#are often difficult

Ate a nutritious breakfast (turkey & avocado on garlic rosemary bread). Did a load of laundry, including putting the clean clothes away. Cleaned the bird cage & replaced two of their old perches with new ones. Fed the dogs & remembered to give Dibs his meds. Fed the fish. Made the bed. Put away the clean dishes and washed the dirty ones. Moved two boxes out of the Red Room and onto the top shelf of the cupboard where they belong. Practiced Finnish, including making 30 more flash cards. Decided what to have for dinner (leftover taco salad). Emptied the kitchen & bathroom trashcans. Got the bin to the curb before the trashmen picked up, and put the bin away again after. Watered the blackberry vine.

that makes a huge amount of sense and i really admire how self-aware you are about it, that's the first major step to figuring out how to fight all those messages (and i struggle with some of them myself).

Oh, I’m definitely not as on top of this as you might think I am. I started replying to this post a little bit after midnight (the tags actually still say “tonight”), saved it in drafts, then stared at it for hours and rewrote it several times. Around 9 am I just gave up and finally posted the thing. My thoughts and feelings about all those things are a jumbled mess, they still are. Writing them down helped a lot, but I’m gonna be thinking about this for a while.