#assbox meme

Tagged by @capillata​ here.

1) Alexander Hamilton (as portrayed/written by LMM in Hamilton)

LMM attended my high school, though at three years younger than myself I never actually knew him (I only knew a few students that much younger, and they all took my bus from Queens).  The thing you need to understand is that “he looked at me like I was stupid; I’m not stupid” and “why do you assume you’re the smartest in the room?” could have been mottos for every single student who attended Hunter College High School.  

Every single one of us were geniuses.  We knew because everyone told us so.  Counseling services told us they didn’t use class ranks because every single one of us would be valedictorians at another school so if they printed our Hunter class rank then that would decrease our chance of getting into the Ivy League school of our choice. 

Every single one of us tested well.  People who came up from the Elementary School (as did LMM) had taken an IQ test before first grade and scored sufficiently high on it, and also had to live in Manhattan.  Kids who started with the High School had to have done well enough on the city/state standardized exams to be invited to take the entrance exam, and then had to do well on that. 

Every single one of us could have our pick of colleges to attend.  I didn’t actually apply to any Ivy League schools, but I did get into every school I applied to, including Wellesley, Bryn Mawr, Oberlin, and Franklin & Marshall.  In the end though I picked the school that gave me a full ride (including room and board), Alfred University.  

So yeah, Hamilton is self-insertion RPF fanfic that LMM wrote and shoved himself into the starring role.  And he’s also me and every single other person who’s ever been told we’re smart, and then has to struggle to live up to that image and reshape it into what we actually want to be remembered for.  

2) Tony Stark (MCU)

His brilliance, his scientific bent, his snarkiness (though I had more of that when I was younger), and his utter conviction that he’s a worthless piece of shit even as he lords it over everyone in public.  Thankfully I’ve got a heckofalot more self-confidence than how I headcanon Tony, but I’ve been there.

3) Eliza Schuyler (Hamilton)

Her struggle to control her own narrative appeals to me recently.

4) Eponine (Les Mis)

Not so much nowadays, but in high school I sang “On My Own” over and over and over again, due to having a hopeless (I thought) crush on a guy throughout the entirety of high school.  Did I mention Hunter starts in 7th grade?  Yeah, that’s a long time.  Years later, when I was long over him, I actually told him.  And he cocked his head and said, “huh, I wish you’d said something, I’d’ve gone out with you.”  Just goes to show.  

5) Peggy Carter (Cap 1, Agent Carter)

Her constant fight for recognition.  I kinda wish I could sit her and Eliza down together and be a fly on the wall.  

6) Ender Wiggin (the novel Ender’s Game)

Ender combines the two themes you may have noticed above as a genius who struggles to control his own destiny.  I actually wrote college application essays about how Ender’s Game changed my life.  It was the first time I’d ever seen someone write children who sounded like me, smart kids, with complex motivations, being completely aware that adults do not actually have our best interests in mind and yet being completely within their power and having to work that broken system for all we’re worth to get what we actually want and need, desperately wanting friends among his peers but at the same time never able to let his guard down around them because they’re also all out to get you.  That what life is like for gifted kids at a gifted and talented school.  (I was lucky that I managed to find a few other misfits, much like Ender found Bean and Petra.)  And then when he finally passes his graduation test and thinks he’s going to be free to go out into the war itself, finally the master of his own destiny, the way he suddenly gets the rug yanked out from under him, learning that he had been their pawn all along, there’s no more war anymore because he just ended it, and that he’s going to live the rest of his life as either a political pawn, or under house arrest, or at best evading paparazzi.  

So yeah.  These reveal a lot about me, but whatevs.  

Not tagging anyone, do it if you want to and say I tagged you.  

Tagged by @asamandra

Rules: Once you’ve been tagged, you’re supposed to write a note with truths about you. At the end, you choose people to tag (if you want to). You have to tag the person who tagged you.

WHAT WAS YOUR last drink: Honey vanilla chamomile tea last phone call: my parents last text: my partner last song you listened to: Creep Qawwali (an ad for an Indian dating website) last time you cried: months ago when I watched Up

HAVE YOU EVER been drunk and thrown up: yes cried because of your OTP:  no edited the questions in an ask meme: yes gotten angry while watching the news: yes talked to a person named Tom: yes

GENERAL three favorite colors: teal, that gem-like purple/maroon, blue any pets: 1 parrot, on Twitter at kappa_bird do you want to change your name: no what were you doing at 12 last night: starting to fall asleep

RIGHT NOW eating: oh right, I should have breakfast drinking: just finished that tea i’m about to: call to renew a prescription listening to: Kappa throwing her food on the floor wearing: green tank top, fluorescent orange fleece, plaid sleep pants, orange flip flops.

Assuming we’re talking about an AU in which the racism and homophobia have actual consequences and in which Magnus actually cares about Alec:

The date doesn’t happen for a few weeks/months after the party, mainly because Alec and Magnus don’t necessarily have the time or occasion to talk or get to know each other before. But then, after Clary invents the Alliance Rune, some Shadowhunters and Downworlders decides to actually use it and that’s where Alec and Magnus finally get an occasion to talk about things that aren’t by the way, how do we avoid dying again?

After a couple of weeks of training where they’ve finally figured out they actually click on more than just an aesthetic level, they finally go on their first date. From there we have two options.

Option a: They go to a Mundanes’ fast food, or cinema, or anywhere crowded where people won’t look twice at two dude talking with each other. Possibly, there’s hand holding under the table, and a lot of stress. Ideally, they discuss this stress and the reasons behind it. Important: Magnus is scared too. Possibly not as scared as Alec, but scared nonetheless, because if this shit gets out, he’ll be the one the Clave is going to try and burn at the stake first.It goes as well as it can go given their circumstances, and they decide to see each other again, still as discreetely as possible because unfortunately, homophobia doesn’t stop the moment they start dating.

Option b: More likely given that a) Alec doesn’t like the crowd and b) it’s easy for Magnus to arrange the transport, they go to an entirely different place. A different country, an empty part of the US, wherever they can go where they’re reasonably sure no one’s going to recognize them. Possibly, they act more freely than they would otherwise--Magnus at least, is more demonstrative than he’d be if he were in public in New York.It goes well, probably better than it would go with option a, and maybe they end the date on a kiss or two, depending on how confident Alec feels at the moment (also, depending on whether or not you put him on the ace spectrum) and they agree to see each other again.Still discreetely though because, unfortunately homophobia doesn’t end the moment they start dating.

Waitasec, I just did this!  :)  But that’s oaky, and okay too, more happy = more good. 

First off, I don’t force tag anyone w/ memes.  Go ahead and do this if you want, or if you need a pick-me-up, or whatever!

1) I got a lot of compliments from my students this week about my teaching.  Yay!  \o/  It makes me happy when they enjoy my teaching.  

2) I’m happy when I’m effective in my teaching, and I got the sense in subbing for a lecture today that yes, I was effective.  

3) I’m happy to sit down again after!

4) Hot chocolate is about to make me happy.

oh it was very boring. i grabbed fast food on the way home, so I had Whataburger and they screwed up my hamburger order so i didn't even get the green chiles I wanted. :( booo 

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Of all people, Alex had to have the most experience with it, but Clint still didn’t like leaving early in the morning on a last minute assignment.  He’d murmured a goodbye, but he didn’t wake her—he didn’t want to risk it.  Instead, he left a couple of notes on the fridge.  Well, drawings.  

There were three of them—one was a rough and hurried drawing of the Avengers as stick figures, including Hulk, but the one up above it was a figure with sunglasses and a bow, standing on top of a building in a very heroic pose.  At least for a stick figure.  The last one was a sloppy drawing of the world and two figures standing on top holding hands.