#arumpunya

i was never the top student .. hardly ever showed any talents .. i was a shy scared little girl with no confidence whatsoever .. i was the quiet passive one in the group ,, and maybe thats why i got bullied a lot .. for appearing as a slow kid ,, i guess because i never said anything people thought id get fooled very easily .. because i am so slow and wouldnt notice anything .. but i did .. and it taught me a lot ..

i didnt understand then ,, but i do now .. that we shouldnt judge someone just based on what we think we see .. when i was being cheated on every game ,, i saw everything .. i didnt say anything and just let people think whatever they like ..

i observe then make my assessment .. it became a habit until now that i know immediately which kind of people i have to keep close and which i have to stay away from .. without confronting them ,, i just keep my distance ..

this is the reason i only have a small number of people believing in me .. i never showed my wildcards to just anyone .. i never seek attention ,, i stay away from the spotlight .. im just a little chameleon going along with the current .. invisible ..

i am my biggest motivator .. i told myself every day to never stop trying ,, never stop dreaming ,, never stop believing … that one day all of these would be paid off .. one day people would start to notice what i do .. one day id make myself and everyone proud of what i can do ..  

each and every hardship struggles failures and roadblocks became another motivation to success .. growing up i heard more discouragements than encouragements from many people around me .. but i always told myself to prove them wrong later .. when the time comes i will prove them wrong .. when the time comes they will see me strive ..

all i have right now i can only dream of as a little girl .. i have come so far but the fight is not over .. i will never forget where i came from but i will continue to grow taller .. reaching higher goals .. keeping the leap of faith .. that if we believe in something ,, anything is possible ..

learning bts history and where they came from reminds me of my own journey .. and i believe everyone is the same .. we all have those fight within ourselves ,, when we want to reach a dream but not even knowing how ,, yet all the people around us keep belittling us .. bts taught us to never give up .. even when people are throwing shits at them ,, they keep doing them ..

just do what you do .. all the haters are gonna hate no matter what you do .. so keep doing you ..