#awkwardnessqueen

My last day on the job is on the 10th and I can’t be more excited. My friend even told me that I was too happy for someone who might be unemployed soon, like I don’t have any regrets at all. Does this mean that it’s a good thing? Well, I don’t have to force myself to do something I don’t want to do anymore so that’s good.

Don’t get me wrong my relationship with my colleagues is still as smooth as ever that they even invited me to the company dinner even though I will not technically be a part of the company anymore when that happens. They also wanted me to be the guest speaker whenever there are programs at the school that I have to think about because I haven’t really done anything significant in my life yet. I feel like I’m just a newbie at adulthood. 

Since my days on the job are surely about to end I can’t help but remember my first day. I was like a deer in the headlights. So lost and confused but also partly excited to the point I want to vomit. Excited that I’ll be meeting new people and starting my work. Finally. Not. I didn’t feel welcome at first. 

So let me explain there’s SCHOOL 1 and SCHOOL 2 both owned by the same person. They told me to come to SCHOOL 1 first and they’ll be bringing me to SCHOOL 2 later on which is where I’m really assigned. I was told to just wear polo shirt, jeans, and rubber shoes so I did just that. I went to SCHOOL 1 happily hoping that I’ll be assisted and guided cause I really don’t know what I’m doing since it’s my first job. I only know about 3 people there. The owner, Mr. J, the president Mr. E, and the academic head Mr. D and I was told to look for Mr. D when I get there so I looked for him and waited for him. Although I met him before, it wasn’t so pleasant meeting him on my first day on the job.

I felt like he was power tripping me. He looked me up and down and I felt quite intimidated. He started asking me questions and asked me to answer them in English, which I did. Like, I already got hired I thought that part was over? I felt he didn’t like me and I found myself feeling the same towards him. I was so nervous I kept on touching my hair while answering his questions and he told me “You should speak in English when talking to the parents. You should stop touching your hair and you shouldn’t wear that type of clothing.” I was confused because it’s what I was told to wear and I see people even him wearing the same outfit I was wearing and others are wearing SHORTS, and fucking SLIPPERS and they’re PROFESSORS. Like WTF is your problem. I’m already like, I don’t mesh well with this place. I clenched my teeth really hard every day before I got to transfer to SCHOOL 2. I stayed for about a week at SCHOOL 1 which was dreadful. I was supposed to work there on Saturdays as well as a part time but it was too much for me. I don’t like the people and the ambiance at SCHOOL 1 so I just asked them to get rid of my Saturdays cause I’ll be reviewing for this exam I’m taking on October and thank God that they did.

A week passed by and I was asked to go work at SCHOOL 2. SCHOOL 2 has much nicer people and I felt immediately welcomed. They were all very welcoming and friendly very far from the people at SCHOOL 1. I heaved a sigh of relief thanking God that I’ll be working at a much nicer environment. My first day at SCHOOL 2 was much better than at SCHOOL 1. The Principal was like a mother to me she was there to guide me and I couldn’t thank her enough. The accountant which is who I’m with most of the time was really friendly too. They didn’t make it difficult for me to approach them. They didn’t intimidate me at all even the Principal was not intimidating she was very warm towards us all.  I’m glad I met the people at SCHOOL 2 and they’ll always be my friends no matter what.