#askthefistofshadow

Although it is a tradition that the child of the Fist of Shadow takes up that role when they mature, that does not have to be the case if one shows enough skill and interest and there is no other one qualified to be succeed the former Fist of Shadow.

I am not going to do anything with any male in that kind of sense, and I am not planning to do such action in the future.

...I don't think a relationship with anyone is possible.

I am discouraged from creating relationships, or even simply friendships, with others, because they may get in the way if duty calls. When I'm assigned a mission, I am expected to complete it. And if I somehow die, I'll at least have died trying. I must put away all of my thoughts, all of my feelings, and concentrate on the task ahead.

When I was young, and didn't realize that my duties would have such burdens, I thought about love, and what kind of person I would love as well. But when I grew older and had a bigger sense of reality...

...I just fear that one day, I'd have to hurt my lover in some way due to my duties. I wouldn't want to get myself into that predicament, and so I tend to stay away from emotions such as love.

But I will share this with you. If I had a partner, I'd like to be someone who would help me stay in line; someone who would keep me from straying off the path, and someone who would help me from pushing myself too far ahead. And that person would have to understand my line of work, and how I am very busy and sometimes stressed, but when I am free I'd just like to talk to that person. About anything, really. I know I must be rather heartless when it comes to my judgement, but deep inside I don't want that someone acting so cold and cruel to me outside of the battlefield. Someone who respects me and will open up and tolerate my antics when I unintentionally let my emotions control me.