#aynee rambles

Good fucking morning!!! I AM FINE I AM WELL I AM NORMAL AAAAAAAAA

He just opened up a bit on stream, saying the past few weeks hes been having anxiety attacks/crisis' that have left him bad mentally. He said he started seeing a psychologist, and turns out he has an anxiety disorder and hes taking meds and going to therapy.

He says that's why his lives have been a bit sporadic, why sometimes he can stream 4 times a week and then only stream 1 day. Hes gonna take a few days/maybe weeks off after arkanis to figure out stuff about himself and take a break

When Pac says Fitch when hes anxious

Fit adopting Pac’s accent/pronunciation

Pac gives quick and frequent glances at Fit while Fit gives long and spaced-out ones

When one of them says a word and the other repeats it with a lower tone and it keeps going until one of them breaks

How as time went on, Fit's usual 'o/' when Pac joins gets more '/' (o////////////)

"Oiiiiiii" "Oi Fitch!"

How when Pac talks badly about himself, Fits there to remind him of all the incredible things he did and how much he survived

Pac understands how much Ramon means to Fit and gives them space when theyre together (the moment when the eggs came back lives rent free in my mind– Pac's soft smile when he saw Fit and Ramon talking was too much)

How they both understand that their platonic relationships (pac w mike and fit w phil) are very important to them and will come first if something happens

Just– the trust they have. Any time of them asks the other if they trust him, the other replies 'yes' immediately

.....Pac?