#aurintalk

my apologies for not using the blog all too much recently. it's just i've been feeling the ever increasing need to just kind of... move on from ws. i feel awful for saying it, but i feel like this small community, albeit one of the best i've felt a part of, is just kind of stifling my progress as a person. i need to broaden my horizons, i need to stop clinging on to the past, i just need to move on. i mean like i don't hate the game but it doesn't captivate me in the same way it used to. i don't wake up giddy to play the game anymore, i only log on to roleplay sometimes. if it weren't for all the commitments i've made to ws, i would quit and move on, but it's those commitments which are holding me back. ideally, i want to take a break. a proper break for a good 6 months or so, so much i feel excited to return. except, i feel like if i take a break now there won't be much, if anything, to come back to by the end of the year. i'm not quitting quite yet, but honestly? if the steam release doesn't go as well as expected i can see myself leaving. maybe it's the bad night's roleplay event talking or maybe i'm just feeling down anyway, but i feel like i need to find my closure at this point and move on. i'm sorry.

hm. if the faction barrier does drop, i have no idea how i'm gonna rp ruuli with it, since she pretty much will try to kill any dominion on sight. anlini, however, will be basking in the glory of being able to seduce all the cassians she wants without being locked up for cooperating with the enemy.

hey so i have a feeling a lot of people in the wildstar community are a bit down in the dumps right now, especially given the recent news. in an attempt to liven the mood, please reblog this with pictures of your wildstar characters and i'll pick a few, or maybe all, depending on how many i get, to sketch/draw. all i ask is suitable reference pictures and that you're following me, thank you!!

i have no doubt that most of my followers have heard of the layoffs and carbine and the cancellation of the chinese release. after hearing of the news i had a pretty bad panic attack, after a fairly good day, as well. the news isn't easy to swallow, i know, and raises a lot of questions about the future of wildstar. right now, the way i see it, is that wildstar's future success now leans very heavily on the steam release which, admitted, i do believe will certainly help out the game a lot if it's still to go forward as planned. however, it's hard not to speculate about the possibility of the game's closure, especially when some other things at carbine haven't been looking all too sunny, either. when i was younger, my favourite mmo at the time - and my first - shut down. it broke my young heart and having to watch as something i loved so dearly be pulled away from me forever, it still haunts me; i have no doubt if things are to go down very south with wildstar, i'll feel the exact same way as i did back then. however, when that game did shut down, i found myself shattered but i then looked into other mmos, i played another mmo afterwards which i then fell in love with and getting into that community then led me on into online forums and a lot of other good things, including getting into being a serious artist and eventually discovering tumblr, i very much doubt i'd be writing this today if that game hadn't shut down. what i'm trying to say is that if wildstar shuts down, it might be the end of wildstar but isn't the end for you and your journey. whenever a door closes, a window is opened. that window might not be in immediate sight or easy to get to, but it's there. i don't believe anything is ever truly a dead end. change isn't naturally without hurt but it's the only thing that can open new opportunities for you. i'll still be holding on to that cautiously optimistic steam release thread as best i can. don't worry, i'm not going anywhere quite yet. in the meantime, i'd like to say thank you so much to every single person ever involved with the game. whether that be carbine devs or players, i am forever grateful for helping you keep one of my favourite games of all time afloat. i've met a lot of truly amazing people through wildstar, people who've shaped me in to who i am now, and i am so indescribably thankful for every single one of you. thank you.