ShieldShock Holiday Fic 2020Ā Ā Ā Ā FOR Ā @ava-rosierĀ Ā Ā Ā
At Ao3:Ā Snowbound Christmas
Prompts:
-There's only one hotel room left and it's a blizzard outside and There Is Only One Bed.
-Either at a Mall or an Airport during the busy holiday season, a villain is trying to steal/ruin the holidays and Steve and Darcy, who are both there for Reasons, team up to foil the dastardly plot.
-When Darcy wore her new, risquƩ Captain America xmas/holiday sweater to work that day, she didn't expect that he would actually...y'know...SEE it.
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So, itās been a while since I wrote. Hi, friends!!! :)Ā But I adore ShieldShock still and will always adore @mcgregorswench and the ShieldShock Holiday Fic Exchange.Ā I tried to capture the feel of your prompts, @ava-rosier .Ā Iāve done holiday in the airport before but can NEVAH get too much of THERE IS ONLY ONE BED.Ā Hope youāre having a wonderful holiday, enjoying seeing 2020 finally end, and that youāll enjoy your ShieldShock holiday fic gift!!! :)
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Snowbound Christmas
Darcy startled as the car door scraped open over deep snow and a gust of wind blew in to steal her breath. It was even colder than the previous times. Steve could move fast, but not faster than the blizzard winds. He shook his head as he slammed the door closed behind him, sealing them in the relative calm. The only sound at first was the rustle of her shivering. He turned the car on again and they both savored relief as the air around them warmed.
She shifted position in her seat. āSteve, my friend! No room in the Inn?ā Darcy tried to sound upbeat rather than weary. āIād so hoped the eleventh try would be the charm. I mean, those two were raved over in Google as āsimpleā and ābudgetā. You wouldnāt think that would draw a crowd.ā She continued to watch the snow fall, eyes going out of focus.
Steve shook his head and pushed his snow-damp hair back. āI tried all five places in the village. Cut across town on foot rather than wasting gas.ā He frowned. āIām too stubborn. Should āa stopped twenty miles back where there were more possibilities. Iām sorry, Darcy.ā He kept his eyes on the road as he started slowly moving. The snow was falling hard, gusting winds whipping it around them with abandon. Even with four-wheel drive, good snow tires, and perfect reflexes- Steve didnāt dare go more than fifteen miles per hour. Driving was hazardous, more by the minute.
Darcy shrugged her shoulders. āThe forecast was off. I thought we had more time before it got bad, too. I swear! I only closed my eyes for like twenty seconds. When I opened them again it looked like Iād missed seeing three inches fall. You must be freezing. The other motels are two miles away, arenāt they?ā She shivered, both sympathetically and because the car was still warming up.
āIāll be fine.ā Steve sighed again and glanced at Darcyās phone before staring ahead of them again. āAny other ideas?ā
Darcy squinched up her features, āwellā¦ā She was glad Steve focused his attention on the road. She worried that her idea wouldnāt be well received. āWe could ask the others for suggestions? Surely Tony owns something between here and the City.ā Darcy held her breath. Sheād seen Steve and Tony clash at the Avengers Upstate Base enough to know that he didnāt want to ask Tonyās help.
Steve reached in his jacket pocket and handed his phone to Darcy, groaning in resignation. āHad the same thought. See if heās replied?ā He steeled himself.
Darcy laughed merrily as she read his incoming texts.
āThat bad?ā Steveās frown lines deepened.
Darcyās lips twitched. āNah, buddy-o. Tonyās busting your chops about being a damsel in distress. He reminds you that heās been away from Pepper for a week and has injuries to rest up from. Says to cool your heels at a summer lake cabin of hers. Coordinates and key code provided. And to resist the urge to crash dramatically into the lake as it wouldnāt be very festive of you. Cabin can be drafty, but was cleaned recently. Which, yay! They were going to come up last week for a dating anniversary celebration before the weather changed and he took that mission.ā
Steve nodded and blew out an impatient breath. He glanced at Darcy again, ādoes anyone other than Jane know youāre with me?ā His tone sounded wary.
Again, Darcy shrugged and avoided his gaze. āI dunno. If the local mechanic didnāt have sick kids at home, Iād be driving myself through this like I planned. Probably wouldāve crashed in a snow drift by now or be caught in the sadly-parked madness on the interstate you were smart enough to skip. Why? Iām sorry that coming for me put you behind schedule. Youāre too kind, putting yourself out for little ole me. You probably have plans with close friends, or something.ā She trailed off, uncertain if that was a fair assumption regarding Steve. As much time as theyād spent together since they met over a year before, he seemed to always be working.
Darcy frowned, sad for Steve. And for herself. Sheād tried in vain to shake the crush she had on the loneliest Avenger. He seemed determined to stay lonely and fill his time almost entirely with work. Whenever he came to Janeās lab, she struggled not to let her extreme thirst for him show. She ended up babbling most times, griping about stuff and talking nonsense. He came by the lab a lot, so she had many embarrassing memories to cringe about.
āNot really. And donāt apologize, Darcy. I wanted to help you. Iām glad youāre with me rather than stuck, or worse.ā Steve chose to ignore part of her question for the moment. āI was just going by Tony and Pepperās party at the Tower to keep some peace between us. Then I figured I might go to Brooklyn to see the crazy lights they put up there these days, and then maybe head down to D.C. to see Sam. Nothing firm. No big deal.ā He turned into a skid and eased up on the gas. Anyone else would have registered alarm at the need to maneuver like that. The majority of drivers would have wrecked. Sleet mixed in with the precipitation.
Darcy nodded, silent. She clicked on the coordinates Tony had sent and turned up the volume on the phone directions. When there was a pause, she spoke up, āstill sorry to keep you from your party, lights, and Sam. Iām relieved that you werenāt just planning to ignore the holiday at the Upstate Base again this year, though. No offense, but hearing you did that last year made me mad at you.ā She let out an indignant huff and blinked back tears.
He raised his brows, but didnāt reply at first. Finally, not wanting to seem rude, Steve asked, āmad? Why?ā He fought against both flickers of hope and melancholy.
Steve tried not to wish for what he believed he couldnāt have. Heād found that Darcy won friends easily, but rarely let anyone get close enough to know her the way heād like to know her. She kept things light and funny, using her humor as a shield against intimacy. Ā He admired her ability to deflect when she used it with others, lamented it when she used it with him.
The first day they met, Steve fell hard for the brash, strong-willed, funny, gorgeous dame. And then he met her boyfriend, Ian. Even after that relationship ended, Darcy made it crystal clear that she saw Steve only as a friend. Her emotional shield pushed him back like the strongest of force fields. She bristled if he held a door or pulled out a chair for her. She acted like it was weird if he did anything for her- like bringing her coffee when he was getting some for himself in Janeās lab.
Also, there was Darcyās apparent dislike of soldiers. She cursed agents and soldiers as ājack-booted thugsā every time a piece Janeās equipment misbehaved. Heād overheard Darcy rant to Jane about her sisterās hard life with a military guy Darcy disdained as āSoldier Boyā. Steve was a soldier. He'd never regretted it until it came between him and the only 21st century woman heād met who captivated him.
Her tone as she spoke next brought Steve out of his reverie. āI know that those you love from your time were more like family to you⦠that you still mourn all you lost.ā Darcy avoided looking at Steve, āBut, I consider you a friend and I donāt like for anyone to treat my friends bad⦠especially, themselves. Thinking of you doing busy work and walking echoing halls alone. Imagining you eating frozen dinners and training alone while the rest of the world celebrated? Too sad. Awful. I wish you wouldāve let me, I mean, someone, anyone, know that you didnāt have plans.ā Darcy swallowed hard around the lump in her throat. Sheād held that in for the better part of a year and was terrified that sheād overstepped enough to anger Steve. If her voice sounded brittle, she couldnāt help it. Her feelings for Steve ran deep. Sheād taken one look at Steve Rogers and lost her heart irrevocably.
Steve shook his head and joked to offer one correction, āI hardly ever eat frozen dinners.ā He cleared his throat. āWhat did you do for Christmas last year?ā Steveās tone was mild, unreadable. Heād spent a lot of the previous yearās holiday week reliving the pain of seeing Darcy being kissed by Ian under mistletoe. It was a harsh blow since heād heard rumors that theyād broken up and dared hope for a chance with her. Thinking of that terrible moment still filled Steve with potent jealousy.
Darcy cut a glance Steveās way. āI went to the usual lame lab holiday party, complete with joke gifts and too much mistletoe. Then, un-fun family time. As soon as I could escape my dumb sister Beth and āSoldier Boyā, I got back to Janeās. I made Thor watch Christmas cartoons while I struggled to explain the pop nuances of them to him. We drank eggnog. I exchanged joke gifts with him and Jane and Erik. Then we all helped serve Christmas dinner at homeless shelter. And I ate too much and fell asleep on the couch at Janeās place that night. I āpeopledā.ā She glared at Steve and repeated in an accusing tone, āāPeo-ple-d!āā
Darcy frowned as she also remembered Ian cornering her under mistletoe before Christmas. He tried to get back together with her until she threatened to tase him. It had cast a pall over Darcyās entire holiday. Ā That was one interaction with people she did NOT look back on fondly.
Steve chuckled weakly, āand youāre mad at me for not āpeople-ing?āā Ā
āYou never want anyone to pity you in any way, but then you do stupid stuff like that! I mean, I was drunk when Thor told me, but it made me CRY.ā Darcy shook her head and looked away, frowning, angry. āSorry. Said too much. Not my business. I know. Sorry.ā She hunched her shoulders as though concerned he might offer a rebuke.
Steve's face fell into a sad grin. āNo need to⦠Itās nice that you worry about me, Darcy. Thanks for that.ā He resisted the urge to cover her hand with his. āIām sorry I made you cry.ā Genuine distress filled him, that sheād cried and that he had no right to offer comfort. Something in her reaction brought out his deepest protective instincts.
Careful to avoid distracting Steve from driving, Darcy poked his rock-hard bicep. āPfft. Silly. Youāre not alone, even if you try. You have friends. Iām your friend. You know that. Right?ā
āFriends.ā Steve nodded, grim. āYeah. Thank you for being my friend, Darcy.ā He sighed, long and low.
Darcy nodded, unable to speak around the lump in her throat.
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Ā Soon, they arrived at the coordinates. A tiny cabin nestled in the deepening snow. It was dark, but for a dim light visible through its large windows.
Darcy moaned, āfinally.ā
āI could carryā¦ā Steveās voice trailed off as Darcy threw her door open and jumped out into the knee-deep snow. She almost fell, but righted herself. The winds swirled snow and sleet all around her.
āShit! Cold!ā Darcy trudged with purpose towards the cabin. āSo cold! And, eww, wet. Oh!ā She input the code Tony had sent for the front door lock and shoved inside. Darcy kicked off her snow-covered boots and dropped her coat inside the front door. She scurried to the bathroom. āSome of us donāt have super bladder capacity!ā Her brief view of the cabin interior was minimal. Dark shapes stood out against the eerie snow light through the windows.
Steve slammed his car door and followed. He shook his head and yelled back, ānobody has thatā as he picked up Darcyās coat, shook snow off, and hung it on a hook. He toed off his boots and set them and Darcyās boots near the fireplace. Then, he peeled off his snow pants and hung them on a hook near the door. Theyād kept his jeans dry.
āDonāt get your tights in a twist. Iām hurrying!ā Darcy called from the bathroom.
Brows raised; Steve surveyed the cabin. He flicked light switches and swore under his breath as low, golden light bathed the tight space. The room was dominated by a low bed and floor to ceiling windows. A Christmas tree decorated with lights stood by the bed. There were at least a dozen pillows and a sheer hanging canopy laced with warm string lights over the bed. There was no sofa, only two reading chairs and a small table in front of the fireplace. A kitchenette took space along one wall. It had a well-stocked wine rack.
Mostly, there was the ridiculously romantic-looking bed. Face prickling with heated anxiety, Steve found a thermostat and started the heater. Then, he began to build a fire in the brick fireplace. The cabin was cold and the windows were more suited to airiness than warmth. The back walls were brick, attractive but cold in winter weather.
āUh, Steve?ā Darcy sounded sheepish; voice muffled by the bathroom door. āCan you hand me a blanket or look for a robe or something? Iām sorry to trouble you. My pants are soaked up to the knees and I canāt put them back on. Theyāre freezing. Wet with snow.ā
Steve closed his eyes, still for several seconds. He looked around for a closet and saw instead a wardrobe. He grabbed a black silk robe, frowning at the sheer and gauzy red alternative hanging beside it. The top shelves held baskets of swimsuits, shorts, and other summer clothes. He took the black robe off the hangar and walked to the bathroom. He knocked and held out the robe, eyes averted. Then, he went back to work on the fire.
āThanks, I didnāt think. Just ran to the bathroom. Iā¦ā Darcy stopped as she got a good look at the cabin. āOh, holy⦠uh, night.ā She cut a careful glance Steveās way.
Steve shook his head and chuckled. āSomething like that. Donāt worry. I can sleep on the floor. Iāve done worse.ā He arranged another log in the growing flames and warmed his hands.
āYou can NOT! Donāt be stupid. I wonāt attack you. Promise. We both need to sleep and thereās room for two if we remove a few hundred pillows.ā Darcyās tone sounded more certain and stubborn as she talked. She rolled her eyes at him. āMake a line of pillows down the middle of the bed as a dividing line if you want to keep me away. Or, I can do it.ā She frowned at him, set her jeans near the fire to dry, and moved to the kitchenette. Darcy opened the refrigerator, freezer, and cabinets to see what they had to work with. āSorry about my coat and boots. I was gonna get them, I swear.ā
Steve frowned, disliking her urgent anxiety. āNo problem.ā
Darcy opened a bottle of water and drank it. āI didnāt dare drink much water while we were stuck in the car, but I still needed a bathroom for at least the past hour.ā She offered him a bottle, which he accepted and downed before returning his attention to his work. Darcy moved food from the freezer to the refrigerator to thaw. She opened a couple of cans of soup and put them on to simmer, and sat in a reading chair. āI checked the weather forecast while I was in the bathroom. Weāre not getting out of here on our own power before tomorrow night at the earliest.ā She tightened the belt on the robe and leaned towards the fire, hands outstretched. āNice. Getting a little warmth there. Thanks.ā
Steve excused himself to the restroom. On his return, he sat in the other chair. He watched the fireās progress, then turned his attention to the deepening snow visible through the windows all around them. āQuieter now. Slowing down, or a lull before more blizzard.ā
āLull, according to radar. Fresh snow absorbs sound. Something about air between the flakes dampening vibrations.ā When Steve gave her an impressed look, Darcy grinned, āI saw it in a meme on the Internet. Must be true.ā She winked at him.
Steve returned her grin. āInternet. So helpful.ā
āExcept when itās REALLY not.ā She made a face, both sad and angry. āBeth met āSoldier Boyā online. And, of course his worst notions get amplified there. Bleurgh.ā
Careful, Steve dared, āwhat branch of the Military is your brother-in-law with?ā
Darcy choked on water. āBr... Whaa?ā She shook her head, hard. āGod, no! Donāt say that. It might come true if you say it. Ā Eww! Grandma Esther'd roll right out of her grave to beat the ever-living sh⦠heck⦠pardon me, out of Beth if she marries that Nazi wannabe.ā Darcy shuddered dramatically. āCrud. Theyāve been dating more than a year. And, Christmas⦠You may be right. Ugh.ā She spoke as she texted into her phone, āāIf you marry him, Iāll give you kitty litter as a wedding present, used kitty litter. Dumbass. BTW I hate him. Heās awful.ā Ugh. Delete. Delete. Delete.ā
Steve digested all this and stayed quiet. He noted with interest that Darcyās cheeks reddened as though with embarrassment. In his experience she didnāt embarrass easily. Her plush lower lip jutted out in a pout. āBethās dating a racist faux-militia-type lunatic. Sheās decided sheās Sub to his Dom and overlooks his politics and crazy behavior. Itās nauseating.ā Darcy frowned, sad, āI donāt see the attraction. Mom says the sex must be great, cuz she doesnāt understand the attraction, either.ā Darcy twirled a piece of her hair nervously on one finger. āMom thought she had the worst taste in men in the family, but Bethās making her wonder.ā She shook her head. āSorry. Nothing to you. You donāt know them. Crazy family of a sorta friend.ā
āI know you⦠some. I care more than you think.ā Now Steveās cheeks reddened. He hadnāt meant to say that aloud.
Darcy gestured as though to bump shoulders with him. āNice.ā She arranged the robe over her legs, both from cold and modesty.
Hesitant, Steve ventured, āyou never mention your father.ā
Darcyās gaze turned his way. āNope. Long gone.ā Her expression hardened. āThank goodness.ā
After an awkward silence fell between them, Steve went to the stove and spooned soup into two bowls. He returned to his place by the fire. He handed Darcy her soup, noting her mild surprise at being served. They ate without speaking. When they were done, they both took their bowls and rinsed them in the sink.
Darcy walked over to the bed and started moving pillows. āDo you want a dividing line?ā She didnāt try to meet his gaze.
āNot necessary. Letās put the pillows by the windows. Theyāll block some of the cold thatās coming in and making it hard for this place to warm up.ā Steve pressed pillows along the bottom edge of one window. He glanced back as Darcy slid beneath the covers, still wearing the black robe. The warm light brought out red and light brown highlights in her long hair. She looked even prettier than usual in the golden glow. And he thought she was always beautiful.
Darcy shivered hard. āSheets are freezing!ā
Swallowing hard, Steve sat on the far side of the bed from her. āWant the decorative lights off?ā
āNā¦n..not unless you do. Theyāre p..pretty. Make me think warmer thoughts.ā Her shivers shook the bed.
Steve shifted so that he could lift the covers and lay underneath them. They were icy cold against his pants. He imagined the chill was worse against Darcyās bare legs. He lay back and closed his eyes, feeling the motion of the bed from Darcyās shaking. The winds began to wail again, harder than before. He opened his eyes and turned to look out at the raging blizzard. āWanna lay back-to-back? I run warm.ā As she shifted so that she faced away from him, he rolled to his side and moved back against her. He cursed himself as a masochist.
āOhhh. Fuck, yes!ā Darcy swore under her breath and whispered, āsorry. So sorry!ā
āI know what you mean and you donāt have to avoid cursing around me. Weāre not on a mission communicator in an official capacity. That ālanguageā thing they joke me about is nonsense. I donāt give a damn about how people want to talk in regular life.ā Steve closed his eyes again, trying to keep his tone even as Darcy wriggled against his back. He heard her mutter thanks a few times. Making her feel good pleased him.
Five minutes later, Darcy rolled over and pressed her cold nose against his shoulder. She spent several minutes trying to figure out where to put her hands. She ended up crossing her arms over her chest and tucking her hands under her chin. Within minutes, she was asleep.
Listening to the sound of Darcyās breathing as it evened out and deepened lulled Steve to sleep soon after. His face settled into a small smile.
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Ā Steve supposed it was a slight change in the blizzard-muted light of day that woke him next. Languorous, sensual dreams dissipated through his hazy thoughts. Dream images of Darcy, kiss-swollen lips and bared creamy skin, heated his blood.
Then, awareness hit him hard. He and Darcy clenched in a loverās embrace. Their legs entwined and her head was on his chest. Her sweet, feminine scent filled his senses. Her amazing breasts pressed against one side of his chest. One of her hands was against his arm and the other warmed the skin of his stomach, inside his shirt. It all felt so good and right that it stole his breath. His bodyās natural response to his dreams, to her, and to waking was extreme. He was afraid to move lest any friction push him past sanity. A small, low moan sounded in her throat as she shifted against him. He tensed.
Her voice was raspy with sleep. āI know itās awkward, but Iām way too comfy to regret it. You feel good, Steve.ā
āRight back atchaā, Doll,ā he whispered. Wishing himself back in his dreams, he kissed her forehead and squeezed her even closer. He wanted her so much he could hardly stand it.
Darcy made another small sound in her throat as she wriggled against him. The realization that he was aroused sparked her passions, but she didnāt dare to presume too much. Maybe it was only an impressive sign of morning. She followed his example and placed a chaste kiss below his jaw. She felt his heart pounding more quickly and closed her eyes again. She flexed her fingers against his ridiculously-cut abdomen and felt him jolt. She debated if any of his reactions had anything to do with her in particular. She wished they did.
Both of them were awake, but neither admitted it. Ā Each of them savored the embrace and the feel of the otherās body. They each fantasized about the other. Ā They fantasized about passionate first moves, expressing affection and desire. Want. They became lost in imagining more and more. Ā Time passed. Their emotions swirled like the blizzard winds that trapped them together.
They lay cuddled and simmering with unspoken desires until Steveās phone rang. It broke the spell. He moved away from Darcy and answered the phone.
She watched the play of muscles under the back of his shirt and struggled to stifle her lust. Ā Darcy closed her eyes. Ā It was futile. Ā Her lust for Steve had been growing for over a year. Ā In this circumstance, lust was inevitable.
While Steve talked with Sam, assuring him that he was fine though the storm prevented him reaching the City, Darcy left the bed and went to the bathroom. She snagged her dry jeans on her way there. She took a shower and did what she could with toothpaste she found in the medicine cabinet and her finger. When she came back out, she hung the robe in the wardrobe and put on her Christmas cardigan. She looked through the wardrobe and giggled at the sheer red robe. Then, Darcy took a step back. She buttoned and straightened her sweater by her reflection in the wardrobe mirror.
Steve paused in his conversation, a gob-smacked look on his face, āwhatā¦?!ā
āOh! Yeah. I know. Gaudy, isnāt it? Well, last year Tony gifted the āugliest sweater at his partyā winner $10,000. I know what he can be like, so I thought Iād stand a better chance of catching his walletās attention if I went a little on the sexy side. And I sewed in lights.ā Darcy twirled and turned on the LED lights that adorned the sweater. Her dark green Christmas cardigan had bauble Avenger emblem buttons. A Captain America Shield button strained to hold the sweater together over Darcy's breasts. Silver and gold trim around the hem resembled tinsel. Red and gold lighted and embroidered ornaments dotted the sweater at random. It was a bit gaudy rather than ugly, but sexy most of all since the fabric hugged Darcyās ample curves. She wore it over a tight red top and skinny black jeans. The ensemble played up her natural assets.
Steve could only nod in reply. He tried to turn his full attention back to his conversation, but didnāt do well.
By the time Steve was off the phone and had made the bed, Darcy found waffles in the freezer and syrup in the pantry. She had coffee brewing and was downing another bottle of water when Steve began stoking the fire embers and adding wood. They shared a quiet breakfast. Steve tried not to look at Darcyās figure and failed again and again. He tried not to fantasize as Darcy licked syrup from her lips. He failed.
As they finished breakfast, Darcy looked around the cabin. āAw, man. No TV?ā
āActually, thereās one over the bed.ā Steve swallowed the last of his coffee.
āOver?ā Darcy gave him a disbelieving look and went over to look up inside the bed canopy. āYouāre not kidding.ā
He chuckled and shook his head, āat first I thought it was a mirror.ā
Darcy lay on the bed, on her back. She looked around for a remote control, finally finding one in the nearby window sill. āIcy remote.ā She pointed it up and sighed, ābut it works!ā Channel flipping and streaming services browsing occupied her for some time.
She hoped rather than believed that Steve was looking at her with lusty interest.
Steve was. The intimacy of their situation and Darcyās sensual appearance were a potent combination. He could hardly speak. He excused himself to go get a quick shower. He came back out a few minutes later, dressed again but still toweling his hair dry.
Darcy didnāt meet Steveās eye as she offered, āyouāre welcome to join me. Just friends watching television, ya know. Iām watching a silly Christmas movie. āScrooged.ā Okay?ā
Steve shrugged as he made his way back to the bed. He shuffled, awkward, as he drew nearer.
Darcy shifted towards one edge of the bed, not meeting his gaze. āPlenty of room. Donāt mind me.ā
He smiled as he sat on the other edge of the bed and forced himself to speak up. āSam said that theyāre busy helping first responders deal with stranded motorists. Hundreds of them all across the state. A lot of people didnāt have our luck and find shelter. I had to agree with him that itās more important that they help them than us. Iām sorry you wonāt have the chance to win the sweater contest.ā He eased onto his back beside her, folding a pillow behind his head.
āOf course, they need to help people whoāre stuck!ā Darcy shuddered. āItās super cold out there and the storm got out of hand so fast. I can only imagine. Weāre fine here.ā She grinned and turned to him. āYou really think Iād win?ā
Steve was struck by how pretty her green eyes were. He blushed. Her look turned quizzical. He nodded and spoke a thick reply, āyeah. Definitely.ā Steve forced his gaze up to the television mounted above them. āI assume that āScroogedā refers to the Dickens novella?ā
āYup.ā Darcy shifted further to the edge and lifted the covers so that she could get under the blankets. Once under there, she groused, ādarned lights and ornaments are poking me.ā She frowned, and unbuttoned the sweater again and lay it aside. Buttons and lights made a clicking sound on the floor by the bed.
After debating for what felt like an endless time, Steve got under the covers and shifted closer to her. āCanāt let you freeze.ā
Darcy rolled up on her side and looked him in the eye. āIt would be rude to let me freeze. Iām glad youāve seen the light.ā She winked at him, trying to seem playful. She thought that he was looking at her lips, but dismissed it as wishful thinking.
Steve assured her, āIāll do my best to keep you from freezing. Wouldnāt want to be rude.ā He put one arm around her, hand spanning the middle of her back. āIām a polite guy.ā
āYouāre the nicest soldier Iāve ever met. Have I ever mentioned that?ā Darcy ducked her head as a blush filled her cheeks. The way his hand covered her whole back made her feel tiny. Did things to her. Made her want his hands on her in other places. The fire she tried to play with was backfiring spectacularly, leaving Darcy breathless with desire.
āNo. But Iām glad to hear it.ā Steve gave her a squeeze.
There was a loud noise onscreen. Darcy rolled onto her back so that she could see the television again. She hoped Steve wouldnāt notice that her breath was racing.
After a few minutes, Steve nudged her. āTell me about other soldiers youāve met? There are good and bad apples in any group, you know.ā He felt Darcy tense.
Though she didnāt look at Steve, Darcy decided to answer. She told him about Puente Antiguo and the SHIELD agents and soldiers who took Janeās research- and their computers and even Darcyās personal iPod. SHIELD ran a strange, temporary military base near the town and Erik worried about their absolute power. She told him about the shifts in those soldiersā attitudes after Thor returned to Asgard. First, they were obsequious, but gradually more restrictive. They coveted Janeās research and tried to control them all. After a long pause, Darcy shared, āsome of them reminded me of my dad. He was military, Marine. Not a nice guy, especially to our mom.ā
Steve rubbed Darcyās arm as she talked. He felt that it was a privilege that Darcy was telling him something so personal. He didnāt want to break the spell, rather hoped that she might open up to him more.
Darcy blinked back tears. āHe found fault with everything she did. She couldnāt do enough fast enough to avoid setting off his temper. Then he⦠well, you know.ā Darcy ducked her head.
Realization dawned on Steve. āSo, he never served her a dish or coffee even if he was getting something? He never held doors for her or pulled out a chair? You never saw him treat her with respect?ā
Steve stilled as Darcy sat up on one elbow and stared at him, eyes wide. āRespect? No. No respect.ā She grabbed the remote again. āLetās look for something else. I sawā¦ā Darcy glanced at Steve. āāWhite Christmasā is about to start on this channel. I remember liking the dancing and pretty outfits and thinking itās sweet. The story starts in your time, though. Do you mind? Ā Will that make you too sad?ā
Steve shook his head. āIāve heard good things about it. Iāll be okay.ā He wanted to say that he was more than okay with Darcy next to him, but was too tongue tied.
As the classic channel announcer talked, Darcy shifted closer to Steve again. āI want you to be okay. The 21st centuryās not all bad, ya know.ā
Again, Steve kissed Darcyās forehead. āYeah. Thanks, Doll.ā He stroked her hair as they began watching the movie. āThis okay?ā
Darcy nodded, wondering if he was only being nice because he felt sorry for her or if there was another reason. āYes. Very okay. Feels nice.ā As his fingers trailed down her back, she shivered with pleasure. She wondered if he had any idea what his touch did to her. She savored the feelings, the want and heat, for a long time. Other thoughts ran through the back of her mind while she tried to ignore them.
Most of the way through the movie, the 'pretend-engagement' conspirators confessed to Bing Crosbyās character. Steve commented, approving, āat least they fessed up and set him straight. Too many times in romantic comedies the people avoid saying whatās on their mind until itās too late. It's silly.ā He stilled as Darcy pushed back from him and stared at him again. āWhat? Ā You okay?ā
Darcy nodded. Ā āI⦠yeah. Sorry.ā She sat up on the edge of the bed, paused the movie, and grasped her phone. After a moment, she nodded. āIām gonna do this. Iām gonna make this call before I chicken out. Wish me luck.ā She grabbed the green sweater from the floor and slipped it on over her red top again.
āLuck.ā Steve got up and walked around the bed so he could sit next to Darcy. She looked up at him with a grateful warmth that transfixed him. He nudged her shoulder to offer comfort as someone answered her call.
āBeth? Hi. Itās Darcy. Merry something or other.ā Darcyās knee bounced, betraying her restlessness. Steve could feel tension fill her frame. After a moment, she continued, āyeah. Fine. I found a place to stay. Iām with a friend. And, Beth?ā She took a deep breath, āHe treats me with respect. Caring and respect. Even if he wereā¦ā Darcy paused. She rushed the next words out all at once, āwell, if he was my Dom? He wouldnāt embarrass me or push away you or Mom by making me say āMeowā and only āMeowā to you at his whim. He wouldnāt think that's funny. He wouldnāt call me a ādimwitā or a ābimboā. He⦠Beth? Iām sorry to criticize your choices. But you deserve better than that kind of stuff. I hate the way Chad treats you, the way he talks down to you and tries to change you. You donāt need changing. I donāt know if itās just me that Chad canāt stand. But, if itās not? If he treats you like that in front of other people? I mean, would he demean you in front of your kids like Dad did Mom? Would he hurt you? How much like Dadā¦? Scratch that. Sorry. Heās not Dad. Iām not trying to be an unfair bitch to Chad, whatever he says. I worry thatā¦ā Darcy gasped, ādonāt cry! Iām sorry! No! You⦠what? He what? He didnāt⦠What?!?ā She shook, both in her body and voice. There was a long silence on Darcyās end as her sister talked and cried. Darcy only interrupted the flow of words to utter sounds of disgust and disbelief.
Steve went to the kitchenette and got more water. He opened a bottle of wine and made thawed meat into fried burgers and baked French fries in the oven. He took Darcy water and returned to work on their lunch. The smell of good food soon filled the tiny cabin. He stayed busy, but most of his attention was on Darcy and her conversation.
Finally, Darcy rasped, āWell, thatās⦠What?! Youāre thanking me? No. What? I thought youād tell me to go to Hell, not take my call as a divine sign that you should say no and leave him. Oh, thank Baby Jesus!ā Darcy laughed through tears. āYes! I know Iām a bitch and Iām causing you to throw yourself on Momās mercy at Christmas. Enjoy her cookies for me. If it makes you feel better, I donāt have baking ingredients. Oh, fine! Hm? My friend? Awesome like you wouldnāt believe. Uh, I donāt know. Itās⦠pffft. I need to talk straight to him, too. Wish me luck?ā Darcy wiped tears from her eyes. āYes! I love you, too. Now, go. Text me when youāre safe at Momās and tell her Iām safe and Iāll call later. Merry Christmas.ā Darcy hung up from the call and stared at the phone, rocking in place until she received a text. Then, she collapsed backwards onto the bed and stared up, unseeing.
Steve stayed quiet, letting Darcy calm from her talk with her sister. When the food was ready, Steve returned to her side and offered her a hand up, leading her towards the fire.
Darcy stumbled to a chair. āThanks. Youāre the best.ā She drank more water.
āSo, did he propose?ā Steve began eating again and gave Darcy time to answer.
Darcy ate a bite of hamburger with a few fries and shook her head, ānope. TOLD her she was gonna marry him. Told her!ā She closed her eyes and shook her head. āJackass! Good riddance.ā
Wry, Steve shook his head. āNot very romantic. Not that Iām an expert in that department, butā¦ā
Darcy only nodded as she devoured the rest of her food and sipped wine. āI had no idea how hungry I was.ā She looked at Steve, thinking how lucky she was to be trapped with a good person who exuded calm and kindness. She especially appreciated that after the intensity of her conversation with her sister. Darcy sipped the wine as she focused on Steve. Being with him settled her, made her feel safe. And looking at him was always a delight. Steve Rogers was handsome, to be sure. Heād rolled up the sleeves on his green and blue flannel shirt. Unfair of him to subject her to sexy forearms on top of all the rest. Like every shirt sheād ever seen him wear, this one struggled to cover his muscles. Sheād given up trying to think of adjectives that could convey how attractive Steve was. And nice. He didnāt call her out for staring at him like a weirdo, mooning after him. He didnāt even press her to speak up now, when she was sure he must be curious about the āstraight talkā sheād mentioned. He gave her the space she needed to regain her equilibrium.
Respect. Steve treated her with respect. She had a wonderful friend who treated her with respect. She ought to be forever grateful rather than daring to wish for more.
Steve finished his glass of wine and poured himself another.
Darcy held her glass out for him to top off, then sipped it again. āThis is good stuff. I never spend more than $10 on a bottle. Iād bet the cork on this stuff costs that much,ā she giggled, āor even the label.ā
āIāll give Tony money to cover it when we get back to the Tower.ā Steve shrugged.
Darcy glanced outside. Snow and sleet fell still. āThatāll be a bit yet.ā
Steve nodded, not sure what to say. He felt happy trapped with Darcy, to have a chance to talk with her and hold her close. Even if she only saw him as a friend who kept her from getting too cold. Silence fell between them again.
āWanna finish the movie? Sorry I shut it off without asking.ā Darcy needed more time to gather courage.
Steve nodded, āno problem. Yeah. Iād like to see the ending.ā
They took their dishes to the sink and then returned to the bed. There, Darcy took off her Christmas sweater. She threw back the covers and snuggled next to Steve under the blankets. He put his arms around her while she used the remote to restart the movie. Finally, the lovers in the movie sorted out their misunderstanding, kissed, and made plans for their future. Fierce longing overwhelmed both Steve and Darcy. Unconsciously, he stroked her back.
There was no one and nothing to distract them or come between them. Nothing except for their own emotional shields. But it was a day for dropping those.
Cheers and strains of the song āWhite Christmasā sounded behind the words āThe Endā. Darcy ducked her head so that she didnāt have to look Steve in the eye. āI wishā¦ā
Steve interrupted, āI wish that you didnāt dislike soldiers so much, Darcy. Iām a soldier and I canāt change that, never could.ā
Darcy pushed back from him, āwhat? Change? You? No! I donāt⦠Oh! No. I only dislike the bad ones. I donāt like jack-booted thugs who steal Janeās research and my personal stuff. I don't like Nazi wanna-beās or, well, mean soldiers. I like⦠I like you, Steve.ā She swallowed hard and jutted her chin out. āI wish that your work didnāt take pretty much all your time and that you didnāt miss your good old days so much. I wishā¦ā She blinked back unshed tears. āI really wish you wanted to be here- in this time- with me, Steve. Iām sorry. I know you only want to be friends. And I wonāt say anything more to make you uncomfortable, friend.ā She smiled a small, watery smile. āFriend. Iāve done that for you all this time. I can keep doing it. I want any relationship we can have, even just friends.ā
Confusion filled Steveās expression. āIs that why you say āfriendā to me so much? Because you think thatās all I want?ā
āUh huh.ā Darcy nodded miserably.
He inched closer. āAnd you like me even though Iām a soldier? And you want to be more than friends with me? Darce?ā He whispered, ādo you⦠want?ā
Darcy looked up at him, āIām sorry. Iām sorry to make things so awkward when youāre stuck here with me. Yes. I want! I wish that you wanted to be more than frā¦Mmph!ā
Steve kissed her.
He pulled back and stared at her as he cupped her cheek with one hand. āSorry. I should āa- May I kiss you? Iām crazy about you, Darcy. Iāve wanted you for months and months. Want you so much I can hardly stand it. Not just friends, please. More, Doll.ā His eyes gleamed with fervor.
Darcy nodded, stunned.
Steve chuckled, kissed her forehead and kissed her cheek again, with reverence. āDarcy, Doll⦠can I get a āyesā to me kissing you?ā He shifted so that his lips were a hairās breadth away from her lips. Charged air shook the space yet between the two of them. He waited.
āYes!ā Darcy closed the distance between them and met his kiss with her own. They both trembled into it, a feather-light exploration. They each absorbed the idea that theyād misread what the other wanted. She murmured again, āoh, yes, Steve.ā
He grinned as he kissed her again, deepening the kiss. He nibbled at her plush lower lip as heād fantasized and dreamed so many times. Reality was a million times better. Darcy shuddered against him and groaned with pleasure. Steve stilled and closed his eyes. āOh, Doll.ā Darcy teased at his lower lip and he groaned, āgonna be hard as hell to be a gentleman with you doinā that.ā
Darcy chuckled, āwho says you have to be a gentleman?ā She shifted her leg to brush against his hardness. āMmm. You were saying?ā She nibbled at his lip again and played with the top button of his shirt.
Steve jolted and cursed under his breath. He kissed her quiet, again deepening the kiss and learning how they fit together. Steve savored Darcy's lips and tongue and throat while also exploring what she liked best. Sensitive spots. Sweetness. Eagerness. It was pure bliss. Darcy was becoming short of breath. Steve lay back and looked up at the next movie that had started while his Christmas dreams began to come true.
Darcy glanced at the Santa onscreen and panted. āI no longer have anything to ask Santa for.ā She undid Steveās top shirt button and kissed at the base of Steveās throat. āI can think of a few things Iād like to ask you for, though.ā
Steve grinned down at her, āsame, Doll.ā
āOh?ā Darcy undid another button on his shirt and kissed the exposed skin. She looked up at him and held his gaze as she undid the next few buttons.
Steve pulled her up for a long, slow kiss that set Darcyās every nerve ending afire. She undid another few buttons on his shirt. When he shrugged it off, Darcy stilled, staring at his naked chest. āHolyā¦ā
āNight?ā he suggested. She snorted a giggle. He shifted her so that she sat astride him. He asked with his eyes if he could lift her shirt.
She nodded. āI may freeze, but yes. Please do.ā She lifted her arms.
He shook his head. āNot gonna freeze. Havenāt you heard? Iām the man with a plan.ā His voice tightened as he pulled her shirt up over her head. He shifted another pillow behind him and sat up some, pulling her towards him. He kissed her breasts as he reached around and undid her lacy red bra. āDamn, Doll. Youāre a fantasy come true.ā As he began to tease at her breasts with his lips and tongue, Darcy shivered and moved on him. He groaned, āhere.ā He pulled his shirt out from beneath him and helped her put it on, open at the front but warming her arms and back. "Looks much better on you than Tony's robe."
āAhhh.ā Darcy tried to talk, but Steve returned to tormenting her with his insistent lips. āG...good plan. Ohhh.ā She squirmed in his lap, grinding against his erection with abandon. He let out a lusty groan that made her proud.
Steve pulled her chest against him for warmth as he moved up to kiss her lips and face again. āYouāre shaking.ā He looked concerned, but couldnāt resist kissing Darcy again. And again. He plucked and teased at her with his dexterous fingers. He loved the frantic sounds she made in the back of her throat.
āNot cold.ā Darcy pulled back, then kissed him again and again. āJust want. Want you. Want so much.ā
Steve shifted, rolling Darcy down onto her back. āGood thing, Doll.ā He kissed her. Long, slow, passionate kisses that she met with a fervor that lit him up more every second. He palmed her breast and continued his exquisite torment. Darcy arched up against him, writhing. He lowered his lips to her breasts again. First one, then the other. Kissing and nibbling and sucking. She cried out and bucked as he swirled his tongue, hard. Darcy wasnāt sure if she would be embarrassed to come just from his attention to her breasts or impressed. Possibly both. Likely both.
He resumed teasing her nipples with his fingers. He placed open-mouthed kisses all along her belly. Steve took his time. āBeautiful.ā
Darcy whimpered and began to shove her pants down. Steve stilled her hands. āI got you.ā He undid the snap on her black jeans and kissed the exposed skin. Then he lowered her zipper and kissed her more. Darcy held the covers up with one hand and ran the other covetously along Steveās shoulder. Steve pulled her pants and panties off and then moved back up her body to kiss her cheek and lips again.
āPants!ā Darcy begged him between kisses.
Steve huffed a laugh and unbuttoned his jeans. Darcy pressed against him, skin to skin. She wore only his shirt and warm red socks. Finally, he pushed down his pants so that he wore nothing.
Darcyās eyes went even wider. āOh, my. You go commando?ā
He shrugged. āHabit. The uniform requires special briefs.ā
She reached for him eagerly and wrapped her fingers around his shaft.
āFuck,ā Steve hissed.
Darcy's grin had a wicked glint. āSomething like that.ā She kissed down his chest and abdomen until she finally took him in her mouth. Then, Darcy delighted in taking Steve completely apart.
When heād caught his breath again, Steve gave Darcy a smile unlike anything sheād ever seen from him before. It was both delighted and full of mischief that caused her pulse to race. He again pulled her astride his legs so he could taste and tease at her breasts. He left lingering kisses along the column of her throat and over her wrists. He disappeared under the covers and kissed her thighs and the backs of her knees. Darcy squirmed and unseeingly stared up at the movie. Steve didnāt tire, didnāt cramp- only focused on Darcy's pleasure with single-minded, super-strong drive. He had her writhing with pleasure long before he let her come. Another Christmas movie was playing onscreen and halfway over before Steve came up for air.
Finally, when Darcy begged, Steve slowly slid home. She realized that heād been prepping her so long because of his size. She felt stretched wide as he twisted to hit her G-spot just right. She came quickly and felt as though she continued coming again and again as Steve pounded into her. He twisted her around so that he could plunge in from behind while rolling her swollen clit between his calloused fingers. After he came, he laid his fingers flat, soothing. He cradled her body tight back against his. Aftershocks left her spasming with pleasure. Steve kissed Darcyās head again and again, murmuring, āsweet Darcy. Crazy about you.ā She dozed in his arms, warm and loved and completely satisfied.
Dinner that night was steak and vegetables from the freezer, paired with an exquisite red wine. As they lay in bed afterwards, cuddling and teasing each other, Darcy felt Steveās arms tighten around her. He buttoned a few buttons on his shirt to cover her and murmured, ācompany.ā Soon, Darcy heard the sound of Iron Man landing outside the front door of the cabin.
Tony threw the door open and sauntered in, āIām here to rescue you.ā He stared, looked around and saw the open wine bottle and two pairs of pants on the floor by the bed, and shook his head. āOr, not. I guess Pep can stop crying about you being lonely on Christmas again this year, Cap. And I can stop wondering why youāre not answering texts. Nice shirt, Lewis.ā Tony was blinking hard, slack-jawed with surprise.
Darcy laughed, āyou should see the sweater I was gonna wear to your party. Itās around here someplace.ā
āLights up, sparkles, and hugs her curves to perfection. Iām sure she would āa won your contest,ā Steve grinned, enjoying Tonyās shocked expression.
Tony smiled, āI bet. Well, Mazel Tov! Thanks for popping Capās cherry, Lewis. ābout time.ā He pretended to wipe away a tear of pride.
Darcy snorted, āno way was that his first time. Orgasm hall of fame. All my Christmas dreams have come true.ā
Steve ducked his head against her hair. āGood to hear, Doll. Right back atchaā.ā
Tony shook his head. āGood reviews all around then. Well, Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays kids. Iād guess youāre all set here ātil itās safe to drive again?ā
Steve looked down at Darcy and she looked up at him. They both nodded emphatically and turned to Tony, āweāre good.ā Tony laughed.
āMerry Christmas, Tony,ā Steve beamed. āWeāll see you in a day or two.ā He repressed a shiver as Darcy began teasing him under the covers again.
Darcy called out, āMerry Christmas! Thanks for dropping in.ā
Tony shook his head and waved back at them as he went out the door of the cabin.
Steve pinned Darcy on her back and began ravishing her again, mock joking, ānaughty girl!ā He pushed into her again and set a slow pace as he rained kisses over her breasts.
Darcy looked up at him and batted her eyelashes. āYour naughty girl.ā
Steve kissed her hard. āAnd my nice girl. Merry Christmas, Darcy.ā
Gasping with pleasure, Darcy answered him, āMerry Christmas, Steve.ā
Ā Fin













