As Allisonâs older sister, and an Argent Hunter, youâre supposed to despise everything connected to Scott McCallâŠincluding Stiles Stilinski. And you do. Or at least, thatâs what everyone believes.
School hallways were already loud in the mornings, but nothing was as loud as you and Stiles Stilinski pretending to hate each other.
He was standing beside Scottâs locker, backpack hanging open, talking with the kind of wild hand gestures that usually meant he was trying (and failing) to come up with an elaborate plan for something. You spotted your sister there too, Allison, making goo-goo eyes at Scott. Allison didnât know he was a werewolf, of course. She didnât know werewolves existed. But as her older sister by a year, you did. You also knew what your family would do if they found out. Hence, youâd taken it upon yourself to keep the two apart.
Stilesâs voice carried down the hall, and when you turned the corner, his eyes immediately locked on yours. What started as surprise hardened in a split second into annoyance. Then irritation. Then a full-on glare. You raised your chin, returning it.
âAwesome,â you muttered loudly as you approached, âthe last person I wanted to see before coffee.â
Stiles straightened up, shoving a hand to his chest in mock offense. âWow. Starting early today, Argent. Donât you have knives to polish or innocent people to terrorise?â
You ignored the jab and grabbed Allisonâs elbow, tugging her away from Scott, probably harder than necessary. Stiles wasnât supposed to talk about Hunter business in front of Allison, and his comment was dangerously close to being suspicious. As soon as Stiles and Scott had found out that you were aware of ScottâsâŠfurry alter ego, theyâd begged you not to tell your family. Youâd agreed but only because you knew Allison had fallen hard and fast for the werewolf, and you knew what your family would do to him. While you were raised to follow the Argent code, you found yourself believing in it less and less.
âHey!â Scott protested, stumbling forward.
âShe has class,â you said sharply. âWhich youâd know if you werenât distracting her every five seconds.â
Allison shot you a glare. âYou donât have to be rude.â
âIâm not rude,â you bit back, eyes cutting to Stiles. âIâm just surrounded by idiots.â
Stiles leaned an elbow against a locker, that smug, infuriating half-smile creeping across his face. âYou know youâre being insane, right? Like, medically concerning levels of insane.â
You shot him a look that could kill. âAnd youâre being loud. As usual.â
âIâm not loud,â he said indignantly.
âYouâre always loud.â
âOnly because Iâm constantly yelling over the sound of you being wrong.â
That earned a dramatic sigh from Scott. âYou two need therapy or something.â
Stiles didnât look at Scott. He kept staring at you like he was five seconds from snapping back with something lethal. âOh trust me,â he said, âthe only therapy I need is not having to see her face every day.â
âThen stop looking,â you shot back.
Allison tugged your sleeve. âCan we not do this every morning?â
âTell him that,â you said at the same moment Stiles muttered, âTell her that.â
Allison tugged on your sleeve. âCome on. Youâre going to give yourself a stroke.â
Stiles smirked. âOne can only hope.â
You pointed at him like you were selecting a target. âStilinski, if you look in my direction one more timeââ
âPlease donât finish that sentence,â Scott begged tiredly. âNot before eight.â
You and Stiles both ignored him. You took a step closer, voice low, heated. âStay out of Allisonâs way.â
His eyes narrowed, pretending anger so well you almost believed it. âStay out of my way.â
You turned on your heel and dragged Allison off, feeling his gaze burning the back of your neck.
âYou were really harsh today,â Allison said, shutting her locker between classes. âHarsher than usual.â
You shrugged, adjusting your bag, keeping your expression neutral. âHe deserved it.â
âNo one deserves that level of aggression before lunchtime,â she said. âYou two are like rabid dogs.â
âHe started it,â you muttered. The irony of her ârabid dogâ comment wasnât lost on you, considering the boy she was interested in.
Allison deadpanned. âYou always say that.â
âWell, itâs always true.â
Her eyebrows pulled together. âDo you really hate him that much?â
Your heart thumped once, hard. âYes,â you said quickly. Too quickly.
Allison gave you a skeptical look. âHeâs just, being Stiles. He gets flustered. He says things without thinking. Heâs not dangerous.â
âHe is to Scott,â you snapped. âHe influences him.â
Allisonâs expression softened knowingly. âYou mean Scott influences me.â
You glared at a crack in the tile floor. âI just donât trust him.â
âYou donât trust anyone.â
âExactly.â
She sighed, nudging your shoulder. âPromise me youâll be civil tonight at bowling? For Scottâs sake?â
You hesitated. Then forced a smile. âFor Scott? Never. But for you? Always.â
She seemed satisfied. You pretended to be. But inside, nerves twisted. Because tonight, you had other plans. And they had nothing to do with bowling with Jackson and Lydia.
âDude,â Scott groaned as he shut his locker, âyou guys canât keep doing this.â
Stiles threw his hands up. âShe started it!â
Scott blinked. âI watched the whole thing. You started it by glaring at her.â
âThat doesnât count!â Stiles yelled.
âStiles.â
âWhat?!â He dragged a hand through his hair in frustration. âLook, she hates me, man. She HATES me. Every time she looks at me itâs like sheâs picturing where to put the stake.â
âItâs not a stake, itâs a crossbow bolt,â Scott corrected reflexively.
âNOT HELPING.â
Scott sighed. âAllison says youâre being mean to her.â
Stiles stared at him. âAllison thinks Iâm mean to her?â
Scott nodded seriously.
Stiles scoffed. âOh yeah, okay, because sheâs so sweet to me! She treats me like gum stuck to her shoe. The other day she literally told me looking at me ruined her morning.â
Scott cracked a small laugh. âIt was kind of funny.â
âIt was not funny, it was psychological warfare.â
Scott clapped him on the back. âJust try to get along.â
âNo promises,â Stiles muttered under his breath.
As they walked off together Stiles tried not to smile, because he knew exactly where he was going tonight while Scott was bowling.
The preserve always looked like an abandoned forest, but tonight it felt achingly quiet. The kind of quiet that made your pulse thrum in your ears.
You slipped through the trees to the meeting spot, leaving your car well hidden and a decent distance away. Stiles was already pacing and he froze as soon as he saw you. The frustration, the sarcasm, the hostile glare - everything heâd worn like armor all day - fell away instantly.
His voice cracked with relief. âFinally.â
You barely had a breath before his arms wrapped around you, his mouth crashing onto yours with a desperation that burned. Your hands flew to his jacket, fisting the fabric and yanking him closer, kissing him back like youâd been suffocating all day and he was oxygen.
He broke the kiss just long enough to say against your lips, âI thought you werenât coming.â
âI had to ditch Allison and make an excuse not to go bowling.â
He groaned a little. âShe hates me.â
âNo,â you gasped as he kissed down your neck, âshe thinks I hate you.â
His laugh was breathless against your skin. âWell. Youâre very convincing.â
You grabbed the sides of his face, pulling him back to your mouth. âYou started it.â
âYou spoke to me first.â
âYou glared.â
He kissed you so hard you lost your balance, stumbling until your back hit the wall. His hands were everywhere, on your waist, your hips, sliding under your shirt, palms warm and eager.
âTwo days,â he murmured between frantic kisses. âItâs been two days. I was losing my mind.â
âI know,â you whispered, clinging to him. âI know. Me too.â
His forehead pressed to yours, both of you breathing hard.
âYou looked so angry this morning,â he said, brushing your hair back. âIt was hot. Infuriating, but hot.â
âYouâre an idiot.â
You kissed him again, slower this time. I t was sweeter and deeper, your hands moving up his back, pulling him impossibly closer.
He lifted you suddenly, your legs instinctively wrapping around him. You gasped, and Stiles grinned against your mouth before kissing you again, walking you back until your spine hit cold bark.
âI thought Scott was gonna notice today,â he murmured between kisses. âI swear I almost kissed you just to shut you up.â
You laughed breathlessly. âI almost threw myself at you in the hallway. You called me insane.â
âYou are,â he said, nipping at your throat. âInsanely hot.â
Your hands threaded into his hair, tugging lightly. Stiles groaned and pushed against you harder, pinning you against the tree with your legs around his hips.
You pulled him down by the collar of his shirt. âI want you.â
âYou sure?â he asked, brushing a thumb over your cheekbone, breath shaking. âWe can justâŠstay like this. I donât care.â
âIâm sure,â you insisted.
That was all it took. His mouth found yours again, feverish. His hands roamed your sides, your thighs, your waist. Your fingers tangled in his hair, tugging gently and earning a low groan that went straight through you.
Clothes came off in frantic motions. His hands were everywhere, yours tangled in his hair, both of you desperate and breathless. Every touch felt like relief; every kiss felt like breaking the rules and loving it.
His lips left yours only long enough to murmur against your neck, âYour family would literally kill me.â
You gasped a breathy laugh. âNot if I kill them first.â
He laughed softly, breathless, kissing you again.
âStiles,â you whispered against his mouth.
âYeah?â
âI hate pretending.â
His forehead dropped to yours. âMe too.â
You kissed him again. Slowly at first, then deeper, hungrier, months of secret meetings and whispered confessions and stolen touches boiling over. And then there was nothing but tangled limbs, whispered names, shuddering breaths, and the kind of closeness you could never show in daylight.
Only the two of you - Stiles and the Argent girl he wasnât supposed to touch. The girl he couldnât stay away from.
As you came apart under the moonlight, there was as loud as you and Stiles and Stilinski.
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Summary: (Y/N) Argent arrived at Beacon Hills to put to rest her fatherâs sister, Kate Argent. For the first time, her family has decided to settle down and sustain a life in this interesting small town. After 17 years, (Y/N) has the opportunity to establish interpersonal relationships but will she be ready to face the complications that come with relating to her cousinâs, Allison, friends; especially, the infamous Derek Hale? She will face the adventure of being associated with the Derek and McCall pack as well as being faced with the discovery of certain aspects of her life she never imagined.
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Story Description:Â (Y/N) Argent arrived at Beacon Hills to put to rest her fatherâs sister, Kate Argent. For the first time, her family has decided to settle down and sustain a life in this interesting small town. After 17 years, (Y/N) has the opportunity to establish interpersonal relationships but will she be ready to face the complications that come with relating to her cousinâs, Allison, friends; especially, the infamous Derek Hale. She will face the adventure of being associated with the Derek and McCall pack as well as being faced with the discovery of certain aspects of her life she never imagined.
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Chapter 9
All I could do was stare wide-eyed at the man in front of me. My hands were shaking, my chest heaved, and my throat tightened. No one had ever told me they liked me, let alone that they were falling for me.
Heat started building inside me, bubbling to the surface in an uncontrollable way. I couldnât stay there for much longer. The walls in my living room were closing in on me and suddenly the air felt heavy and unbreathable. I couldnât tell if I was truly breathing or not, but my lungs ached for more oxygen as I took short and sharp breaths. Dizzily, I got up from the floor, clutching at anything that could steady me as I traveled the spinning room. All I needed was to reach the door that would lead me to the backyard â I needed air.
Derekâs voice echoed in my head, asking if I was alright, but I couldnât answer. The knot in my throat tightened if I tried to speak. I knew he was worried. With his supernatural hearing I was sure he could witness the rapid speed at which my heart was beating, and probably the whooshing sounds I felt in my head.
Finally, my hands touched the cool metal of the backdoor, sliding it open as quickly as I could.
I understood what I was feeling. Not too long ago, Scott had brought me down from this feeling. I tried focusing on breathing, but the inhales only worked to add to the sting in my lungs. I fumbled in my pockets searching for the small device that could aid in my breathing, but noticing that they were empty, I outstretched my hands toward the blurry figure in front of me.
â(Y/N), what do you need?â Derek asked frantically.
My brain worked hard to group the letter together as well as provide enough oxygen to blurt out the words, as hard as it was. âIn-in-inha-ler,â I choked out. âB-bed-bedroom.â
He disappeared for a few seconds, and in the blink of an eye was standing in front of me once more. Derek helped me sit on a chair as he guided the L-shaped plastic container to my lips. My shaky hands met his and tried pumping the medicine into myself, but my hands were too weak to do so. He ended up pumping the vial twice as I took in the deepest breath I could.
âFocus on my voice, (Y/N) .â I hadnât noticed when another voice joined in. Looking up through glazed eyes, I saw Isaacâs figure talking me down. âTry to match my breathing, okay?â
I focused on the blondâs chest, matching my inhales and exhales to the movement of it. Some minutes later, I started stabilizing. Gripping my chest, I was able to steady my breathing and have my eyes focus on the picture before me. Isaac drew soothing circles on my back as he continued guiding my breathing. Focused on my friend, I hadnât noticed that Derek had gone and fetched a glass of water.
âFeeling better?â Isaac questioned as I gulped down the cold water and nodded. âGood.â
âWhat are you doing here, Isaac?â Derek spoke in words of annoyance. His brow had remained furrowed since the arrival of his beta, angered that he had appeared.
âI came over to visit my friend,â he scoffed. âAm I not allowed to do that now?â
âYou know you shouldnât be near her so close to the full moon,â Derek reminded the boy. But it didnât take an expert to know that his irritation was due to something else. âYour actions are unpredictable during this time, and you could hurt her.â
âWell, I didnât trigger someoneâs panic attack, and I feel quite in control. Canât say the same about you.â Isaac pointed at the alphaâs hand. His claws had grown inside his fists and had penetrated the skin of his palm, droplets of blood trickling to the lawn. âIf anyone is unpredictable right now, itâs not me.â
âHow dare you speak to me that way?! YouâŠâ
âGuys, stop!â (Y/N) finally yelled out, the loudness rasping her throat. âDerek, just go.â
âButâŠâ
âGo. Please,â I reiterated softly. Standing, I placed a hand on his warm chest, trying to subside the pain I was causing him with my response. âIâll call you later⊠I promise.â
âAre you sure?â
âYes. Just go.â With another menacing glance toward Isaac â and a sad stare toward me â he disappeared into the woods, leaving me and Isaac alone. For a second time, I felt the need to steady my breathing, scared that another attack would sprout. I sat on the steps of the wooden deck in a last attempt to steady the tremulous feeling rushing through me. âHow did you get in?â
âYou left the front door open,â Isaac answered matter-of-factly. âAs I was walking up the door, I heard you gasping for air, so I rushed in. And thankfully it was open. You wouldâve had to replace your front door before your parents came back.â
âYou could always just use the side gate,â I chuckled. âBut Iâm just glad you were here.â
âSo, wanna tell me what that was all about?â He sat next to me on the floor, staring up with a playful grin on his face.
âNot particularly,â I whined. But I knew I needed someone to talk to about this, and Isaac would probably be one of the only people to understand.
âCome on. I promise I wonât judge.â
I took a deep breath, slid down the chair to the floor, and unloaded. I told him everything â about the dream, my family, becoming a hunter, Allisonâs jealousy. My mouth spoke rapidly, words spilling before I could process them. The events jumped out of the timeline, details being remembered as I spoke and quickly blurted. It felt as if my mouth was simply a printer of a jumble of words.
âThen, Derek told me he was falling for me, and I had a panic attack because I couldnât handle the thought of someone actually having those kinds of feeling for me. And now youâre all caught up.â
âSo Derek actually has emotions?â Isaac laughed. âI have to tell everyone.â
âIsaac, this is serious. He probably thinks I hate him or that Iâm actually afraid of him, or something. Derek was openly vulnerable about his emotions, and I couldnât handle it. And then I told him to leave! OH MY GOSH!â The realization had finally dawned on me. Derek had just confessed his feelings for me, and I probably reacted in the worse way possible. âWhat did I do, Isaac? He probably hates me now.â
âHighly doubt he thinks you hate him, (Y/N),â he soothed. âLook, I may not know much about Derek, but if everything youâve said is true â and the things I may have witnessed are real â then thereâs nothing you could do that will make him hate you. He might just be as confused as you are right now. Just take tonight to rest and try to talk to him later. Do you have feelings for him?â
âI wouldnât know, honestly. Feelings, relationships, friendships, socializing⊠everything is just so new to me and itâs all happening so fast,â I exhaled exasperated. âOne day I was the odd one out in this town and the next Iâm a hunter surrounded by supernatural creatures in charge of protecting humans. I canât handle it all â I feel like Iâm going crazy.â
Isaac scooched closer and wrapped me in a hug. The warmth beaming from his body surrounded me. It was comforting, a welcome embrace after such an exhausting encounter. He felt like a safe haven for my emotional downpour â but he wasnât the person I wanted to be with at that moment.
My brain could only conjure the image of Derek. The image of him engulfing me in his arms; the smell of his cologne attacking my sense; the soft patter of his heartbeat in my ear with my head on his chest; his hand stroking my hair. I wanted nothing more than to be back in the presence of Derek. But nothing that included feelings came naturally to me. All I knew was how to push people away, how to keep everyone at an armâs length. For the first time in my life, I felt that everything was just out of my control.
âWhat do you want to do, then?â Isaac mumbled after a few minutes of quiet. He was rocking us softly back and forth, his chin resting on my head. âYou can sleep on it, settle your emotions and talk to Derek tomorrow, or we can go there right now. Although I think he might be very angry at me right now for being here, and Iâm not sure if heâll grow angrier if I stay.âÂ
âI could also call him later.âÂ
âDonât you think this is a conversation you should have face to face?â
âMaybe. I donât know. It would probably resolve things with Allison,â I scoffed. âRegardless, being with him is still illegal, and my family would probably be more inclined to kill him. Honestly, I donât want to end up like Scott and Allison.â
âThen why accept becoming a hunter at all? Why donât you just say you donât want to be a part of this?â
âItâs my familyâs legacy, Isaac,â I sighed. It was true that most of my problems could be obviated had I declined a position as a hunter, but that would mean turning my back to my own family â Uncle Chris, Allison, my mom, my dad. âWhether I had met you guys, the people of Beacon Hills, or not, my life was directed to becoming an Argent hunter. Having someone on the inside can only be beneficial for you guys, though. Keep you all safe from my own people.â
âThatâs very noble of you,â he laughed. âBut what do you want for yourself, (Y/N)? All Iâve heard is what youâre doing for other people, and itâs all very honorable, but not once have you said what you want. And if thereâs anything Iâve learned from my life, when it comes to feelings you get to be selfish â you need to be.â
âHow do I know if Iâm making the right decision?â
âWell,â he started. I could tell he was unsure of how to navigate this conversation. His friend was going on a downward spiral about his alpha â it just felt weird. âDonât process. Just answer the first person that comes into your head. Can you do that?âÂ
âI can try,â I confessed.
âHow would you feel if Derek wasnât in your life?â
I do as Isaac asks, and I donât think. The first thing that blurts out of my mouth is, âI would be devastated. As much as Iâve pushed him away, now that heâs stepped into my life, I donât remember how it was without him in it.â
âOkay,â he continued. âDo you feel safe when youâre with him?â
âSince the beginning.â
âAre you willing to accept all aspects of his life â the good and the bad?â
âI couldnât see him doing anything bad enough that itâd push me away.â
âAnd, finally,â he breathed out. âIf push comes to shove, would you be able to renounce being a hunter in order to be with him?â
It took me a second longer to answer this question. I knew what Isaac was asking â would I be able to choose love over family. And my answer was, âYes.â
âGo to him,â he blurted.
âWhat?â
âHeâs gonna be waiting by the door for you. I know it,â he chuckled softly. âYou owe it to yourself to figure out everything thatâs gonna happen between you two.â Â
Isaacâs arms finally let up on my body and pulled me up to my feet, wiping away the streaks of tears that had cascaded down my cheeks. He drove me in the direction of the garage before disappearing into the house, probably to ransack the kitchen. My body stood still as Brody sat on my side; I hadnât noticed heâd made his way downstairs. Whether he was calming me down or begging for a walk, I wouldn't know. All I had to do was open the white door and get on my bike, but my body stayed frozen. Â Â
âJust go, (Y/N)!â Isaac hollered from the kitchen, somehow knowing I was taking my time to twist the handle. âWeâve still got school tomorrow.â Â
âFINE!â I called back. âCan you feed Brody and take him out for a walk?â
âYeah! Just GO already!â
My hands turned the doorknob, the motion sensor light sprouting to life as soon as the door swiveled. With a breath of courage, my hands grabbed my keys. And before I knew it, I was speeding down the streets of Beacon Hills toward Derekâs home. Houses quickly turned into industrial buildings, the city noise drowning out as I reached where he lived.
The roaring of my bike would have alerted him that I was there, but he didnât come out. I killed the engine and balanced it on the stand. I took my time from taking off my helmet to walking to his door, using those seconds to stabilize my breath and my heartbeat.
It took half a knock for the metal door to slide open, revealing a disheveled Derek behind it. He was wearing a grey tank top, sweat droplets forming on his forehead and a dark ring on the collar of his shirt. His breath was heavy and his skin was red â he had been letting off some steam.
â (Y/N),â he breathed out. I wasnât sure if it was a sigh of relief. âI didnât know you were coming by.â
âYou can thank Isaac for that,â I chuckled. I stayed quiet for a couple of minutes, uncertainty clouding my mind in an instant. Derek didnât speak either. The sound of his breathing was the only assurance that the moment was happening. âCan I come in?âÂ
âY-yeah, of course.â He moved out of the way, using the small towel he wore on his shoulder to wipe away the sweat. âSit down for a sec while I change, okay?â
âSure,â I smiled. Derek disappeared into a room as I made my way to the couch in the center of the space. The place was unusually quiet, for a place that inhabited teenagers that is.
I took in the unusual surroundings. The industrial loft wasnât exactly magazine worthy, but I guessed being the alpha of a pack of teenagers whilst fighting other supernatural entities didnât allow for too much time on interior decorating. The strangest thing was the huge bed in front of the couch. It seemed to be his, far too big for anyone else living here. Had he given up a room for the other kids?
âIâm glad youâre here.â His voice startled me, making me jump slightly on my seat. His hair was wet, and he smelled of fresh cologne. âDo you want something to drink?â
âNo, thanks. Whereâs everyone else?â
âDonât know. I donât really keep tabs on them other than for training,â Derek shrugged. He brought over two water bottles regardless of my answer and sat on the other end of the couch. I could tell he was still pondering what this conversation would entail. âIâm glad youâre here, (Y/N). How everything went down wasnât exactly how I envisioned that to go.â
âI owe you an apology, Derek.â
âNo. No, you donâŠâ
âI do, Derek. You were being vulnerable, and I couldnât handle it,â I started. âThe truth is, I think I am also falling for you, and that⊠that terrifies me. Iâve never been in a situation where so many feelings are involved and navigating them in such a short amount of time had me spiraling.â
â (Y/N), IâŠâ
âPlease, let me finish.â The sentence came out more like a question than a plea. âI fear if I donât say everything as itâs mapped out in my head, itâll get misconstrued at some point.â
âAlright,â he accepted.
âThanks,â I exhaled. I hadnât noticed that the air wasnât filling my lungs completely, and they ached for more oxygen. My body sprung up, standing to help me breathe. Even so, I continued. âAs I told you, my family and me have moved around my entire life, and establishing real relationships is something Iâve avoided out of self-preservation. Now, for the first time in my life, I am starting to learn to plant roots. Yet, one thing I know for sure is that even though these feelings are alien to me, I want to feel them with you. I want to learn about all of this with you by my side. ButâŠâÂ
âBut?â Derek interrupted. He stood and was towering over me, a smile pulling at the corners of his mouth. âSorry, go on.â
âBut in one yearâs time.âÂ
âI must say, you lost me there. â
âIâm seventeen, Derek.â My tone was as-a-matter-of-factly. My aunt may have been swinging for the little leagues, but I wouldnât let Derek play that same game. âNot only will I be eighteen, but I also think I could find a way to have enough standing in the family to change us from within. It would make the relationship so much easier. I donât want to end up like Scott and Allison, hiding and looking over our shoulders at all times. And I also wouldnât like you to go to jail.âÂ
âOkay, that makes sense,â he chuckled. âAnd what would that look like?â
âI imagine the same thing weâve been doing up to this point. Only, weâre sure you wonât be going to jail,â I half-joked.
âWouldnât be the first time,â he smirked cockily.
âBut seriously, Derek.â My gaze caught his, the hand I laid on his chest warming instantly. âThe less ammo my family has on you, the better. I donât know what I would do if anything happened to you because of me.â
âI can take care of myself, (Y/N),â he whispered. âI donât need you to protect me.â
âBut I might be able to minimize the threat toward you. At least from my family,â I sighed. âSeriously, Derek. I know my dad wouldnât mind, but Iâm sure the rest of the Argent gang would jump at the chance to get you out of the way. For good.â
He remained quiet for a couple of seconds, digesting the words that had poured from my mouth. Then a toothy grin appeared on his face as his arms circled my waist. âA year, then?â
âI know it might seem like a long time, but I know itâs worth it. But I canât ask you to wait for me.â
â (Y/N)âŠâ
âIâm being realistic, Derek. I canât ask that of you.â My eyes faltered, falling on my feet to hide the tears that burned the back of my eyes. âI know I can and want to wait for you â Iâve gone my whole life, one year is nothing. But I couldnât do that to you. Just when next year comes, and you still feel the same for me, then we dive into this completely.â
I knew that I could never predict our outcome, only time could tell whether or not what I felt for Derek would be strong enough to withstand the trials of time. Although, I desired for him to choose me the whole way. But circumstance had decided to test our patience. And as much as it would tear me apart to see him with someone else, I had no way of controlling what he did or felt.
His hand landing on my chin brought me out of my wandering thoughts. His whole face had softened, his eyes holding that warmth that I had only seen directed toward me. And then he said, âI would wait for you until the end of time, (Y/N),â Derek smiled. His thumb wiped away the small tear that had fallen at some point, sending a tantalizing shiver through my body. âI havenât had the best luck with relationships in my life, but Iâve never felt like this before. Youâre something else, (Y/N) Argent.â
âYou have no idea how relieving it is to hear you say that,â I breathed out. We closed some of the distance between us by touching our foreheads together, closing our eyes to revel in the contact. The proximity was alluring and the thought of pressing our lips together inundated my mind. But we had just agreed to hold all forms of intimacy off for a year, and my resolve wasnât that bad. âWhatâre you thinking right now?â
âHow much I want to kiss you but canât,â he chuckled. âI have to keep reminding myself that my determination is strong enough to withhold.â
âIâm glad Iâm not the only one,â I teased. âYou know, I think this will be a lot harder than weâre anticipating.â
âWe have to be stronger than this. Cause we wonât make it the year.â
âMaybe â now hear me out â maybe, we just get it out of our system,â I grinned. âJust one kiss to solidify our compromise.â
âI donât think if we start, Iâll be able to stop, (Y/N),â he chuckled. I could see how his eyes were growing darker, the innocent and blissful moment we had just shared turning into a memory.
âYouâll just have to try.â I cocked an eyebrow at him, my bottom lip instinctively caught between my teeth.
We were seeing who would break first. Not once breaking eye contact, our faces started inching closer. So close I could feel his breath on my face and his lips were close enough I could already feel them on mine. His eyes flickered down once, a grin stretching on his face. A simple gust of wind could knock us closer if we let it.
âDerek, weâre here!â A female voice screamed out as the front door clanked loudly. We jumped away from each other, a minuscule air of anger filling the space that had grown between us. Erica and Boyd walked in, playful grins on their faces and questioning hints in their eyes. âWhat is Argent doing here?â
âNone of your business, Erica.â Derek was back to his alpha personality, the emotionless façade that I had been able to break through since the first day I met him. âAnd she was just leaving.â
âI was?â I questioned until I looked at his face â he was begging me to leave before we started something we would not be able to stop. âI was. Iâll see you all tomorrow night for the rave, Iâm assuming.â
âOf course,â Erica smiled deviously. âSee you there.â
âBye, (Y/N),â Boyd mumbled. âGood night.â
âNight, Boyd,â I smiled.
Exiting the building, I felt Derekâs presence behind me. He was careful of his movements, the prominent feeling of Boydâs and Ericaâs lingering eyes enough for him to keep his hands to himself. We walked in silence over to my bike, a giddy feeling revolving around us.
âI guess weâll never know if we have enough self-resolve,â he teased. âAnd I wonât test it with those two staring through the windows.â
âIf only you didnât live with teenagers, we could have tested our levels of resistance.â
âWeâll just have to leave it for another day.â He was grinning, an eyebrow cocked and a devilish smile on his face. âGet home safe, (Y/N).â
âThanks, sour wolf,â I ragged. âIâll see you tomorrow.â
âSee you, (Y/N).â
All our cards had been laid out and we had started a domino fall we had no control over. Whatever happened after this point on would be out of our hands. I just hoped that a year from now I felt the way I was feeling at this moment.