#arukaposting

Killua took me to a dream festival in Yumeru City... It made me happy. So many beautiful flowers everywhere, and people dancing to soft, happy music. So many pretty voices filling the streets, and all Killua can do is pay attention to me... He's acting so concerned for no reason! I love being here. :3

I wanna dance with the flower fairies, but he doesn't want to let me.. </3 One of them saw us arguing and asked me if I was okay. I said yea, but... I wanna be a priestess and nobody takes it seriously. Just call me manipulative abuser like the Zoldycks. I'm Freecss, not Zoldycks... ;o;

they tell me they like my happy soul. I'm scared to be happy..that's what get me abused...

So I keep feeling inside until I'm at home in room and I start to cry in my room to nothing.

Ptsd hellscape world is so boring <_< nobody understand my body for no reason.. like im right here, u dont need a test to know when I is in pain...just give me the meds I need instead of meds for shit i dont have and I will literally be fine lol <_< whatever I has its not the misogynyslop colonizer word they used on me.

I wanna play doctor...!!! >_< I want to poke killua with needles and study hihs blood but im only 12!!!!! i wanna eat himmmmmm!!!! waoaaoaaaaahh I wanna take his pulse and do xrays and give him an IV with infinite little sister love so he is hydrated again <3 I wanna give him tasty tea to drink and some tasty food Gon made :3 ouh i feel fluffy just thinking about it <333

i want to study his anatomy and take pretty pictures of him but everything freaks me out so I wanna be a mortician but that stinky too Q_Q i hate thissssssssssssssssssss owsdifjsdlkfsdjfjsdf i just wanna draw im so hungry everything looks like tasty food when im full of ghosts waaahh

booooooooooooooooooooooooored

dude theres too much bullshit in my ears i cant stand sound at all anymore >_< or lights O_o Everything hurts for like no fucking reason (ptsd and conversion therapy and segregation and isolation) anywayyyyy

what if me and oniichan were on da moon kissing :3 woobwoob meow

it could be any of them!! ^o^

idk, im not picky.... but kalluto is smelly and scary and boring so idc about him :3 he wants mommy and killua and gon too much wwwww

why are older boys so pretty and gay >_< literally girls but butch >_< dad has long hair but hes sooooo uglyyy and mom is uglyyyyyyyy and mean >_<

ugh i wanna puke im so hungry TT_TT

what if kiwua was a plate of spaghetti and i ate him with garlic toast :3

but yanno im kinda mad >:(

why the fuck my bitch mom turn me into the moon for no fucking reason