#azeda booth

https://azedabooth.bandcamp.com/album/sundances

https://azedabooth.bandcamp.com/album/pink-lime

remix i made of Kensington by Azeda Booth a year ago, which is fucking crazy, time flies. In Flesh Tones is one of my fav albums ever, and Morgan and Jordan from Azeda Booth both really enjoyed my flip so that was extremely heartwarming <3

Sorry I have been missing for a while. Hear some more from Azeda Booth, from their album “In Flesh Tones”

Azeda Booth - Kensington 

a heart can't lie like an iris can.

A lot of the songs I listen to become marked with the people and places that I force to surround them with. I tend to push these songs onto people. Shallowly, to see their face react to something new. Subconsciously, to try and crowd all the ugly memories that are glued to a song with new and hopefully beautiful ones. The different places I'm in shade the way I take in a song. Weather, mood, obstacles, life trajectory, and friends all force me to listen to a song differently. I may pay attention more to certain verses or to the way a song is making me feel rather than what it sounds like. I get triggered when I am riding my bike throughout town and then for a tenth of a second something reminds me of a situation I was in. It's a fleeting rush of emotions and it leaves my mind scrambling to hold on to the moment. For several moments after all the smells and things I thought I knew but didn't or wish I knew but could never hope to all come rushing back to me. For those few yards, I am the person I was in that memory. I am what I used to be. It's a weird feeling and it usually haunts me for the rest of the day. I began to realize how awful or great a thing used to be. I found this song at a point in my life where I was finally going out into the world. By that time, I had flown to Pennsylvania for a month long trip, took a 36 hour train up to Portland, followed a band up to Portland and back and flew with my best friend to the east coast to see a band from Japan play a couple shows. I showed this song to everyone I could. It instantly felt sexy to me. It's the only word I've been able to use to describe it. As always, a lot of my listening habits arrived at a climax when I ended up staying in a hospital for three months. Chemotherapy brought out a lot of emotions I had been hiding for a while. I had many nights of restless sleep where I'd drag myself out of my bed and set up my IV cart and boombox and play a mix tape of songs I would make during  the day. The tape would start soft and end in roar. At night, I'd play the songs along the cancer ward as quietly as I could. They were there to keep me from feeling lonely or uncontrollably weeping. I played this song a lot and it made me cry a lot. It also made me feel really happy and hopeful. It reminded me of things I felt when I was on the outside. This was vital to me in the hospital because after 2 months I began to forget about the outside world. I lost the ability to write properly, forgot that simple things like smoothies existed and so on. I had been immersed in the day by day living of being in a hospital that I forgot the daily routines of the outside world.  I showed my friend Chad this song and it blew him away. I don't think he'll ever realize how valuable that reaction was to me while I was in there. I was kept in reverse quarantine. I wasn't able to touch anybody. My mom started to cry one day when she was saying goodbye because she wasn't allowed to hug or kiss me. The feeling of not being able to touch someone really made me sensitive to all the other ways I could feel intimacy. I treasured little exchanges like the one I had with Chad because it it made me feel less depressed to be able to make someone feel good instead of just making them worry. This song has changed over the years in it's importance and use to me and I love that it's going to keep changing as I grow older.

Well - Azeda Booth