He’s but a boy in her eyes and yet he spouts wisdom elusive to men twice his age. Her heart aches for him, for whatever experiences he’s been through that have taught him the horrors of war. He appears older than her own children, but the boyish roundness of face betrays him.
Parental instinct swells within her heart filling it with desire to reach for him. However, boys are fragile she’s come to learn over the years. They cling to their stubborn pride to avoid showing weakness. Men are quieting in their suffering. They shoulder the burdens of their loved ones and, in turn, she graciously plays the part of fool. Support is offered as best she can (only that which they are willing to accept).
“ You are wise,” she agrees quietly, melancholy note present in tone. Her small hands reach for his tentatively, gently so not to be overly familiar, and ready to release should he display any sign of discomfort at her touch. “ But there is still hope. ” Encouragement is as much for herself as it is to him. And she prays for the day that none are required to take up arms for anything other than friendly sport.
initially, it hadn’t been meant as a statement of wisdom, or something spoken to demonstrate how much he has grown or how the war has changed him -- there are enough markings, visible && otherwise, on him and his to attest to that, and he can posture elsewhere. not in front of her.
not in front of the woman he’s only heard of in stories, the one who, some may consider, is partially to blame for the burden that had been placed upon the younger generation, a s k y no atlas could ever hope to carry, and which had nearly proved too heavy for them even with their combined strength and resolve. for all of that, though, he can find nothing in him -- no spite, no bitterness.
in silken-soft hands that feel just like a mother’s should, she takes his own -- battered, scarred, sword-calloused -- and holds them, and they’re warm, feel like safety and evoke a curious sensation in his gut that he can’t explain nor place, only know that it is something he has yearned to feel, something not even the embrace and care of a later-adopted mother could grant him.
❝ wise? ❞ he murmurs, furrowing his brow. he makes no move to release his hands from her own, but does not return the gesture, either, merely lets them rest there, like a temporary solace. ❝ i . . . don’t know anything about wisdom. how can i feel hope after everything that’s happened? even with peace now, sometimes i . . . it still feels the same. like nothing’s really changed. ❞