#ariane's note

Cycle 648 Note

Talked some more to the Elster unit. She's different from replikas I knew back home, nothing like my teachers or the Blockwart Protektor. I know she didn't have a choice, but it feels like she's also here because she didn't fit in. It's like we've run away from the world together.

At first, I didn't like having someone around, and I was glad that she's quiet and didn't approach me. But lately, I've missed having someone I can talk to. It's been so long since I've last seen another person.

I never thought I'd miss it. Except her, everything is the same in here, always. Nothing ever changes.

"Ariane's Notes"

Running out of ochre paint. Elster laughed when I told her! Now I have to mix it myself - so annoying

I still haven't read a whole bunch of those manuals... I feel like they gave me enough to read for the rest of my life.

Most of them are boring technical manuals, anyway.

They could have given us more films to watch instead. Half of them are war films, which Elster doesn't like, and the other half are kitschy propaganda dramas.

Cycle 1294 Note

Had a strange dream. I was listening to the radio with my mother. Like back then, the numbers were on, and mother was taking notes with a book on her lap. It was that book I saw in the shop window of the bookstore where the twins lived, the one with a yellow hooded figure on the cover. When I went there to buy it, it was gone, and Erika said the Protectors had confiscated it.

Or was it Isa? I can't remember...

Everything is always the same. I feel like I'm trapped inside this ship. I know every bolt on every panel in every room of it. I've seen everything, I've done everything there is to do in here.

I can't concentrate on anything. It's like there's this fog inside my head, and whenever I try to do anything, I just can't focus. I want to go outside, I want to breathe fresh air, I want to feel wind on my face and in my hair.

I think I lost more hair. I'm sitting here, getting older. Every time I wake up, I feel older, weaker, sicker. I get out of breath so easily lately, and my back hurts when I sit down. How much longer will this go on? It feels like I'm just slowly dying...

Cycle X57X ("Smeared Diary Page")

░oke up from cryo ░▓░░ ░▓ in ░░pty mess hall. I was wondering ▒▒░▒▓░ Elster ▓s looking out ▓▒▒░ flight de▓ ▒░▒░ like some ▒░▓░ lost in though▒ Sometimes I feel l░▓▒░▒░ is▒░ home▓▒

fanart interpretation by Apnoiac

Cycle 5XX9

I'm tired of it all. Every time I go to sleep, I wonder if I'll wake up again. I'm scared that it'll be the last time I said good night to her. Did I say it right? Will she be okay? What if one of us just won't wake up tomorrow?

I don't want to die, I don't want to live anymore either. Everything is just so exhausting. I just want to lie down and disappear.

i just want to sleep please just let me sleep

Unknown Date

Evidently, she stopped keeping track of time.

please, just make it stop

please

lost another tooth

there was so much blood

my hands were shaking

why is my hair falling out

i can't sleep

i just want to sleep