#averyhcs

sam's top commenting on how he has such a big dick, too bad he doesn't get to use it <3

love love love sam being victim-blamed and blaming himself for the things that happen to him <3 catnip to freaks like me

anyway sam throwing up in 5x01 and seeing flecks of blood in his vomit and bile and hoping the poison is out of him. throwing up after he sleeps with ruby for the first time. i also have the headcanon that the demon blood actually tastes really gross so maybe he feels nauseated every time he drinks it but he has to power thru it. ruby rubbing his back when he kneels over a toilet or a sink with his hair matted with sweat, retching but nothing comes up. ahhhh

not really a d*stiel guy but i do so love the idea that cas saw dean and went "waow the michael sword is really hot" over angel radio by accident and bc he's just one of thousands of angels michael went "WHO SAID THAT. WHICH ONE OF YOU SAID THAT"

my ideal angel love is not understandable by humans. it can't even be communicated in words. you can come close to it in enochian but the only true way to understand how it feels is to see into the angel's head. they express it differently, speak of it differently, and sometimes it doesn't look like love, but it really truly is. when an angel loves someone, humans have to learn how to see the signs of it, and understand that it doesn't always resemble the signs of human love. and the human has to go ok. you love me. what does that really mean?

thinking about bugboy sammy again..... he is so patient and kind with vulnerable little creatures even as he grows up and up and up and he has to bend all the way down to pick up a worm off the sidewalk and put it in the grass. he catches spiders in a cup or just lets them chill in a corner. he can just sit and appreciate bees buzzing over a patch of flowers. there are so many beautiful little guys wandering around if you take the time to notice them. and maybe they aren't gross or dirty or bad. they are lovable. just like sam. he wants to believe that