it for the most part n he did sort of have crushes growing up but never got into any form of romantic relationship, especially because he convinced himself he was hideous and his disorders would just be too much for people to handle, and he could never bring her/him around to his family anyway

-The little amount of memories he has of his past and Lyra are very faded and almost feel far away like he dreamed them? He can't tell if certain memories he has actually did happen

-Although he can't remember everything, he remembers a few things. Sometimes things just feel off or right or familiar, and he just can't figure out why

-He usually gets part of his memories back if someone or something triggers it, for example, his own episodes, drinking, driving, yelling, nightmares, specific insults, dreams, etc.

-He has reoccurring nightmares of the crash and some of the times his dad @bused him, but he sometimes doesn't remember parts of it—or Can't really figure out the whole picture (who the people are, if it did even happen, and why he feels a certain way about it).

-He often wakes up screaming and crying because of the nightmares.

-Sucks at social interactions

-Lyra taught him how to paint his nails, and now Nina does it for him.

-felt nauseous and/or had a weird feeling of dread for the first year at least after the car crash if he had to even sit in a car

-feels uncomfortable to be shotgun when driving or drive himself; it makes him feel terrible for a reason he can't explain

-Started getting home-schooled after middle school because of constant bullying

-Lyra showed him most of the bands he enjoys and still listens to

-His dad wasn't outright like fully racist or smt, but he still strongly held onto more conservative ideologies and would make offhand comments towards people, the type of old person to believe everything they see on Facebook and say some BS like, "This new generation is just a bunch of snowflakes; back in my day, bla bla bla—"

-If he's honest with himself, he did kind of hate his mom sometimes for the same reason Lyra did. His mom never left his dad even after he started drinking more and snapping more at the whole family mentally and physically. She'd try to excuse Frank's behavior and keep forgiving him. She still cared a lot about Toby, and he knows that he would have been fully lost without her and Lyra's support and is deeply grateful for it, but he still can't get over her staying with Frank and her sympathy towards him. Her love towards Toby was part of the reason Toby didn't k!ll her too.

-His favorite colors are orange, brown, and black.

-Loves Carmel candy and has a really big sweet tooth

-He smells like the woods after it rained, caramel, and bl00d.

-He listens to: Get Scared, Falling in Reverse, My Chemical Romance, Korn, Limp Bizkit, Linkin Park, Pierce the Veil, Midwest emo in general (The Front Bottoms, McCafferty), Nirvana, Pixies, Radiohead, ICP, Arctic Monkeys, Three Days Grace, Fall Out Boy, Set It Off, Panic! At The Disco, She Wants Revenge, The Smashing Pumpkins, Flyleaf, MSI, Green Day, Gorillaz, Slipknot, Metallica, and more. But he doesn't ever remember the song titles or band names; he says that he listens to just whatever sounds good.

-Had a Nightcore phase

-His birthday is on April 28th. He doesn't have a set birth year in my AU.

-Midwest emo-coded

-Regrets his K!lls when he thinks about it too much and is no longer under Slenderman's influence

-Used k!lling as an outlet to deal with his negative emotions and to gain back that feeling of being in power which he felt like he lacked in his life because of his dad and his disorders/how he was treated in his life for most of his proxy years but also low-key knew it was toxic and felt shit for putting his anger out on people and using k!lling to cope

-K!lled his dad fully under Slenderman's influence; he doesn't fully regret it, but he doesn't feel great about it anymore either.

-Wears a mouthguard out of metal and orange goggles (also Canon, I think?)

-Chewed through his cheek

-Has a strange fascination with fire and feels drawn to it

-His Tourette causes his neck to snap to the side, his shoulders to twitch, and sometimes even for him to fully lean backwards, and he has a stutter. His tics and stutters get worse under stress.

-Loves alternative fashion and music

-Has scars and burn marks all over his body

-He knows that he has German roots on his dad's side; that's also why his name is Tobias, but he can't understand or speak German or has ever been to Germany.

-His Dad could speak German and used to insult him in German

-Was raised in a small town outside of Denver in Colorado

-Prefers the cold over the heat

-His favorite season is Autumn

-He's not conventionally attractive

-He was short for most of his life and only grew very slowly (he's like 5.6-5.9 in my AU).

-Uses/Used unhealthy coping mechanisms: smoking n $h

-Low-key feels inhumane because of his CIPA and hates it because of how dangerous it is to him but also loves it at times.

-Started throwing himself into reckless situations and fights after he became a proxy because he thinks he's invincible or something because of his CIPA Although it's more of the opposite

-He sees Jack or Nurse Ann more than any other proxy because of how often he gets hurt.

-Him and Ej are basically polar opposites

-Tried to off himself after K!lling his dad and running away (mentioned in the original Ticci Toby backstory video also), but Slenderman stopped him.

-Keeps a thermostat next to his shower and sink because of his CIPA

-No, Toby would not be purposely physically abusive, especially towards his partner. 🥀🥀 He literally hated his dad for it.

-Has brown eyes and wavy brown hair

-Used to be more reserved, but after that manic phase he had in which he slimed out his dad n others and being a proxy for a bit, he got more loud-mouthed, sarcastic, and confident

-Refuses to visit Lyra's grave

-Bisexual

-Had a situation-ship with Clockwork for a bit, but she "broke up" with him

-Loves animals and insects, especially raccoons and deer

-Started listening to dad rock because of Tim and Brian

-Doesn't drink alkohol at all

-Never had a real friend before becoming a proxy; Lyra was his first and only friend

-Weed makes his tics worse but also makes him more relaxed

-Has cannibalistic tendencies he doesn't give into

-Still chews up his hands, fingernails, and cheek when he's nervous, stressed, or bored

-Can't stand still for the life of him; he's constantly fidgeting.

-Either no eye contact or staring directly at you

-Unintentionally Creepy

-Atheist or Agnostic

-Wears Converse religiously

-Loves nature, the woods, mountains

-Not the best cook, but he won't like burn down the entire kitchen either.

-Self-care is unheard of 🙏 he literally forgets to drink and eat and sleep for days on end.

-Stops eating when he's depressed, not purposely; he just loses his appetite (pretty sure this is Canon 2)

-Tim taught him how to shave

-Couldn't grow a beard up until his late teens

-Really fw Astrogeology

-Sucks at most sports

MY REQUESTS ARE OPEN