#archive26

i've reached the conclusion of my gender questioning: i am cisgender and will be going by she/her now! :]

some background: i do think i have a lot of internalised misogyny, and my prime suspect for this would be an ex-situationship/bsf who is transmasc and had a stupid amount of influence on me back when we were friends [97% of my vagueposts are about him]. he had a heck lot of gender dysphoria and would repeatedly say things like "i'm not weak like a girl", TO MY FACE. i genuinely don't know why i didn't say anything to him about it.

it will take me a while to fully get there, but i've more or less accepted that i can be a masc-presenting female OR a fem-presenting female OR an androgynous-presenting female at any given time and none of them makes me any less of a person. in fact i'm gonna cut all my hair off soon just to prove this to myself >:3 [and also piss off all the idiots who keep telling me i look better with my hair down]

also my mom took me clothes shopping for my bday!! i let myself try out some more conventionally feminine clothes for the first time in ages and it was really nice!

anyway i've never really cared that much about my pronouns, so i won't care if i get misgendered once or twice. just updating on this piece of personal character development >:]

GUYS I FORGOT TO POST ABOUT THIS BUT NOAHFINNCE RELEASED MR OVERWHELM ON MY BDAYYYAYYAYAYAY :DDD

HEHEHEHHEHEHEHHE I'M SO HAPPY ABOUT THIS!!!

i use tone indicators a lot to help out my autistic mooties :> and also because i'm terrified of coming across wrong..

random lore drop but the first person i was ever with was autistic and for the longest time i couldn't understand why he kept dry texting,, then i realised he WASN'T dry texting at all. so i asked him to use tone indicators and it was a lot better! ultimately the relationship ended soon after and i feel like it was because of a lot of misunderstandings on both sides.. and lowkey i'll probably always feel bad about that T-T

so.. i find tone indicators really useful in minimising understandings for both posters and readers :] [holy yap thank you for reading]

[i also make up tone indicators if there isn't a specific commonly used one to convey whatever i need to,, like /silly or /tired]

guyssss guys look

i has subway cookeys :33

holy shi thanks guys!! LMAO

tfw someone who has 20x as many flwers as me and is infinitely cooler than me follows me first:

i went for a walk in the end!

actually touched some grass with my fingers [it was growing on somebody's wall]

i walked about 2km, picked up dinner for my family

[this was yesterday i forgot to post this]

happy cat noises