is it selfish to want him back? Not my Andrew, just some Andrew
Any will do, long as he doesnt hate me.. too much
I wanna be able to talk to him again
I wanna be able to listen to him again
I just wanna be friends. If anything. Just being friends would do.
Where are you, my Andy? Where did you reincarnate after that bad bad man killed you.
To the man who killed my Andy: *my* Andrew. What the fuck is wrong with you? And why do you still plague my brain? Just let me get away, please.
Oh how i yearn to rebuild my life, move on for once, not remember him ever again. Who he was in this life and who he was in the last.
Maybe thats why I wanna meet some Andrew to be friends. Overwrite the memory. No longer want him as mine.
I have someone who's mine, or well, ours, and I dont mind sharing, not with my system, cause even at my worst it held me with no difference than it held the others, no matter how difficult i was, no matter how much i threatened to hurt it, it saw right through me and knew i was all bark no bite, and it kept trying with me, never gave up.
My Cosmo never gave up. I believe it is him. Never giving up on me. We find eachother again, and once again it has no problem picking up my broken pieces and putting me back together.
I still wish to find Andrew though, I just wish to talk again. The Gods know what we would even talk about... but listening to him again would give me peace. Knowing he doesnt hate me. That we can be in good terms. That we can be healthy. Not family, of course not, I dont know if I could give him such a title again. But friends. Friends sounds nice. I like friends.
Andrew, I wanna be friends. Wherever you are. I dont want you to be mine, I wanna see you happy, I wanna talk about our days. I wanna be happy for you and have you be happy for me.
I wish you the best, wherever you are, friend.
-Ash, #🌸🔪
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