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TRIGGER WARNING BLOOD AND DEPICTIONS OF TRAUMA

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(Context: set AFTER the oil rig comic. After an event Kwazii felt guilty for, and has since been trying to " make it up" to the other octonauts since.)

Image text: (bottle breaking) C R A S H

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A bottle, previously filled with a fruit syrup, shatters on the kitchen floor.

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[Kwazii: AURGH. S-sorry matie!

Shellington: It's not your fault, its jus' raspberry syrup!

Kwazii: A'VE GOT IT THOUGH- Tis all me own fault- I 'ave t' fix it! I- I-

Shellington, relenting: Ah- Alright... If yae insist, I'll jus' be on mae wayyy....]

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Kwazii was just trying to help. But he'd made a mess of things yet again. Like a kitten.

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[Kwazii: " Ye Jus' HAD t' fuck up ANOTHER BLOODY THING! Like ye ave'nt trouvled 'em all 'nough with yer damned nonsense! 'Specially Shellington- Who else would make th' wee ones so sad?! Other than ye of course- An' even 'en ye- YE FUCKED ALL UP AGAIN- Ye don't deserve allo that kindness only t' spit on it! ALL YE HAD T' DO WAS HELP. MAKE UP FER IT ALL! STUCK HERE CLEANI-"

"Wha's gone down w' me? Cryin' o'er a mess? Spirits o' the sea I look a mess meself! Some pirate- SOME OCTONAUT I be! The Cap'n oughta be ashamed. 'E will be, should I be seen w' this mess allon me!"

(Noticing his shaking paws)

"Me... paws...W-WHAT-" ---------------------- He can't even manage to not fuck up making it up to them. He even made the vegimals sad with what he did. Sorry doesn't matter when theres no action behind it. His grandad had taught him that. He's supposed to be better than this. He's just spiraling harder and harder. He looks at his mess thats's staining his trembling paws red. (When did they start trembling?) He had been ignoring the growing sense of doom and panick but now he has no control. He's been taken back. Back to the day his hands were stained in another kind of horror and guilt.Sticky and red.

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He can't breathe. Thoughts that don't make any sense race in his mind, but they're all muffled as though suffocated by the horror of the realization of what he was DOING.

He can smell it.

HE CAN SMELL IT.

COPPER, RED, AND ROTTEN.

Run. Hide. Obey. Or else.

His instincts move him.

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Blindly running. Barely staying upright. Stumbling while struggling to even breathe. Find somewhere safe before you choke on the smoke.

There is a witness this time.

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Kwazii doesn't remember because he wasn't there. He wasn't in his body. He was somewhere else. Somewhere far, far away.

He doesn't remember the blaring of the octo alert in the halls after a voice on the other side od the door pleaded for him to "Please- Please respond- I-I need to get help-"

Shellington had been scared. Scared he'd gotten hurt somehow and was dying. He could only hear choked gasps from the other side.

Kwazii doesn't remember how the door to the bathroom was forced open. He doesn't remember the shock and beweilderment from anyone looking at the scene. He didn't remember hissing at Peso who had come to check on him. And he didn't remember Barnacles ordering anyone nearby to go, while he stayed with Kwazii.

Because he wasn't there. He was somewhere else. And the screams were loud there.

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Scared.

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Kwazii stayed like that, tense, for a while. Someone who was supposed to be loud and boisterous. Now timid, silent, and struck by terror. But then, very slowly, he became more and more limp. Eyes not focusing Somewhere Else anymore, but rather, not focusing on anything at all.

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Barnacles was patient. Sat with him. Hummed a song Kwazii had hummed before. He didn't know the words though. The captain wouldn't ever admit it, but he was scared too.

The captain noticed when Kwazii began to move, it was small, mostly his tails and paw twitching some.

His ear flicked when Barnacles said his name the first time.

He seemed shaken and startled the second time. And barely looked towards Barnacles the third time.

He didn't say anything, just numbly took Barnacles paw and shakily followed him. He was far too numb and exhausted to speak. It was mostly Barnacles physical support that got him to the med bay at all.

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In all honesty, Kwazii wasn't just worn from the flashback and panick attack. He hadn't slept well in weeks. The cat had been pushing himself to help in any way he could, in part from guilt, but also to hide from his own thoughts. You know, like a coward.

He was tired. He just... Every part of him was so depleted. Despite the mental numbess he still felt some of the nausea and light headedness. He couldn't really focus on the way the room swayed, nor did he notice when his vision started to darken.

Barnacles heart just about lept out of his chest when his friends weight hit him like a sack of potatos.

Kwazii... didn't wake up for a while. Peso explained it as exhaustion, the pain evident in his voice. He tried to soothe Barnacles worries, before the Captain could even express them but... He saw the way Barnacles eyes lingered on Kwazii's chest... rising up and down slowly. As if he was scared if he looked away he'd stop breathing all together. How Kwazii had managed to function at all (much less hide it) was beyond him.And that was with Peso having experience hiding his own poor wellbeing at times.

In the coming days Kwazii still didn't talk... Just... silently agreed to everything. It wasn't like him. He also kept clinging onto whoever was with him. Literally, holding onto their wide or arm, claws gently clinging onto their clothes.

Like a scared little kit.

It took a while for him to be more aware and talk again. He came back to himself slowly over days. But let's just say it was a very awkward wait until they could talk to him about... everything.

Either he refused to tell them or he... just didn't remember. Either way, he's a bad fucking liar and now he has new rules amongst other things.

Too bad Barnacles refuses to accept the same help. I'm sure that won't backfire on him.

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Kwazii doesn't like the nightmares he's been having since the flashback.

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the last precure post got a surprising amount of likes so i might as well become even more niche. here’s nijee as all knowing and all agony from milgram (context below)

all i know is they do ice skating and that there's two guys called Yuri and Victor and they're gay

Whisper, was mostly alone when she was litte due to her parents always busy with work. (kind of like honey in a way??) but, she would get to go all over the place around the world, (since her parents were always looking for a good job) and they landed at a place in amori (silver's home town!) thats when Whisper met Tangles although they lived different places they were still friends ever since! You already know she used to play the drums for a band called Stardust, but after they disbanded, she continued to find her own life. Then after a while (around when they were like 15??) Tangles offered her to stay at her apartment at tokyo (near station sqaure or something like that) and thev'e been together since then. Whisper also now works as a coach, and is Creames coach in karate, with Espio to also come and visit and be there guide!

Tangles parents are actually acorbats, so they also don't stay with them that much, but Tangles loved them anyways. She would make her own little street perfomances, and dance and try magic tricks for Jewel! She was always the more excited, and free-spirited one of the group, and just like that she would kind of get money from just doing that. She would do little perfomances around station sqaure, Green hill park, at her school, and amori too and thats where she met Whisper! After that she just started trying out new jobs, like at a restraunt, baby sitting, moeing lawns, and landed on the job of just being a gymnist.

Jewel grew up with strict parents, her dad was an lawyer and her mom was an employee to a bussines, it was mostly like a normal family at least. Jewel just goes to school, like the perfect child like her parants wanted her to be, but thats not what she wanted, she wanted there true love and support to what she actually wanted to do or be. But sometimes at her walks back home or to school, she would meet up with Tangles, and soon meet Whisper and they were great group! When she was older, she moved and got a job for a magaizine bussines (silver and mephiles works there!) as the cio and she works iwth the money, and income of the bussines. She still visits Whisper and Tangles, and hangout.

I probably missed something but yeah :P

Also 1 more day left till the polls close it would defently help if you vote for lost world we need just around 47 more votes, every vote counts!! >:DD

-lost world

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