Being aromantic has been one hell of a journey, discovering the identity, questioning it, wondering if it was all just all a self-fulfilling prophecy and I was just letting myself believe that that's who I was in order to avoid my own personal issues while internally I found nothing. It was who I was and it felt so perfect. And Lord knows I hated myself so damn much for it. It was like how could I be this thing? This person. Even though it all made so much sense. I grew up friendless, I wasn't exactly a "quiet kid" per se, I mean I spoke up, spoke my mind but essentially I had no crowd, I rarely had company and I never exactly fit in anywhere. This experience allowed me to explore myself even further, before when I joined social media just as it was coming up, guys would flirt with me and I mean I would flirt back all as a game, all for some attention, I mean I was lonely, I was internally desperate to be seen and it was all a game but there was NOTHING. No sense of attachment even, I just liked that someone wanted to actually give me some attention but the whole fixation of locking myself in a relationship has never occurred in any of my relationships, even the ones where we mentally connect and it all feels like the person was God-sent. I could drawl on this forever, lol, but this was really just an appreciation post to the entire aro community out there, for the patience, the education and the love and bringing me into absolutely loving being aro!
