Levi once had an important female figure in his life, Isabel. at her age, she must have experienced her share of premenstrual symptoms. so, Levi wouldn’t be entirely clueless about it.
what he is clueless about is how to deal with it as a romantic partner.
with Isabel, he used to brew her tea, make makeshift heating pads, and even steal tampons or pads for her. as for her tantrums or mood swings, he'd just let Farlan handle them. but with his partner, he has to do everything himself. he’d love to make you tea, buy you heating pads or painkillers, he’d love to help with anything your physical body needs. but your emotions? that’s where he gets confused.
like, what do you mean you’re crying one second and then getting ecstatic just because he mentions he’s going to buy your craving? or how you’re overjoyed eating your favorite food, only to suddenly get in a bad mood again? what do you mean you suddenly have a problem with how busy he is, when you usually don’t make a fuss about it? the inconsistency, the emotional instability, the way you're so different from your usual self, it all throws him off.
he definitely told you to "cut it out" the first time he encountered this side of you. but then you went so quiet, it made him uneasy. so, he tried talking it out with you, just trying to make sense of what the hell was going on.
if you choose to stay silent, just because you can, he’ll eventually stop trying to talk and leave you alone. later, though, you’ll find your favorite food delivered to your doorstep, and your favorite flower if you're lucky.
but if you’re willing to talk about it, his mind might keep screaming “what the hell?” “how does that make sense?” “i’m so fucking lost”, he’ll keep his mouth shut and genuinely try to understand, even if none of it makes sense to him.
after all, loving you means accepting this confusing, illogical side of you too.
we all know he’s not big on words of affirmation. all he can do is buy your favorite treats and flowers, hoping that’s enough affirmation for you.
he can only hold you in bed as you go through your cramps, give you a few massages here and there, and hope that’s enough affirmation for you.
he can only kiss the crown of your head and indulge your clinginess more than usual, that’s enough affirmation for you.
he can only offer his quiet understanding of your emotional ups and downs, and offer to clean the bedsheets or clothes if you have any “accidents,” and hope that’s enough affirmation for you.
when he’s too busy to pamper you, all he can do is hope you understand that if he could be there, he would be. no no, scratch that, he trusts that you will understand. he’ll send someone to check up on you when he can’t, and send you sweets and little things to make up for his absence.
he’ll make sure that even if he’s not physically there, you won’t feel unloved, not even a little. and if you somehow do, he’ll make sure to make it up to you the moment he gets back.
he’s learning you, slowly but surely.
and though he won’t admit it, he does enjoy getting to know you, little by little.
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holy shit this ramble turned out to be quite long.
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