#artificial kid

(I might go with Phlox -- the moonflower) He doesn't talk much to people, so essentially he's almost always quiet and when he does talk he makes things difficult by only speaking Balanese. He knows English, he just barely uses it.

Artificial Kid

The Artificial Kid by Bruce Sterling, cover by Bodhi Wind (1987)

Artificial Kid, Danno

Sto mondo è sbagliato, troppe distanze, troppo elevato il grado di quanto sto dissociato, il prezzo che ho pagato non basta e in più ste paranoie non passano e buttano giù.

I'm not scared of other people, I'm fucking frightened about myself, because I know that I'm no good, and I'm psycho aswell as sociopath. I'm so sick and tired of speaking on my behalf, I've spent 3 agonising months doing so, and all I got was a mental exhaustion which I won't forget very soon, but the main issue still remains, the only way I'm fighting it right now is by isolating myself from other people just to pretend everything is doing alright. But it's not, it's just an illusion gave by the mere fact that I'm alone and I've got no one to confront. I'm putting myself asleep, and this is not what I want. I actually prefer the pain, because as I'm bleeding I've got this strange sensation of growing up, and to grow up seem the only escape from this hell of a mentality of mine.

”Coltivo incendi, dubbi, paranoie, ansie ripongo nel mio prossimo speranze false, stupide illusioni, manie, svariate delusioni e drastiche reazioni ad allergie, antipatie a pelle, notti senza stelle segni che poi restano per sempre come il sangue sulle bende di certe leggende”