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         The blond trailed off as he felt a cold sweatdrop run down his face  .   How hard was it to ask such a simple question  ?   So many MORE  nervous times were to come if he couldn’t  even  get over this  .   Not wanting to peel his eyes off the screen  ,   Len made a quick glance over to see their expression in  wonder  if they had even heard him  .   Appearing to be immersed in staying first place in Mario Kart  ,   he decided to blurt it out  .

❝    DOES uh -  does Len happen to like chocolate    ?      ❞

{ I doodled some Aidens ( one of @ayvios ‘s characters ) because I got around to drawing wings and wanted to play around with the idea of angel body language

     Today was quite coincidentally  ,   the day their town would hold a  wonderful festival  in the square and INDEED- after rapping on the door did the sudden realization  HIT  that his stomach churned with butterflies  ,   and his palms seemed to create waterfalls  .   He was only going to ask if they both wanted to join .  .  .  No ― in truth ― if   he  wanted to join  . 

❝   HEY ― um  ,   h-hey  .  Len ― how’ve you been ?      This weekend’s really warm  ,   h-huh  ?                   ❞

❝   DON’T say that   .  .  .   you know I- well  ,   I- I- love you too  .   ❞

       A heavy atmosphere surrounded the the boys as they stood underneath the awning  .   Fearful   of losing both his   OPPORTUNITIES   as an idol and his   RELATIONSHIP  ,   he rubbed the back of his neck  ,   unsure of   whether or not   he’d have to ask his boyfriend to leave  .   As he wiped the tears off of Len’s face  ,   his eyes stared at the scattered bento boxes on the ground  . 

        He had to admit that although it had been   incredibly sweet   for Len to come visit  ,   frequent ones meant that he would need to stay behind to practice himself  ,   and his busy schedule was pushed back  .   It was a constant   HASSLE   of responsibilities that led to his mentor’s   FRUSTRATION   with him  ,   and a case of isolation from the rest of trainees  .   It   pained   his heart to see his boyfriend cry  -   it hadn’t been his fault  .

being an idol isn’t hard per se, especially when you’re not one of the bigger ones out there. to a degree, it kind of pisses him off, but with him being so low tier compared to others, it might be a little easier for him to date and the like. not like he thinks he could find anyone worth his time ( or , perhaps , would he be taking up their time ? who would want to know such a low tier idol when there are so many others ?? ) since he’s an idol and all. lower tier, but an idol nonetheless. 

despite his lack in popularity, he’s been stalked a few times. thus, that’s why he’s moved to another school. he would have much preferred to be moved to another district to be home schooled, but he can never really negotiate with SONY these days. it’s certainly annoying, though. not like he can let that show, though. not to the public eye. no, he’s supposed to be sweet and innocent utatane piko. the shy, quiet idol who’s appeal is being cute. not like he minds. being seen as cute is fine. 

and thus, that’s why today, as he introduces himself to his new classmates, he meekly says,

‘ i-it’s nice to meet everyone.. ! l-let’s get along, okay.. ? ’

“these moments are your fault. i’m losing a rigged battle.”