Currently reading: I'm not actually reading anything right now! But I'll tell you that the last one was Caitlyn Doughty's "Will My Cat Eat My Eyeballs?: Big Questions from Tiny Mortals about Death". It was delightful, as are all of Caitlyn's books. I recommend her youtube channel too, ask a mortician. Before that I read "Working Girls: Trixie and Katya's Guide to Professional Womanhood " and before that, "I'm glad my mom died" by Jennette McCurdy.
Much like any movies, I tend to watch and read what I'm recommended. Young me had a school library right on my fingertips and read everything and everything, but adult me has work and is pressed for time and motivation to begin a new series.
Favorite color: Uh, I like dark blue, light green, yellow and orange? Greys and muted purples? currently.
Last song: Hozier - Almost (Sweet Music)
Last movie: Puss in Boots: The Last Wish (2022). Very enjoyable, nice animation.
Currently working on: uh- what counts as 'working' on something?
Technically, I started on drafting a very rough bedsheet mockup for the vest that I'm gonna make for my Rölli and MetsÀnhenki cosplays. My own rölli and menninkÀinen designs, btw. For funsies (I love the movie).
I'm working on myself, building some physique by hitting the gym once a week, 'cause I need some exercise and it's good prep for top surgery, whenever that rolls around. (waiting on ultrasound so I can get on the surgery waiting list)
I'm working on collecting some ideas for tattoos for post-surgery me. watercoloury/ink paintingy style.
I'm working up courage to draw and write again? I feel like I've mostly abandoned that due to work, but I'm trying not to pressure myself too hard.
I'll tag the first 9 taggables from my activity feed (woe to you, friend!): @perkeleensimpura @linesca @sienikartta @anaalikristus @hamyhamyhakki @viinapulloposti @kirsikkatequila @idontwannabeinhelsinkigayscene @gallifreyancoffeecat
..how are you all finns have I been a suomitumppu blogi all this time
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5) Sayo Yasuda and Ronove (Umineko no Naku Koro Ni)
6) Hercule Poirot (Agatha Christieâs Poirot)
7) Kuja (Final Fantasy IX)
8) Kaiba (Yu-Gi-Oh! Duel Monsters)
9) Taako (The Adventure Zone: Balance)
10) Crowley (Good Omens)
Tagging: @forceway + some people from my activity list, if youâd like to try this one! @nuunamaria @prince-with-a-peach @kuuttituutti @kirsikkatequila @thefairytaleofmylife @piatchâ @linesca @varjojentuomio
"do i even dare to speak out your name for fear it sounds like, like a lover" thatse it i am officially dead
my sleep deprived ass @ 1am whomstâve is mildly confused at everything and cannot for the life of me figure out what youâre referring to; Oh damn thatâs some high romance Pining right there u so right that quote slays preach it sis I need me some of that
also me a moment later once I google that and realize itâs lyrics in a poets of the fall song: OH. HONEY- HONEY MY HEART- you canât just sidle into my askbox and kill me like this- have mercyÂ
Thank you for asking!~Â Oh you chose all the long ones okay weâll be here for a while so buckle up :âDÂ
[1] If someone wanted to really understand you, what would they read, watch, and listen to?Â
HummmâŠHercule Poirot, in any medium. I just adore that genre and Poirot crystallizes the positive aspects of it to me, he represents this patient and elegant guile that fascinates me to no end. Iâd love to embody Poirot in that sense. I am a fan of Sherlock and miss Marple and such, but Poirot takes the cake. I also want the moustache. ALSO! Nick and Nora Charles from those old old black and white movies. They are adorable. Umineko no Naku koro ni is also, and amazing and aggravating and hilarous and heartwrenching mystery that Iâd recommend. Itâs hard to sit through, but I loved it and cried my eyes out at the end. As far as books go, similar vibe but more fantasy. I still love Runemarks by Joanne Harris (available in finnish too btw) because I laughed heartily at Lokiâs introduction. Loki in general, when it comes to Prose Edda and such, really vibes with my life.Â
Music is a bit hard to recommend, because I listen to a massively broad selection? Not kidding I have hundreds upon hundreds of bookmarks in tens of folders just for music alone. I have a larger list somewhere in the ask meme tag, but for short hereâs a few Iâm in the mood for today
Sting & Cheb Mami - Desert Rose  Martynas - Hungarian Dance No.5 in G MinorKATICA - ANIKĂ- FERENC- CSABA ILLĂNYI - Libertango Dance of the Damned by Peter GundryLindsey Stirling - Mirage (Feat. Raja Kumani)Dark Sarah - âDance With The Dragonâ feat. JP LeppĂ€luotoÂ
[2] Describe your ideal day
Ideal day begins with a great night. No nightmares, preferably waking feeling refreshed, maybe even a good dream in there? Wake up feeling warm and fuzzy or ready to throw fists with the world! Iâd wake up around 9 maybe, and remember to take my medication Iâd have taken a shower the previous evening so my hair is soft as heck! I wouldnât wake up at home, preferably, maybe at a friendâs place?Â
Iâd brew a strong cup of Assam with a dash of milk, chilling in jammies. Soak in the morning sun, listening to a podcast or some funny show. Maybe itâs a really fresh spring day so we could go sightseeing or visit bookstores or the harbour and cafes, or maybe itâs raining and thereâs a huge thunderstorm so we just chill, play games, read, watch movies and joke around. Alot of tea, maybe ice cream, some good foods and great company, maybe dnd? Just, a good stress free day!Â
Want to make it even better? Make that day after Iâve gotten rid of dysphoria and throw in some romance and voilĂ , I am a happy happy pumpkin.Â
[3] Would you rather be in Middle Earth, Narnia, Hogwarts, or somewhere else?
Hmmm a tough one. Middle Earth is like, amazing but only if you get to choose who you are and when you get to live. And whether you ever encounter the WORST SPIDERS EVER. But that elven architecture has me horny so Iâd definitely dig it. Also, hot elves. Narnia is way too meh for me, just, eh? Not very exciting, so nah.Hogwarts, AGAIN WITH THE SPIDERS WHY. Also, Iâd want to be a ravenclaw and play with magic and stuff, but also Iâd have to live in Britain with absolutely horrible magical ministry of bullshit and just fuck that noise. Also really dangerous and bleak in pretty much every way. Too real and too fucked up with house elves and shit. A big big nah. So woo I guess Middle Earth wins! Iâll just live in Rivendell and hope shit doesnât hit the fan and I get hot elves to cuddle.
I swear itâs like someoneâs baiting meâYou get to live in this really cool fantasyâ â!!! :Dââbut thereâs huge spiders in itâ â!!! >:Uâ
[4] could you live as a hermit?
Technically, I could. I just donât ever want to.
And Iâm just gonna throw it out there, no one should.Â
You need human interactions to retain a sense of self and sense of a world outside of your own being.Â
Granted, you donât to go out having parties and socialise when you feel like you donât want to, but I think itâs absolutely vital to oneâs sanity that you have the option to. An option to have autonomy in your relations to other beings, as long as it is not harmful. You can live with minimal human contact and a bunch of cats, or move into the mountains by yourself and stuff, but you do need contact. Be it once a week or however long, be communication method whatever it is you can and feel comfortable doing, mulling in only your own thoughts is not healthy.Â
We need each other to survive and a community to keep us who we are.Â
We exist in the relation to our surroundings, and without each other, we lose a large portion of ourselves and our values in the process.Â
I think we all should have autonomy to decide how and when and why we interact with each other, and to correlate it with our own energy and ability to do so, without being pressured into it. So, shortly, to have one friend or a dozen, to speak or sign or nod or smile, do interact how ever and how often you wish, as long as you do, and can, interact.Â
Iâve, unfortunately, gained experience into this field during my own life-R
Nah, mĂ€ en vĂ€litĂ€ materiasta ja ihmisten suhteen lovingly supporttaan ettĂ€ viettĂ€vĂ€t aikaa kuinka ja kenen kanssa vaan haluavat. Sanosin et oon taipuvaisempi melankoliaan ku mustasukkasuuteen, jos oon tĂ€ysin yksin ilman viihdykkeitĂ€. Iâm too damn old to hold grudges.
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Last song: While writing this I went through Heaven is a place on earth, and The Midnight - Jason (feat. Nikki Flores) which I highly recommend. Scandroid - Neo Tokyo (Dance With The Dead Remix) is also real real gooood, looping it rn. I go between moods and song genres hard, no real order, rarely playlisted, I just pick one I feel like hearing. OH AND The Midnight - Vampires!
Last Movie: Puss in Boots: The Last Wish (2022). Very enjoyable, nice animation.
Last Show: I'm actually not sure, I don't watch movies and series on my own practically ever. Trixie Motel or Don't Hug Me I'm Scared, I think, if we go by completed ones? They're amazing! if we go by random episodes of a series I was shown then South Park Season 26 episodes 2 and.. 4? I think episode 4 managed to be funny about this whole shitty AI wave. South Park is overall, not my kind of humour, but I'm not really the target audience for edgy shows either.
Currently reading: Well, actually, nothing! I've been eyeing jade throne books and a mystery book on my dear friend's bookshelf but I'm simply too tired from work to start any mentally taxing activities for a good while. I'll get to it though! How about I recommend something instead? Monstrous Regiment and any of the Witches books from Terry Pratchett are great! Audio book of Monstrous especially, was very enjoyable.
Current obsession: oh oh ohhhh, listen listen listen- I'm sorry if this is too much for ya'll sharing-wise but, Lovechild Boudoir. I ordered two harnesses a few weeks back and I'm aaaching to order another one when my next salary gets here.
Majorly expensive but I've been drooling at these for years and my queer ass needs them. I've had my first proper job since last May and I'm absolutely willing to pay a small independent craftsman for some good ass lace! Can't wait 'till they get here 'cause I need it for slutty boy gender reasons. For me to hang out at home in, as a treat. and mayhaps a little onlyfans content someday, after top surgery.
(also looking at your answer had me like "aw man that reminds me, I should also try to settle on my own fursona stuff.")
Tagging uhhhhh four top ones from activity @hamyhamyhakki @oneleggedflamingo @vittumainennarttu aaand @perkeleensimpura
"En osaa laittaa noita tumbus :c"
no worries kÀy se postaamine nÀinki.
2. Kerro tarina siitÀ pÀivÀstÀ, kun tapasimme ensimmÀistÀ kertaa
- Nyt tulee varmaa vÀhÀ arkaa shittiÀ, be warned
MÀ en muist mitÀÀ muuta ku sen et oli vaguely tylsÀÀ ja laitoin striimi chÀttiin et haluuks joku muu katsoja jutella. En ollu kovin investoitunu meidÀn jutteluun ja pelÀstyin vÀhÀn sitÀ miten aiheet eskaloitu. Olin vÀhÀllÀ blokata sut, kun en tienny miten reagoida siihen et asia mikÀ oli mulle sellast harmitont löpinÀÀ oliki jotain ihan muuta sulle. Aikaa o vierÀhtÀny jo monta vuotta ja sinne o mahtunu monta asiaa, mut mua on vÀhÀ harmittanu se miten toi alku on sÀvyttÀny meiÀn vÀlei tÀhÀnki pÀivÀÀn asti.
3. MitÀ tekisit, jos saisit yhden pÀivÀn olla kaikki voimainen jumala?
8. Jos olisi mahdollista, haluaisitko parantaa maailmaa?
- muuttaisin itseni (kehoa, to be specific) ja inspiroisin isompaa mÀÀrÀÀ ihmisiÀ parantamaan maailmaa, suojelemaan luontoo ja olemaan hyviÀ toisilleen. En suorasanaisesti korjais kuin muutaman ongelman kÀsin, koska haluun et me pÀÀstÀÀn yhdessÀ tekemÀÀn maailmasta lempeÀmpi. Helpottaisin nÀlkÀÀ, kodittomuutta, epÀtoivon tunteita. Istuttaisin puutarhan. Kysyisin muutamalta ystÀvÀltÀ, jos he haluais jotakin muutosta johon ei kykenis normaalisti vaikuttamaan, niinku keholliset jutut. Mut moni asia on muutettavissa ihan meidÀn omallakin voimalla, kunhan ryhdytÀÀn yhdessÀ tuumin toimeen. Olisin siis suorasanaisesti varmaan aika tylsÀ jumala. EhkÀ huvikseni toisin vÀhÀn taikaa tai jotakin höpsöÀ maailmaan, ihan vaan et jos joku löytÀis ne joskus. Varaisin itelleni jonkun sumuisen linnan jostain joen varrelta, ja menisin sinne asumaan ihan omaksi ilokseni. Kurkkaisin joitakin totuuksia universumin luonteesta, mutta pitÀisin ne itsellÀni. Antaisin varmaan parin tunnin jÀlkeen voimat takaisin maailmalle, enkÀ viettÀis koko pÀivÀÀ siinÀ asemassa.
5. Miten reagoisit, jos saisit selville, ettÀ menneisyydessÀsi olet ollu kultakala?
- selittÀis mun olemattoman kyvyn muistaa mm. nimiÀ. ei oo big deal.
6. Miten viettÀisit seuraavat 24 tuntia, jos saisit tietÀÀ, ettÀ sen jÀlkeen asteroidi törmÀisi maahan, tuhoten 90% elÀmÀstÀ pelkÀllÀ osumalla.
4. MitÀ tekisit, jos elÀmÀstÀsi katoaisi kaikki ihmiset ketÀ olet ikinÀ tuntenut?
- Kysyisin, haluaisko mun ystÀvÀt jutella vikat tunnit kun ollaan yhdessÀ. VÀlttelisin perhettÀ, koska haluaisin mennÀ sellasten ihmisten kanssa, jotka kunnioittaa mua. Se voi olla, et moni kaveri haluais olla yksin, mut mÀ kaipaisin ite sitÀ et mun ei tarttis olla yksin siinÀ tilanteessa. VÀhÀ sellai 'vituiks meni tÀÀ elÀmÀ mut ainakin mulla oli ystÀviÀ viimeiset vuodet'. JÀlkimmÀiseen: mun hylÀtykstulemisen pelolla olis varmaan sellai field trip of a lifetime. Hajoaisin ihmisenÀ, mutten kykenis tekemÀÀn asialle mitÀÀn ÀkillistÀ, joten lojuisin jossain ja olisin henkisesti jossain muualla.
7. MitÀ tekisit, jos sinua vastaan kadulla kÀvelisi kirahvi ja norsu?
- 'wau, kirahvi ja norsu. onpa isoja', sitten jatkaisin kÀvelyy
9. MitÀ tekisit, jos et enÀÀ ikinÀ voisi nÀhdÀ?
- No sit en nÀkis. Ei ois niin iso diili lopulta, mut mun elÀmÀstÀ tylis 99% tylsempÀÀ. En vois enÀÀ piirtÀÀ tai mitÀÀn, niin mÀ vaan istuisin kaiket pÀivÀt. Ei mua huvittais alottaa mitÀÀn, enkÀ haluais tutustua ihmisiin, kun en vois luottaa mihinkÀÀn. Kun en nÀkis ilmeitÀ ja sillainsa. Mua harmittais eniten varmaan se, etten nÀkis mun ystÀvien hymyjÀ ja nauruja enÀÀ. Sen jÀlkeen vasta piirtÀminen ja muut. En uskaltais liikkua missÀÀn, kun eksyisin ilman visuaalista suunnistamista.
10. MitÀ tekisit, jos huomeaamuna peilistÀ katsoisi alternate reality versio susta pyytÀen apua?
- 'Listen, I have my own set of issues so I'm not promising anything but uhhh, kerro ihmees missÀ vika'
Jos olisi mahdollista, haluaisitko osata lukea ajatuksia?
Helppo kysymys, en todellakaan!Â
MĂ€ arvostan tosi paljon sitĂ€ ettĂ€ jokasella o oma tila ja omat rajat, niin en millÀÀn tasolla halua enkĂ€ pystyis kĂ€yttĂ€mÀÀn ajatustenlukemis-kykyĂ€ puhtaalla omatunnolla. Vaikka epĂ€varmuus ja sosiaalinen ahistus potkii vĂ€lillĂ€ pÀÀhĂ€n mieluummin laitan duunia siihen et opettelen kommunikoimaan paremmin muiden kanssa ja luotan siihen mitĂ€ muut kokee sopivaks jakaa mun kanssa. Koen et sellanen kyky vaan pahentais mun olemassa olevia heikkouksia ja taipumuksia ja mun pitÀÀ tietoisesti valita tie joka ei johda self-sabotageen.Â
Oon laittanu niin paljon duunia parempiin tapoihin ja siihen et oon reilu ja hyvĂ€ itsellenikin, et tĂ€hĂ€n ei oo olemassa mitÀÀn muuta vastausta. Ei sillĂ€, en usko et olisin aiemminkaan halunnu lukea ajatuksia, mut joskus asiat on hyvĂ€ julistaa ÀÀneen.Â