#archival content

It was too mean that I went out of my way to make a special event for the biggest clown bitch of YouTube Channels of all time. (At this point any community at this rate.) It was too mean that I made the effort to share all these receipts towards a petty crashout and be someone carrying around a prime example of how not to make a joke out of your career. It was definietly too mean to make the 24th of March the Anniversary of Flop Careers brought to you by yours truly. And it is certainly going to be too mean for the following series of unfortunate events that will be taking place here. But because of the tenacity, this can no longer be blamed, let alone, undeserved.

Because I never made something for my own well-being that is equivalent to such a feat. Something to remind myself that I too wasn't perfect. That I'm not leaving making somebody believe I was somebody who went in and out of this discourse with a flawless victory.

And that's what I want to start talking about.

This originally started as a retrospect of myself- a very overdue retrospect at that, and be the million dollar answer to where I've been, where I'm at, how it's going since then, and where I kind of just plan on doing or going after the settled dust.

Then, the entirety of what I would like to personally coin as the "Shadow Raven Manhattan Project" came into play, the epiphanies of the Fallout New Vegas Modding Community, and having a bunch of loony bins trying to call me a Common Woodlouse... This effectively became bigger than a retrospect. And originally, a scrapped and cancelled project. But thanks to Allout Monte, he actually made the choice for me to make this story a reality. The same way Shadow Raven made the choice for me to be yeeted out of the threshold of the alt-right pipeline and truly show what it is like to be free of it.

So let's talk.

The Career on the Clock

For people who don't know, I had an older socials that went by "Yeetus McJeetus." Now this fact will always remain true, but before I start breaking it down, one of the things I never considered was somebody else actually having that name.

I was looking around Tumblr one day to find out that there used to be somebody here in 2020 that took that same exact name and kinda existed for a bit until dipping entirely for reasons I'm unsure of.

Whether this was a freak coincidence or... something else I prefer to not think about for the time being, I should've clarified in my own words sooner if I knew about this that I'm an entirely different person. I actually didn't even know or expect that someone came up with "Yeetus McJeetus" on the spot, and now considering the history I lowkey kinda felt like I mogged this guy, and I feel sorry about that. In fact, before Tumblr I was looking at alternative options for blogs and I didn't have Tumblr on my mind until the end of 2024. Which now funny enough leads to my actual history before I came here.

I started out as Yeetus McJeetus on TikTok... Which from what I've learned from word of mouth after the beginning, that is something some members of the Tumblr Community are not super down on hearing about. At least personally to me. Which I do not blame you, considering the app history, discourses, sciences, psychologies and the sort on top of y'know... pain in general.

(and censorship, but we ain't gonna talk aboot that today.) (Not yet)

But I started roughly on about 2021-22 I believe, where I was just like everyone else and doing it for the meme. Because I actually started out originally believing that it kind of sucked. But I guess at some point, I didn't want to say it outright sucked without y'know, never even seeing the insides.

So I looked inside, and I started to not mind it all that much. In the interest of time I started to get my hands on an editing software and one day, I basically opted in to just make one or two videos on TikTok. At the end of it though, it all started with an intrusive thought until it lead to a short burst of fame and what it meant to be content creator. At least an uncanny one.

For the life of me, I could more than likely never be able explain to you on the why's or how's on how I made it as far as I did. For all I knew, that timeframe was a ha-ha funny moment that ended up getting much more attention than it deserved, and it did but also didn't help me understand content creation as a whole. On top of just being the beginning of a whole lot of other stuff taking place in the moment at that time.

Have I considered regretting such actions?

In a point of view looking at it as a "personal figure," no.

In a point of view looking at it as a "public figure," yes.

Now in the interest of time I did end up changing, and I did do other things to the side, even when it didn't do as well as before. Which eventually lead to a handful of other things that would also serve as personal lessons to myself and something that'll be saved for much later and I'm actually covering in a sec. At the end of the day, lessons were learned, friends were made, communities were built burned & forgiven,(-ish,) and most importantly I had fun with it where mattered.

(Honestly, just for the case of the retrospect, and for funsies I should probably just bring that back up since well... quite a bit of it doesn't matter a whole lot. Especially with potential aftermaths, and what everything else'll mean going windward.)

As for the original TikTok, I decided it was time to put it down. Not only did it end up as being botched as this original channel, but I was basically holding on to something that came and went a long time ago that I felt like I was not ready to have back again on top of just finally understanding that I am not 100% the person the old channel represented me as today. With other aspects of it being an eyesore that I rather it be fossil remnants over anything at this point. And that's what I intend on doing carrying forward, that I wish others to leave this and the future chapters as such. But I doubt it'll stay that way. Which is part of the reason why I started hosting Archive Channels of my own to sort of alleviate that.

Do I still think about returning to form on eventual day? Every now and then, but with the knowledge that it was part of a bygone era I was grateful to be a part of. Even if a part of it was stupid, ridiculous... and probably embarrassing now that I'm here thinking about it. But there could always be worse ways I suppose. And par for the course.

I'd wish there'd be a scenario in a lifetime like this where I would tell you my wish would be to treat everything as such, that I'd rather keep that buried in the hopes that the new me now- whatever I become on zero hour, is the one and only that wants nothing but entertainment and goodwill going forward.

However, I also know that this will never happen.

So just for the shit of it, I turned it into an Archive Channel where you can see everything. Because who knows who'll get that same idea, right Monte?

The life and death of a franchise relationship

Long before TikTok, and some of the stuff I've made content on in the past, one of my beloved franchise was Call of Duty...

Which I imagine this isn't a statement that'll be regarded as highly by many once upon a time, now an open season for people to get clowned on for reasons I'm more than open to cover in the next few paragraphs.

Everyone knows it, everyone talks it, so I'm not going to bore you with the basics you have heard time and time again. And to some degrees I was someone who believed that the 2000's Modern Warfare Trilogy, and the Black Ops "Trilogy," was the highlight of an empire taken away too soon.

Which normally I would be swearing up and down the Memory Lane explaining all of that to you, but by now, every other YouTuber or Creator who would do this for money over "awareness" has already done that, and broken records are broken records. And after what happened, I don't really have those regards, or wish to think about those regards considering the future.

That didn't end there though, there was a point of time- I'd say around the time of Advanced Warfare, where I noticed that something was wrong. And unfortunately, my reasonings for why I was feeling something was incorrect, but somehow right, yet was not the proper same reasons why I am talking about this now. But at that time my "solution" to this was lightly and politely put the franchise down, step out a bit and let them have this "phase" that there were having at the time, come back, and on paper, there's a chance it would've been back as the holly-jolly CoD that I know and I can dismiss the Advanced Warfare - BO3 era as something a little goofy, a social experiment that wasn't social experimenting. Kind of the same way it happened when Capcom made Resident Evil 6 to be honest, and then bounce back and pull an insane clutch by making 7.

Never to say I hated some if not all of those experiences.

Advanced Warfare was indeed Sledgehammer Games' first iteration of this momentum swing "multiverse" that was coming together in an odd but appealing way that made me have a sense of respect towards the entire franchise model. Which might've as well been a good bit of this feeling like an extent of subtle foreshadowing that I should've paid attention to from zero hour.

Black Ops 3 took the highlights of some of their best narrative experiences to make a sort of moc Ghost in the Shell type story in a world I was more than inclined to tell myself that this was just a sort of "Elseworld Epilogue" to a mini-trilogy that I already believed was amazing enough as is and honestly did not think much more should be added to it. Albiet, it was certainly a experience to behold in their own respects.

The bitter reality now, was that I should have stuck with that era until the end knowing that it would be the last few titles to enjoy it while it lasts.

Because Modern Warfare 2019 dropped. And that was where shit hit the fan. Something was tragically wrong now. And instead of walking out when I had the chance, I minded my own business, and carried on with assumptions I should have never had in the first place. That I might as well have called my first sets of recorded cope. It wasn't until the time of Treyarch's Black Ops: Cold War came about where I spent the entirety of that life cycle learning how the sausage was truly made during that time. And when I did, I would not say the reactions were "comfy" now.

Which I'm not going to bore you with the in-depth detailings and the sort, I'm just going to speedrun the entire jist of what happened that made the entire franchise hated the way that it is:

So around Modern Warfare 2019 - BO:CW, there came along a sort of system in set on their online multiplayer experiences- which on paper and on face value, was something that did not sound as bad. To some degrees, it'd work how it would intend to work, and on first glance sounded, looked, and felt like every other day in a multiplayer space like CoD.

However. Two factors came into play to put two and two together to paint the picture that was already in place in pieces and in plain sight that stayed that way on vicious prayers that nobody is to be smart enough to find it for one of these factors:

The publishing company

and

Reading the fine print.

The first factor is a no brainer, and that is the publishing company Activision.

If you want to know in a extremely in-depth perspective that has a depth that's much more than you deserve to know, you have two options and- let's say twenty or so second timer in this:

Type in "Activision Lawsuit"

Or go here

Twenty or so seconds later me here- hey, hi. How you doing? Everyone feelin' fine after that road trip?

All morbid jokes aside, about roughly four years ago, Activision Blizzard would go down as the most egregiously scummiest publishing company known to man. Now is it the definitive worst? Definitely not. There's still plenty of space and time here for the next set of people to take that mantle one way or another. But you'd definitely imagine that they would be the undefeated champion of this.

SA case, after SA case, alongside horror stories and literal stories of hell coming out of them. Enough to basically scare away anyone and anything especially with someone who once had high affinities for such a company.

What started as a twenty odd-some years of being able to provide content to many consumers worldwide-ish got bulldozed into oblivion in just three by outting themselves as one of the most abusive companies if not the greediest.

On to the second, and another Segway into the topic, fine print.

Basically Activision thought it would be funny to use what once started out like a mundane, sometimes inconsistent, yet reasonable system to rig the literal multiplayer space for the sake of gaslighting people into getting more bundles and avoid working on the game for the other sake of pretending to be Fortnite. They even went as far as to gaslight an egregious amount of times in the hopes that people are too brain-rotted enough to forget about the affair entirely. Among other things that Fooly would have bountiful field days with.

I had the entire knowledge now that Activision was proactively trying to turn my entire comfort franchise into a literal scam, a empty shell that was filled with nothing but money thefts, eventually pay to win, and everything in-between. Saying that I was not a happy camper at that time would be an understatement of the century, and the times when Activision spent some of said time outting themselves as unregistered sex offenders didn't do any justices either, and gave the whole ammunition that I needed at that time and forevermore.

Now the good news was that I thought for the ninety percent of the time doing this in a emotion viscously indescribable by myself even, I thought I was doing fine with it.

The bad news was that this basically became an proper introduction into something I had a degree of knowledge on, but didn't have real proper experience of until that day and some other events moving forward. Which is to be saved after this section.

But in the end, the entire string of events basically made me quit and abandon the entire franchise for good, never to return again, and leaving everyone and everything into a demise I hope and pray nobody else has to be the witness, researcher, and/or participant of.

There was a point in time where recently with my new XBox One and Gamepass I had an entire idea to do an addon retrospect on myself and the relationship with the franchise by trying out MW19 Part 3 and BO6 after some time. Admittedly, it was kind of elaborate if not convoluted, but considering the amount of time and history- alongside taking some of Penguinz0 advice on the accounts of hating things, I thought it would be worthwhile to try. Several days, (One week at laziest, one and probably 3/4 of a week at most locked in,) two games, a lovely game of catchup. What can go wrong?

I did not last 5 days.

To this day, nothing has changed my outlook on this franchise.

*(This short conclusion is not for any proper reasons, or segways, or jokes, or anything alonge the lines of that. It was that trash of an experience that even my Xbox did not want to have as a memoir. So there goes that plan, and Microsoft saving my ass. Sort of. Thanks, I guess.)

Now, bitter truth, I was never sorry for ever calling any of these things out, I still think that Call of Duty is the worst "experience" you can get in the gaming market, I think it certainly is an absolute disgrace that this was how the entire franchise put themselves down under all because of Fortnite being the more popular at the time, (it could also be a myriad for a lot of things, but just like each and every complaint about Tik Tok, a lot of what it is now stems from Fortnite- be it monetization or akin) and unfortunately I also considerably believe that no matter how many artists, cosplayers, content creators, and the sort you "cordially invite" into that community, no amount of softcore palette cleansers is going to change the outlook CoD portrays now- at least as long as Activision has something to say about it or the prison-like community of their own creation that can be kept together by gaslighting and mental abuse.

Personally, I even doubt that it would even if they're gone. But I do feel that I was a little too aggro on the matter. Again, this was coming out of someone who got around to CoD 3, 4 & W@W when I was about like 10-14, who took a break for one arc and came back to see that it all turned into a dumpster bonfire fueled by dogshit. And everything in-between. Of course, you would make it your goal to report, warn, and even get everybody to look behind the curtain, and the truth was that the community was either too stockholm'd to take note of that, or the people sensible enough to stay there were basically tunnel visioning to avoid something that probably should've never been ignored in the first place. Which is their right to, however, that is why the egregious amount of commentary slop channels with the "corpo greed" yap sessions exists to this day.

So the best course at that time was to just walk away and abandon both franchise and community, which I did. And I don't regret that. This lack of regret also extends to the my coverage of the whole thing, although- again, the one thing that I guess would be a bit of self-criticism apart from being a soft-complaint was that I was to aggro with it as previously mentioned.

But at the same extent and degree, +15 years worth of memories trust and credibility all reduced to atoms in just about six years. All under one clause that felt like was easily avoidable. That probably feels like something that would be impossible to avoid in some extents. Could be wrong, but it's still the truth I'm willing to open up on.

You're probably wondering why this part of the arc is getting thrown out in the open for this section of the retrospect, and that's kind of where this next part comes into play.

McJeetus and the Anti-Woke Brainrot

Anti-Woke Losers.

Everybody loves to ratio them, nobody wants to make the effort to find anything redeemable about them.

This was something I had some knowledge of previously I've mentioned before, but said knowledge was in the mind of someone not wanting to do anything with it. And regrettably, it kinda was gonna be short-lived. There was a point in time where there arguments were tolerable. Not agreeable. Not understandable. Tolerable. I always saw them as people who had arguments that sound like they had reason but were always clouded by gooner infused hate boners or something akin. Like they want to say something but what's coming out of them is basically shit that feels a little too scary to dissect. So the best course of action was to just let them be and have them figure out for themselves. And hypothetically... they would be able to form better arguments.

(let alone better sentences in hindsight)

As you can imagine, this did not help.

This actually made it worse, and not only that, this was basically one of the biggest hurdles that kind of help me made the dictation that the comminuty I tried to save- or at the very least, preserve, was far too gone for anyone to do anything about it. While being one of the bigger proponents to why giving up on them was the better idea.

Putting it simply, for every one pointer I tried to make calling something out, five different others will follow suit with the giant baseless label of "Woke" at the ready to slap on top of my words. Not only a recipe for disaster, but just this... bittersweet example of what I really was fighting for in the end. A part of it never really helped that the entire existence of the community lived and died off the idea that defending trashy business practices to the very end until you get a reward. With that reward being not only being more shitty business practices, but also winning even more stupid awards like overpriced bundles.

But this did not end with seeing the concept of inevitability through people's own creation of their self-contained prisons. It was truly the beginning of the true extent of the anti-woke sphere. The destruction, humility, severity... the taxing endgame of character and dignity just to slap on a label stolen, fabricated, and abused by a very loud but obnoxious few.

And how easy it was to fall for such a thing.

In full acceptance, this ended up being my first true lesson in the participated career. And one where, in a point in time, I believed I failed during that critical moment. Alongside a reality that's never shook off of me since then. It ended up breaking a few things apart while decimating a lot of faith I had in the tomorrow's that followed. Maybe to a degree, there isn't a whole lot to apologize for, especially considering that I walked a very thin like that showed such sides and truths as a witness only, but that's the thing...

I did not take such matters seriously, I had no idea how to handle such matters, and I did not understand the full extent of their outward destructive and self destructive tendencies.

I still let it happen, I still stared into the huskful abyss of this hole, and I still came to a point in time where I slipped and fell into it.

For a while after, there wasn't a lot of eventful things that happened. Apart from an overdue deserved fight that I had with a personal relative in my circle that had to take place. Myself entirely, would have to bear on this state of turmoil for a while. Lost, misguided, with bitter frustrations and a bleak outlook of something that originally started as wanting to be an eager creator.

(even bleaker now that by the time I'm writing this, we are in World War 3. Unfortunately, hopecore is not the name of the game as much as I originally wanted to start with)

Eventually, one of my conclusions that best fit the epilogue of my own was to just go. Where? Who knows. There wasn't a lot of people who were adamant on having me around. I felt like I was insufferable, and I had no idea who or what the hell my audience even was. Or where for that matter. Maybe the best way to wrap that up is to just ditch it since at this point, it didn't matter. What I thought was fun turned into annoyance and misfortune. That whatever I was on, and my own well-being was officially over for good. So on and so forth... you kind of get the idea.

Then, something changed. Rather, a face in the crowd that struck out to me. Some have considered it a devilish omen of annoyance and cringe, others a utterly insufferable inconvenience. To me, it was only the beginning of something out of line... but meaningful.

Shadow Raven Studios

Shadow. Raven. Studios.

Where must I begin?

At this point in time compared to everything everyone went through all at once, I might as well called out to the "He who must not be named" themselves. Opening a Pandora's Box- that even though had fizzled out it's use & destruction in a very short amount of time in a couple of months, has had shudders ran down through each and every individual who came and went encountering, conversating, and beefing with him.

This name may not sound like much today, but I've certainly made a lot of pointers to it, and finding much about it leads to moldy bread crumbs and empty spaces. Today is the day I fill that empty space with a little bit of forgotten history. And this time, not through anybody else eyes but my own.

So again. Who is Shadow Raven Studios.

Shadow Raven Studios was an unsavory individual who in which calling someone "unsavory" serves both as the most solemnest understatement but a bountiful description. Shadow Raven Studios, despite an Allout Monte being this sole reason, (which we will talk on later,) is the inexpungable contribution to the reason why the section of the Fallout New Vegas Modding Community I've mentioned previously in my past posts is what it is.

And that's the most polite statement I can make out of this.

In short without, he was the most insufferable bitch-baby I ever had the honorable dishonor of associating a discourse with.

Now, Shadow Raven Studios was inherently an Anti-Woke goober. With a vendetta for quite a handful of things, starting with his Nexus Mods feud. And the only good thing about such a feat was that it did not take a student with a struggling degree in media literacy to comprehend that at worst, but it also did not take a trash panda with a god tier status at spot the difference to get the hint at best. It was all over everything that you can and can't imagine. Just a malicious spewing of vitriol, blind hate, and unimaginable cringe with about as much direction as an earthworm in a thunderstorm.

If anything, Shadow Raven Studios was a pinnacle example of what not to do with Anti-Woke content. And it showed. Now you're probably wondering why such a face like Shadow Raven is in such a roster to begin with. And the reason is very funny as a warmup for what will be discussed later.

But, for a considerate amount of time after, Shadow Raven Studios would go on hate boner fueled tyraids over the matter once originally starting as a reasonable management of mod coverage and anti-woke turned into an egregious amount of anti-woke and a very significant amount of just getting lost in the sauce. And trust me, they were as uneventfully insufferable. He would proceed to be like this for an even more egregious amount of time until we get to this part of the ordeal. My introduction to him.

Once upon a dream, I was met with this special upload from Xanderhal's Channel. And originally wanting nothing to do with it, it'd come to no surprise that I thought this being another morbid joke. Especially when talking about a free project being in the works for a game that released 15 years ago. Especially about a mod that takes place in Hawaii where arguments about definitely don't sound like there was somebody a little bit interested in gentrifying the main narrative.

So naturally, as somebody who didn't want to add one more reason to invest into doomercore, I decided to dismiss the entire thing and pretend it didn't happen. Which probably wasn't the best option to do in the eyes of a concerned citizen, but it was something I did nonetheless. It wasn't after several different people decided to add additional coverage on it that I chose to change my mind and see for myself.

And it ended just as how you expected on the first watch.

I even shared it with a mutual of mine who just had a laugh or two at how much of a complete buffoon this guy was making himself. (Hindsight-wise, she also talked about this being an example of how unhinged the New Vegas Community was, and long story short, I also should have taken her statement seriously.) Bottom line though, not only just as I was expecting, but also an entirely new definition of cringe entering the already decimated braincells I lost setting eyes on the videos. Even after watching a prominent debate, even some more debates... and you're probably getting the picture by now.

Mainly everything involved a good bit of weeks worth of getting drawn, quartered & ratio'd in a fashion that I would probably say "gracefully" yet whatever graceful was defined to the confinements of Anti-Woke Cringe.

Effectively though, the long and short of it was that Shadow Raven Studios was told by a specific individual that there were "shady things" going on with a upcoming mod project called Fallout: Ashfall, and around the first few weeks or so was chalked down to rallying up a bigger hate group to go on out there and harass an entire dev team but specifically the lead dev in the world's weirdest elaborate effort to take the "woke out the bread." This involved writing up fuckshit narratives like the lead dev being bisexual and trans- despite the most pathetically hilarious irony that he was either a straight and [probably] white dude, and not forgetting the bare necessities, narratives that you would expect in an anti-woke space when they stare at a trans person once and fucking dies, and of course narratives that go down on rabbit hole debates on whether or not the fabricators of these narratives are in the closet themselves- like an "infamous treasure hunt" for a sex toy made of Nazi gold. And in the offchance that anyone questioned it (which was indefinitely almost everybody) take every single little thing regarding the matter from zero to rape allegations with no further questions asked to avoid the subject.

And it turned out that the reasonings and the entire elaboration of the hate group and these defamation quotes was baseless accusations and baseless loony accusations over loonier reasonings coming soon.

For a while as the discourse continued and devolved, I intended to stay out of it for as long as I could, partly due to the fact of having no say in it as one. Not because I didn't have anything to say, simply because putting that time and energy into listening to negotiations from a echo-chamber was a waste of damn time. Primarily, I was expecting it to end. Didn't matter how, the noises that's more insanity inducing than a rat filled rubber room just had to shut up one way or another. And it did in a way that I never considered was a possibility for it to do so the way that it happened.

On August 24, of 2024- after failing two to three separate debates by one or two people, Shadow Raven Studios- without reason, unprovoked, and god knows why or how, managed to upload a YouTube video. What was that video called?

"SexyGirlHentaiVid27.MOV"

This goofy goober decided to outright upload porn on a public site. And as you can bet, this was something that when such news broke out to the public was a field day in a half. Yet, a field day that was lost way too soon. Immediately after uploading this video was reported and removed by YouTube with such a swiftness that was too fast for anyone or anything including myself to have captured this. Which is pretty fucking ironic with the state YouTube is in now. The day after, on the 25th, Shadow Raven Studios would proceed to delete his channel. And the rest was history. Yet it was a history that cemented a lot of his dead career.

Shadow Raven's yap schpeels went down the path of the tried and true ol' reliable of Anti-Woke Cringe: the "Protect the Kids" smoke and mirrors. One, which here means, that the fight against the supposed wokeness is in the intentions, hopes, and aspirations of protecting the kids and minors of the community that this "wokeness" is trying to destroy.

When in reality this was about finding excuses to ignore the refusal of change and sometimes ego drives. While also putting said kids in danger along the way by proceeding to fill every bulliten board with every death threat, dox threat, SWATing threat, and every kind of threat to anyone and anything including individuals who are exactly under the age of 18. Which is what ended up happing in this case when Shadow Raven Studios continuously failed against the like of Moment of Sanity's Friend Circle who had the most coverage on the ordeal. The worst attempts at double entendre wasn't the only thing though it was the video themselves that was the case.

The "SexyGirlHentaiVid27.MOV," though only seen by a very select few people during it's existence, had more suggested evidence of this morbid hypocrisy.

One was that the video had contained his... "commentary."

Another, and the one dead on the nose one, was that the video contained lolicon and lolicon centered content.

Combine that with this Protect the Kids hypocrisy, and you can see how much of his entire grift and campaign backfired so hard on top of even the most skeptical of us to believe this to be fact. Which in hindsight, it wasn't entirely the best thing to do, but considering the theories and the sorts going around, especially accounting for the anti-woke stupidity, it wouldn't be so hard to understand why it was that easy to come to the firm yet confident conclusion that Shadow Raven Studios was indeed... somebody into kids. However, in due time, this quelled and despite the many spitballing of ideas, concepts and insistances of the existence of this had to be deemed as lost media that god forbid anyone tries to look for.

Now after these sets of events took place, luckily, (and unluckily if you're looking at it that way,) there was a Shadow Raven Studios Archive Channel at the ready keeping the collection of his failures in one channel built for (sometimes) educational purposes. And for a few days around September, things seemed to be at peace, at rest. Certainly there were a few goobers on the front trying to defend SRS, in which to some of those people were once believed to be outliars and freak coincidences, but a first bit of silence for the first time in a long while.

But this is the part where I said I spoke too soon on that front.

But before I continue on that, there was something about this bit of news that came to light to me and probably a little meaningful thanks to a handful of retrospects that came to light. From the yours truly that we will be talking about in a moment, the hindsight kicked in that this was the most fuckass event to be plausible to exist. And the more plausible case turned out that in one of the posts Shadow Raven made a post a "Stalker" in question made a comment there, and flagged him for community guideline violations that did not go through on top of another event of one of his videos and/or posts being taken down for actual guideline violations. And I suppose that was his cue to dip and abandon his theoretical source of income for good.

Which is something I would want to say if it all added up flawlessly.

But, as much as I want to believe that, I genuinely do believe that he was actually stupid enough to do it. Even if it wasn't lolicon content. Especially since the initial core memory taking place, everything after feels like this had been the world's worst crash course experience of seeing Shadow Raven Studios as the world's most braindead liar I've ever seen.

One example is basically how he wants us to believe that this fuckass goober has a wife and child, an actual family with the unrealistic expectation that they actually love him. And don't take that first sentence as a form of malicious inconsideration, we've given him a polite benefit of a doubt. In fact to many times in the span of about two-three months since day one of this claim, and thanks to other discourses tied to him, had to be forced to believe in some shape or form by default for the sake that he was actually trying to do something useful for once regarding the events in question was indeed true.

In hindsight, he never talks about them. He brought it up once, kept going with the potential "facade" for almost weeks on end, and never says a single word about them beyond that, never provided any additional evidence about his "family," and has never provided or indicated any solid evidence that he either loved his family or ever had one to begin with, even seeming to want to force this ideal down peoples' throats with the hope and intention that they'd forget what the actual discussion was. (which at the time in this case is whether or not he uploaded lolicon content) It's almost like that jaydaddy- actually no, fuck it, I'll just link the bit here. But the bottom-line was that despite our various efforts and best interests, regardless if whether or not we wanted the bare minimum of knowledge or roughly full knowledge condensed to a need to know basis out of reluctant sympathies Shadow Raven Studios still would never bring anything up considering the potential of what other Anti-Woke losers would think if he took advice from someone who originally was a closeted trans person.

Anyways, if it were to be the actual case, it'd be pretty fucking weird and a little bit of a damper to the sob story to be sexually attracted to AI generated women... when you're married. Especially to something of flesh and blood and not binary and pixels.

Regardless, this doesn't just stick to Shadow Raven's demeanor, this also applies to his "associates" we'll be talking about soon- one of them who would hilariously qualify for a lawyer (kinda) if he wasn't doing this shit, who actually end up acknowledging the existence of this event, and not only the existence of this event, but also be the type of people that would outwardly support this event taking place.

This also doesn't really help the case when the only people who are effectively trying to shove the idea that he isn't a pedo down people's throats are the same exact people in his hate group that'd also throw him under the bus, especially when there were times and events where we tried to believe him for a fraction of a second somehow that isn't enough and they still have to force it as if it is holy scripture, behaving similarly, or as if he actually is one and they have to rewrite it by... forcing it on the already written pages.

While also outting themselves as potential pedos... themselves.

Anywho, those few days would follow up with a very bitter-salty return of Shadow Raven Studios and what would later be discovered as his hate group of the infamous *CUM Gang.

*(Confederacy of United Modders) (I still never understood why they ever fecking called themselves that.)

And like any anti-woke goober on a return, you'd imagine that this would involve maybe continued empty threats, more slop, maybe even an over the top return video demanding justice and deaths of those that wronged them.

Nope. Copyright abuse.

Instead of what would be an addition of the usual, Shadow Raven Studios and his group would proceed to abuse YouTube's poorly mismanaged copyright and copyright strikedown systems to shut down the entire Archive and purge the evidence of his existence and receipts.

Normally, this would've been an "oh well" thing. As inconsiderate as it sounded. For a discourse that's as dull as it felt. But then again, inconsideration was something that felt like a thing of a new fad. Maybe other meaner emotions that certainly felt like something that is common for people who have come to a conclusion that life and misfortune has always been the same two synonymous predominate things, where meaning was never meant to be found through it to begin with. But that didn't happen.

Instead another thing began to settle in. Maybe it was thanks to watching a few communities getting mopped not by critique, but by an mysterious, non-existent, and asinine thing to be calling a boogeyman. Maybe it was a part of the reality I was in as a person myself. Maybe it was thanks to the works of an album from an 50-odd-some year old rapper who managed to put an entire retrospect on himself in a concept album that put it all together. (among a handful of others moving on some really scary shit those days.) Or at the end of the day, it was part of a bittersweet, yet painful realization that I no longer had anything to lose. Certainly, it was a part of what once considered something else, indefinitely defined as a proper crash out coming out of me. However I spun it, all I knew was that it started out as a thorn on the side, that no matter how many times some can, will, and would have tried to either downplay it or frame it as inevitable thing, the fact of the matter still stood...

Abuse of United States Law, is still abuse of United States Fucking Law.

It doesn't matter whether or not ownership is part of the debate, nor does profits (God forbid) matter in this case despite the only thing valuable in this situation being information. Regardless of citizenship, you still went out of your way to abuse American Laws and properties to destroy potential evidence (if this were to be a solid case by any concerned citizen who would care for the matter) and reminders of what you are and what you're willing to do to hide it. While also just adding more to the pile on-top of whatever is left, as you believed it to be by the time they were purged.

And that's all it took for the rest of this retrospect to take place. Everything after is the reason why I stayed silent for as long as I did. What I'm willing to be able to announce on this new one year anniversary. And make everything about this retrospect... complicated. Yet, everything needed to complete an anniversary of a cycle being broken.

What needs to be known

I am Shadow Raven Studios Archive Channel Number 3.

Well, Archive Channel Number 2 had 1 decided not to pursue the case any further.

I am also Shadow Raven Studios Archive Channel 4.

5.

6.

7.

8.

And 9.

"McJeetus. What a preposterous thing."

"How can you be seven different people at once managing Archive Chanels?"

"You'll get caught in it soon enough."

"How can you even prove it to the general public that such a thing was possible?"

"There's no way that one man is capable of putting together a legion of archive channels with anybody noticing-"

This was taken on the 30th of September of 2024.

Three days before Shadow Raven Studios would take that third strike on me.

I would later pass this on into a different burner email that ended up being defunct after. Traveller115 would be my new main channel, McJeetus.Appalachia, as Yeetus McJeetus is deemed as terminated thanks to SRS. But I'm getting ahead of myself again. Still at the end of the day, my archival proof of my feats.

I was the one that picked up where the original Archive One left off, and managed to collect almost each and every one of Shadow Raven's videos.

I was the one that managed to be the only person that possessed the last cope video. The one where he got busted in an sting operation by Stelle? That was me who managed to save that and then redistribute it for it to exist again.

I was the one that inadvertently made an infinite evidence glitch providing more examples and testaments to Shadow Raven's declining sanity.

And I was the one that managed to keep all of the documentation live as long as he made it.

You probably have a lot of questions about this matter, maybe how this came into play in the first place. And unlike Mr. Monte, who likes to fabricate each and every bit of his story to bend to his will and make him the good guy and pretend that the mask didn't shatter in several thousands shards of disappointment. I'd be more than glad to talk about the marvelous misadventures of McJeetus and the loony bin that inadvertently saved my dumbass from not being in the same grave as Shadow Raven Studios.

Now, admittedly, on the first few days: I didn't think a whole lot on the matter of doing.

I just uploaded on a fake email on a blank channel and called it a certified day. Now, of course, I did consider his immediate actions on the matter, so in that inevitable offchance, I made another that housed a few different channels ready to serve as replacements. All I knew was that during such a time, I accumulated my own collection of Raven's videos with what was left of Archive 1's ordeal before strike three. And regardless of what comes next, I will be using the collection to make sure it stays as live as possible.

All was quaint for another additional few days until out of the blue, another stroke of my good deeds came to fruition. When one comment sat on the third video I would upload later into the timeline. Left by one Moment of Sanity. Who, managed to stumble upon the third of Shadow Raven's Ashfall videos and managed to snag a copy of their own. I thought nothing of this, but did appreciate that I did manage to assist somebody else in this matter. Until some time after, they would host a livestream where they shared it and marked it as the lost cope video of Shadow Raven Studios. I knew very little of the concept that I was theoretically the only person who possessed this video. Making it nearly the last of its kind. That also no longer became the last of its kind due to distribution.

On top of Sanity's new discovery came along the next big thing. Shadow Raven Studios would proceed to unlawfully strike it down. While discovering one of my channels for the first time. This was where Shadow Raven's first fatal mistake came into play dealing with me. You see, during that first and second strike, Shadow Raven had the audacity to proudly link his official Shadow Raven email to those strikes.

There have been many who considered taking the debate route, but time after time again, like trying to politely- yet firmly, reason with him that they're in the wrong, has gone to no avail. Shadow Raven Studios did not sound or feel like anyone open to change. Nor did he have any concept of what that meant at the time.

If, (God forbid,) any part of his videos didn't indicate that, having a three or so minute sit down with him will. When I say insufferable, I definitely mean insufferable was Shadow Raven Studios. And taken into consideration of such matters, I did not come to talk down and to broken records. I wanted them to shut the fuck up.

And that's what happened.

This inavertedly put me in close contact with Shadow Raven Studios and top priority of targets on his shit list all on the sole concept that I yoinked all of his videos for myself to keep. Do not believe me?

Here is an example:

This back and forth would go on for a considerable amount of time, Shadow Raven Studios would slip up and add another piece of telltale evidence on the table, I would pass it on to the circle. And as Sanity had said time and time again. All of it, out of my own volition. I obviously wanted as many receipts as I can get out of Shadow Raven, and because I was deep enough to drag myself through hell and back to get it, and was somebody who was painfully qualified for the job, of course I wouldn't intend on keeping it to myself.

That would've made 80-90% of my endeavors pointless. To a degree.

Everything in-between that is kind of what it is, essentially bantering and evidence gathering bantering. Even including evidence that the bird is not above doxing when things don't go their way, or a silly little shadow clone channel doesn't heed to somebody not wanting to come to terms with what they've done. However, this is where the fun really began. because in the inevitable end, Shadow Raven Studios would use strike three, on Archive Three, on the third of October 2024. An official day, on an official anniversary.

Why call it an anniversary? Shadow Raven Studios Archive Channel Number 3 was the one and only Archive Channel tied to my own email that I originally personally used now defunct as I made replacements and "contingencies." The way I ended up knowing this is because eventually, I would learn that at best- one or two days after this matter, when I found it very peculiar that I wasn't able to watch San's Stream as myself and not the Archives, alongside the fact that I was only able to do so with my other and semi-personal channels. I would decide to see what was going on the following night only to see that alongside YouTube's Email that Archive 3 was terminated, an additional Email form YouTube saying that because I was associated with the Archive Channel in question, they could not trust Yeetus McJeetus to hang about any further, thus, the termination of Yeetus McJeetus had to be enacted.

I didn't think much of it for the first while, for all I knew, it was one less inconvenience and one less annoyance. I mainly didn't have a whole lot to do about that channel mainly because in the grander scheme of things, it was certainly a very minute thing to lose. Again, there wasn't a whole lot to, I wasn't as loosely widespread as my Tik Tok counterpart, and no expectations to gain apart from awareness, most importantly it was already part of the plan to restart with a fresh slate. I just had some of the annoying parts taken care of for me. But in the frustrations of sorting it out, two things wounded up being realized.

One is that, again, Shadow Raven Studios destroyed the only piece of evidence that tied all the Archive Channels to me. I said I had a lot of his videos, and eventually before, I had the opportunity to laugh at him publicly with one singular video that never did much but an honest work and a misfortune sticking out like a sore thumb. If Shadow Raven was to be capable of any kind of investigative abilities, let alone anything that involves having a comprehension on things, he would've figured that in some shape or form I had something to do with this and the next best course of action would be to undergo an egregious interrogation session because you just so had one piece of the puzzle that is so loosely tied that even if the set of unfortunate events didn't happen you probably wouldn't have ever figured it out in the first place. And because I was incapable of a direct scenario, all of this definitely would've been over sooner.

Two is something I've considered a... metaphorical lesson. If it wasn't clear enough, I had a fair bit of strife and tribulations with coming to terms on everything I have put down on this board so far. Obviously, I had a negative outlook, a misfortunate predicament, a darker future. Only to come to terms that all of this stemmed from holding on to what I was and what I wanted to go back to being that probably wasn't even healthy to begin with. All I needed to do was let it go and start anew. Shadow Raven Studios effectively made that choice for me on top of making it much more viable by destroying one piece of it. In some sense, baiting Shadow Raven to destroy the Archive Channel was an opportunity to be something new. I knew now what I did wrong and what I originally thought I was never capable of, and gave myself an opportunity to take all that I was given and go a second round. And that's what I did.

This is also worth mentioning since I'm here and it's going to be brought up later, but in-between the next section and here, Shadow Raven Studios decided that during one of his striking attempts to take down the channel, he decided to put his real name in one of them after publicly sending me his email address for me to dispute. Which I believe was around strike 2-3.

His name? Mike Crandall.

To this day, I still have a heavy conflicted set of feelings over whether or not I was beefing with a literal dude who's name was built like that.

The events after are more of the same, not only did others pick and pull at the disastrous shortcomings of Shadow Raven Studios, but all that we've made the observations of came to fruition. Shadow Raven Studios would attempt to make lawsuit after lawsuit threats on the paper thin theory that Archival is theft and each and every one of those records up and live about him was deemed as harassment... while it just stayed being documentation, stating facts, and obviously giving everyone a glimpse of what not to do in a clown show. While actively contributing to the show to the end. And of course making these legal threats and lawsuits upon individuals who legally identify as children. People under 17- maybe even 16 and roughly under. Not even that, these same exact individuals under this age range where they happened to be mature enough to look at somebody as psychopathically deranged as Micheal Crandall and come to the conclusion that Micheal Crandall is psychopathically deranged and that the goober needed serious help. Yet Micheal saw this and let his conflicts of interest have at it until the logical conclusion ended up being calling these underage individuals pedos and groomer apologists...

And this is probably worth mentioning to now that we're here, that Shadow Raven Studios was an advocate of sharing about everything. Basically at the end of most of his videos on top of very obvious segments, Shadow Raven Studios would basically endorse and encourage the idea of people sharing the content on top of liking it. So to a comedic degree, it's another layer of cringeful hypocrisy because anyone and anything apparently can like and share the videos you endorsed them to exactly do verbatim but if they got an "Archive" in their name somewhere, and the purpose is to either be educational or keep a collection for anyone (god forbid) interested in watching them, that's theft. And sure maybe to a degree some can look at this and play with the idea that it's a form of figure of speech or something similar. But when it comes to hate campaigns, those aren't the kinds of things to not half-ass on saying with even a quarter of chest to take any portion of you seriously. In case there was anything anywhere within you that compells you to think, "yea a good degree of this is harassment."

(but then again, you probably wouldn't care less for someone as much of a clown bitch as Shadow Raven apart from the next big thing to laugh at him for.)

Apart from this tangent, there was a point in time where Shadow Raven Studios made the conclusion to abandon YouTube and go to another streaming service where you can be one restraining order away to win a sponsorship, Rumble. Which is funny in our own consideration because Shadow Raven Studios effectively abandoned a thousand of his followers for 76 dunderheads whose only two words they know is "woke" & "child endangerment." Especially when Crandall was capable of obtaining YouTube's Ad Revenue. Meaning that one of the potential ending routes for Mr. Crandall was to effectively admit the wrongs, carry on with his Anti-Woke Cringe, leave everyone alone, and everything can be roughly as was before day one. In fact, not many of us wanted him to quit this Anti-Woke Goober route as much as we wanted him to openly admit that at the end of the day, he decided to throw hands in a match he had no chances of winning at in the first place.

Yet he still decided to send death threats to children and lost everything for it.

This also did not bode as a lot of what kind of banished Shadow Raven Studios from YouTube in the first place "followed" with him, and that's not even mentioning his "attempts" if they can ever be identified as such. Also not including the second best field day I had collecting a significant portion of his videos almost completing the entire series some originally deemed lost for good. As a user in Rumble trying to cover up why everyone hated him in the first place, Shadow Raven originally started with kind of tap dancing around and avoiding the subject, not even elaborating on the whys apart from the need to know basis and not how he got banned for uploading alleged lolicon smut. Or how this started with him to begin with. Or how he trusted people who can and will just outright throw him under the bus and that was the ticking time bomb waiting to hit zero. Really, it's a literal fustercluck if you wanted to skip formalities.

Shadow Raven Studios would end up taking some bit of interest on the discourse after, because again, his videos were still being redistributed, plus outsiders looking in to the matter were coming to the similar conclusions myself and the unlucky few were coming to, and Mr. Crandall started to make "Podcasts" that would've started with what essentially was again tap dancing and avoiding the subject. That's not even mentioning this malding hate boner Crandall had for Sanity simply because they thought it funny, worthwhile, although excessive, to drive further the point that anti-woke losers like Mike Crandall were the dumbest you can find on the market of anti-woke cringe. Among other things If you haven't figured it out yet, it was high tier trash. What his "Podcasts" effectively have done is give him more leeway and excuses to basically not talk about the entire thing in general.

Of course half of us were inclined to let the man speak, but because a lot of our "attacks" primarily consist of criticism and this is dumb as hell tidbits, Shadow Raven wasn't inclined to let us speak on the matter. And because of that, you can imagine how that went...

(Which is below)

And I'm going to just point this out since I'm here.

Second row, fourth column, across from Floof.

I originally came to do a quick archival, and maybe, maybe not kind of just end it right then and there and just tell everyone it was me... then I had one or two people outside my circles tell me personally that such a thing is stupid, and it would've been. So I mainly stuck to archiving the whole thing until I saw that Rynse already beat me to that punch and put it on an unlisted channel for viewing pleasures.

Later on, when somebody approached me to ask about some new details I had to contribute it, originally I did not. But when I was dartboarding some ideas and options alongside an intrusive thought search bar question, I did now.

The origins of cringe

This would lead me to the discovery of a hidden channel in an obscure website, and what is effectively, the only piece of evidence on Shadow Raven Studios existing as a socials channel. or at this point, in general, in the off-chance that you made it this far and came to the conclusion that I am a absolute loony telling this story- or any part of you wanting to say that it's fake. After the discovery of his long forgotten HideoutTV Channel would lead to a lot of pointers and eye opening things about Shadow Raven Studios. One of the big things was discovering the origin story of Mike Crandall's (Shadow Raven's or in this case of events, Dark Knight Gamer Mods's) god complex we've all been so familiar with. As far as the narrative and investigation went, Mike Crandall was at odds with a seemingly dead and defunct "grifting" group (ironic) who went by the name of Team Gamerfood.

Who unlike some of the people of my circle, had malicious intentions and went as far as to do an entire step up with the pedo allegations and made the accusation that there were some... things done to his "daughter" let's say.

(also kind of crazy to believe that this man ever had a daughter, but for the sake of respects, I was inclined to say that this may be a reality to a degree, until a recent discussion kind snapped me back to reality until earlier further considerations)

This discourse, had a painfully baffling ending where Mike Crandall finally took the audacity to dox a member of Team Gamerfood and called that a day. And congratulations, "fury of the gods" Crandall was born.

Problem? Nobody to this day ever knew whether or not this guy actually was a member of Team Gamerfood. For all intensive purposes at that time, anyone could've looked at the doxxed victim in question, and would more than likely taken a guess that it was just some random dude that he ended up doxxing. And for all anyone could care about during that time, and all that they were able to try and do some digging, had no indication whether or not this group is still active or not. Granted that some extent of it, it's still subject to change since some of the resources date to about a year, maybe even two-three years old, but the fact then still remains the same and outside input hasn't helped as much.

Another lore drop and the overall hilarity of the situation is the relationship and hate boner for nexus mods... that somehow escalated to illegal works. As mentioned before, he had a burning hate for Nexus Mods during that time, and despite varying gripes and tribulations about it- the matter of this feud between him and Nexus Mods can be best described as the most butchered easiest misunderstanding you can find.

You see, one of the main schpeels of Shadow Raven Studios was making mod showcases and the sort. Essentially, it kind of just started off relatively normal- or so you would believe, until there was one specific problem that had everything speaking otherwise. And hilariously enough a once active Nexus Mods User. (as you will learn momentarily.) Nexus Mods and their policies, has a very reasonably strict high ground especially when it involved +18 content and the "one clothes-tag away from a porno" nudity in general.

The very simplest way to break it down is just waving a bigass sign that says "No."

And taking a look at Shadow Raven's old content in HideoutTV, you can kind of see what transpired during this time and occasion provided here. Basically: he didn't bother to read the rules and as a result of that got banned for it alongside a nullified appeal to unban it that is akin to begging and bitching as if the entire situation never started on your own accord and marked down as an "abuse of power."

So what was his simple solution? Not only go on a hate-boner tyraid that'd last for nearly years on end over a fuckup in public decency, he would also go on to shill for a funny little website called DLCFun. And of course some others, but DLCFun is the funny focus here.

DLCFun is supposedly the antithesis of Nexus Mods, one you probably have heard from a hundred, even a thousand times over to some loyalists of Nexus Mods (myself included) or to people who have set their sights on another resource, but are still a fan of Nexus. So you're probably asking yourself why this is getting thrown into here in the first place.

Well, the good upside about DLCFun is that it is a modding site.

That's it. That's the only upside.

Because everything else about it is turbo-fucking-illegal.

You don't even have to take my word from it, people from my newfound circle had dug into this case and can tell you themselves exactly what would be wrong with the picture.

The short end of this is that DLCFun is a modding site that has a system in place that hilariously encourages people to steal mods and put them on DLCFun en-mass. For about a couple bucks or so for the sake of not dealing with the "wokeness" of Nexus Mods. This is also not hilariously mentioning the fact that a good portion of those mods in DLCFun were stolen from Nexus Mods themselves. And in the offchance that you're reading this and somehow want to believe that this is an oversight from Shadow Raven and his hate group, this below might alleviate that suspicion.

And no, GoodGuyDave is not Shadow Raven Studios, this is actually somebody else we will be talking about near the end this entire story. An associate of sorts with- well... you'll just see for yourself in a second.

Oh, and if stealing mods for money wasn't something that is worth you being convinced this is a place to stay the hell away from, it is also a Russian led server. Shadow Raven even tried to bullshit his way out of it even trying to be the smart alek and say that Modding is illegal in the first place only to have that shit blow up in his face when DLCFun is still seen as objectively illegal practice. Which is pretty onpar for a Canadian man who LARPs as an American invested into politics to shill for a Russian made resource and site.

Speaking of LARPing which is that other thing overlooked, comes to no surprise that Mr. Crandall is not even an American at all. In fact, some have even pointed out that he was a Canadian man either perma-resident, or former American who probably can't enter the US anymore and just reformed himself into a Canadian. And we kinda dug deeper into that even dartboarding and spitballing the plausabilities of the where's. Which didn't get a whole lot of nowhere but the occasional "understandable" results.

This would also be roughly around the time Team Gamerfood and its existence was discovered and discussed briefly until some of us just wholeheartedly decided to just let it be. Which is also another trait about Mike Crandall himself, there's stuff about him that he'd say and nobody would ever know if it was ever real or not or if he even knew what he was talking about.

One very good prominent example, is his hate for Pride Month. There's only been a grand total of one time that he's mentioned that is so bareboned that nobody even bothered looking into it. If you want to know how bareboned, there was one Pride Month Parade he went.

That's it.

Not even what was in it, what was happening, what he did, what he saw, or where he was even at when it happened, or broadcasting or yap session, or any of that. (which given our guess sessions on where in Canada Crandall was in, would more than likely raise the possibility that none of that shit would've taken place... in the first place.)

But according to Mike Crandall's dementia ridden pea brain rot & mold, it happened, and now the gays and the theys must pay for what he has been scarred with for the rest of his life and endangering his potentially (non-existent) kids. And you can kind of surmise everything after if you've managed to stick around to this point.

The aftermath of pettiness

Now, we are getting to the near end of this entire thing, and as much as I wanted to wish that there has been some grandiose grand finale and history making "coupe de grace" between the "Archivists" and Shadow Raven Studios...

There wasn't. At least not anymore.

The long and short of it was basically stating the obvious:

Certainly, I made all these shadow archives, but this can only go for so far. And, well... everyone deemed it to be over. A lot have decided to just ditch and call it good. However, Shadow Raven still kept going, and to a degree went on for a little bit of softcore doxxing. Although the victim in question is very open about showing their face in the first place. Still, Crandall has friends fluent in AI Generated content, and if there's one thing that's more embittering than griftor cringe it's using AI to prove a point. So what I effectively did was personally learned from the Burner58... and sold it wayyyy too hard.

And this is the most hilarious part about the end of the entire thing. Because even if it didn't look like it, he still got me, running out of road and no signs of an end tunnel. Once 5 goes, everything else does. And despite everything as I've told him in a way that is as poetical as it feels, Micheal Crandall never heeded the words, let alone paid attention to them, and my own words on how the story ended came into fruition in one ludicrous form or another.

So, in a turn of events. I told him everything.

I told him everything disguised as a congratulations for finally "winning," also kinda lightly under the persona of what a Monte goon would look and sound like- not just to shoot the shit, but give the discourse one last funny moment before fading into irrelevancy.

And it was in a form of a three to four gigabyte email.

And I can tell exactly what was in there:

One written confession, where I said my name, told him that he was part of a social experiment this whole time, thanked him for said time and dishonorable, honorable service, and even sprinkled a little bit of petty shit of my own just to remind him that I already won since Day Zero, and how his obscurity will now be his only long loved partner until death do their part.

The other, was a 32-oddsome minute video that I basically lied to him about saying that it was a compilation of the "culprits of his downfall" being tricked into apologizing to Shadow Raven for the misdemeanors when in reality it was a single Tyler the Creator Track on repeat. For said 32-oddsome minutes.

(Tyler picked the weirdest fucking day to be the hater.)

(It was also the same day that I became a Tyler fan so... yea.)

This resulted in the now defeated Mike Crandall to basically make his retirement/I quit vid.

Originally, I intended to kind of do a brief coverage regarding it. But considering what I went through getting a daft cunt dumber than a fucking brick to shut the fuck up and just say mistakes are okay, I'm probably just going to leave it at that since as I've told him before: nobody was ever going to believe him anyways, and the botched virtue signaling showed. (if you want to see it)

That turned into the world's most short lived lie. But that's later.

The rest of what happened after is pretty self-explanatory. Shadow Raven Studios would leave forever seemingly and some of us were basically just stuck with the pieces. For a while, until we are reminded of the other "loyalists" (as ironic as that's going to sound in a moment) like SneedclaveAnon, the YouTube alts, and the sort. This story you know because this is where I properly publicly come in. That is where we come in with the documentaries, some interviews, helping other people out with making sure the knowledge stays alive, and of course, everything inbetween.

Where's Shadow Raven Studios at now?

Well, obviously fucking lying.

In a set of events, Shadow Raven Studios would proceed to come back as Zintek of the Anti-Myg0t Network- which despite the new set of events and dull cases, all it generally is at this point is the words of a dementia ridden madman with a misplaced and unchecked god complex that decayed faster than how he abandoned a thousand followers for 76 sea sponges of Rumble. Which is an unfortunate shame because, to a degree, there would've been some things & merits Michael Crandall would've been right on in the discourse between him and this defunct group had he the voice for it, only to have it shortlived through public doxxing that is still very unclear whether or not it was the actual target in question affected or just the world's worst case of criminal versus criminal.

By the time this gets posted, it would seem that Zintek is a dead and defunct account/persona. And Shadow Raven abandoned the internet for good. Although, chances are, this will also be shortlived again on depending circumstances. Alongside just an additional piece of history to go with it all. Maybe he will come back under a different name with the echochamber threats of lawsuits that'll backfire on him indefinitely. Probably also coming after me now that there's a chance that he'll see this. Maybe he'll have a high enough intelligence level to get the memo and just leave. Who knows.

To this day, Shadow Raven Studios made his entire history very certain while being uncertain. If that makes sense. A good chunk of it is certain in that Shadow Raven had rhyme and reason to do the things he did Pre-Ashfall, and he could've, would've won favors if he had a calm collected approach of the ordeal.

However, due to the egregious amount of blanks, some redactions, most improper archiving or misinputed or misinterpreted history, the well-being of Shadow Raven himself, the well-being of the Team Gamerfood fellow, and the weight it comes with the crime of doxxing, makes it very impossible to even dumb it down to a he said, they said in twenty words or less. It would be possible to do such things to alleviate the uncertainties, but without the history of his other, other past life Dark Knight Gamer Mods, the clearly troubling cognitive capabilities of both sides, the possibility of anticipating the impossibility of ever putting a resolve to this will almost always be a very high success rate.

Personally, I never hated him. There was a time I did. My anger during that time, was towards the words coming out of his mouth. Now, there's an anger that still resides. Not at his words anymore, but at his inconsistent and wavering beliefs in them. A deranged man, with nothing but dull and stale buzzwords, empty threats, unstable outbursts, and a hollow soul. Maybe it was always meant to be that way, that Shadow Raven is to live this life. Or maybe he had aspirations of his own- misguided but true. Discounting the anti-woke cringe. Spin it any way most of us would like to, but the fact of the matter was that he really needed help from all of it. A way out. Perhaps he had a chance some time back, or it was always in his face the whole time. But he was never to break free from it, condemned with no escape. I wish there was more to add, truthful or not, so I will not indulge. But at the end of the day, know that you always had my sympathies, Crandall.

What happened after

You're probably asking yourself what happened after. At least on my end. In terms of what will come of me after everything I've been through and dug out of with whatever expression I got on my face. Well, for starters, thanks to Shadow Raven's dubious results and efforts, I know better now thanks to the anti-woke cringe and a proper understanding of what would've happened had these events never taken place. I went back to making content for a considerable amount of time, although, half the time now is usually spent burnt out on the matter because well... there wasn't much point to it anymore after everything was said and done.

Blunt way of saying this is that I am an American and by the time you are reading this we've basically become a facist country now- if not a totalitarianism. Although to some degrees, plenty of people probably had that similar sentiment, but didn't want to hurt "our" feelings so they simply smile and nodded because chances are seven out of the ten potential attempts may or may not end in unprovoked massacres and/or unprovoked funding and throat gobbling of international massacres. Which at this point is effectively Tuesdays at 8:00. A part of me doing what I did with Crandall was in part, a message to my own countrymen on the meanings of due diligence, importance of patriotism, and of course reminding ourselves that we the people have the right to tell any goofy goober clown be it Michael Crandall of Canada bastardizing us, or... the other guy we will be talking about for a bit that everything they stand for and say is certainly un-American and the boundless options of consequences for un-American acts either in or in the direction of home country soil. However, my first mistake was calling everything I've dealt with in the Call of Duty Community a fluke.

Because there appears to be a non-existent demographic that wants to be ruled by facists with an iron fist, and a even bigger non-existent demographic who will take this scenario of a lifetime with no grains of anything and get continuously diddled with a "thank you" at the end. And the rest more or less involving public executions. But this sentiment doesn't seem to just extend to the predicament of my home country it extends to most if not all the social platforms I've come to know and once admire in some degrees and fronts.

YouTube as the frontrunning utopia of content creation and entertainment has self-imploded into AI-Generated slop and to some unlucky degree a borderline haven for porno ads and even AI generated porno ads. If that wasn't enough then the egregious amounts of advertising on some "there's no genocide in Gaza" ahh movement that google themselves allowed with some additional hush money from the isreali government. Everything we try to do that once represented YouTube either falls flat on their ass, or shadow banned out of existence and all of this because YouTube just decided to post a not very good video that didn't hit the mark. Also before I forget, this is not even mentioning YouTube's abysmal bystanding efforts between myself and the Shadow Raven discourse. Whether that be the abuse of law, or even bigger abuse of law by running hate groups with subterfuged alts. In fact, the one and only time that they did act was all on Shadow Raven's side of things when he did his fair share of stupid shit on his end and got guideline striked out. And not from the egregious amount of reports, awareness, evidence, activities, and enacting coverage we had on the matter.

TikTok, unironically, is becoming or already became the very thing we the people of the states of america had unironically bitched about for years on end because they couldn't take a joke. While again, taking hush money from zionists and the isreali government.

Twitter is Twitter, doesn't really take anything dumber than a dementia ridden corvid to see or read anything beyond that.

And everything else effectively being a stugglefest of misfortunes with no rewards. Socials that make the effort to sell themselves as substitutes are either riddled with American chudslop, with a wee bit of a hint of stockholm syndrome brought to you by the corpo overlords that they're trying to avoid to begin with.

So with nothing better to do, yet having additional work left to be done, I still carried on. This is where McJeetus0133 of Tumblr comes in with all the bells and whistles you are oh so familiar with now, some of my movements with the Archive Channels, (my official McJeetus Archive Channels,) and of course, the new Archive Channel Ring of Raven's hate group I run. But instead of making the semi-reckless mistake of doing it alone, I managed to recruit at least three people who were willing to do such a feat in a safe environment while also being comfortable enough to be credited for their selfless actions. Their names are as follows:

Carlo Bruckson of Allout Monte's Totally Secret & Not Racist Alt

Oliver Lucaro of The Anti-Myg0t Archive - Zintek Detected

and Artyom Iskra of the Shadow Raven Studios - Official A&AD (Archive and Alt Detector)

Together, we've effectively made an entire... "amusement park" of archived videos and history of Shadow Raven Studios and the flop of the Fallout: Ashfall Hate Campaign. This also came with the study of YouTube, as mentioned, but more specifically the incompetency, uselessness, and the deserved downfall of the platform as the bigger elephant in the room comes in the morbid form of Shadow Raven's results. Some aspects that will be discussed within another individual, but will be saved for another time. However, my own bits and pieces of misfortune does not end with Shadow Raven's hate group.

Thanks to a specific alt and Shadow Raven's hate boner for Nexus Mods, the discourse in question helped me freshen up on something that is a problem in the nature of Nexus Mods- and thankfully it is not ironically tied to the hate group directly. Because as easy as it is to say that Nexus Mods was the golden child of the ordeal. Nexus Mods has a significant amount of accolades revolving around needless discourse, asinine decision making, and the bittersweet debate of Nexus Mods and the when's and when-not's of practicing what they preach. This accolade is all thanks to the bigger clown within Nexus Mods known specifically as WarfighterMods.

(or BethesdaCODModding as the entirely separate entity of a daft cunt would rebrand himself as for reasons anyone would care to fathom or would it ever matter because they either knew anyways or couldn't give less of a shit because the pot was still a pot)

Now you're probably asking yourself how he comes in to the story and the rampage of exposes and it is simply elementary.

Shadow Raven Studios, on-brand as an anti-woke loser, hated Nexus Mods for selfish reasons like getting banned for trying (and semi-succeeding) to turn their channel into a titty bar (in a platform where you have minors more or less) and the occasional hate speech sprinkled around in said videos. Some of us who are not the same do not like Nexus Mods for the misfortunate management, communications, and most importantly, Terms of Service Enforcement.

This is where WarfighterMods comes in.

On face vaule, WarfighterMods started just as everyone else would. WfM was an entirely separate entity who did cement himself in Nexus Mods well enough who would innocently enough start his modding career in this case modded ports of stuff from... Call of Duty. And not that the because of the source material it was from was a red flag being talked about (albeit a red flag nonetheless) the ports did start off being good. Surface level.

Overtime, in use, behind the curtains of development time, and everything inbetween we can see the façade crumble and crackle. The ports in question would be buggy, unorganized, incomplete and disgruntled messes either with half of their contents missing, misplaced files, misinputed contents, storage bloat, or worse have potential malware on it despite some seeking otherwise. In the bluntest way imaginable, WfM/BCM would more or less be like an Activision Dev basically half-assing their works and potentially scamming their consumers with said half-assed content. (Although luckily the loser would not demand money. Much on the first few times in the assumption that this would be taken lightly if somebody did talk about the matter.) The most hilarious example of this was when he celebrated The 4th of July with a triple pack porting CoD Vanguard Weapons into Fallout 4. However, it ended up being an entire expose of WfM/BCM's business practices and kind of marking himself as a literal Activision Dev while not being an Activision Dev as the pack is literally deemed incomplete for what would inevitably be roughly two years. And this is where the Terms of Service Enforcement comes in.

Within the line of Nexus Mods, we have a thing that is referred to as Mod of the Month. And for all intensive purposes, you can pretty look at this as an everyday Employee of the Month type thing- or even a "good noodle" sticker. Once every month, all mods that have been developed, published, and distributed into Nexus Mods all line up for Mod of the Month voting. And as textbook expectations, the most voted get hoisted up into the Mod of the Month lineups in rows of five or six. And that's pretty much about it. No fancy celebrations, no grand reward to anticipate, simply your name and mod on the page and the rest is history. Which comes to no surprise and on-brand for somebody like WarfighterMods/BethesdaCODModding to treat this like the fucking holy grail of clout.

For whatever asinine reason this goofy goober would go above and beyond for something that is effectively treated as a "participation award" of modding. Even going as far as baiting people and locking some of his content behind "voting paywalls" basically forcing people to vote for him in order to get a smidgeon of the decayed dumpster fires he publishes. In short he would solicit his mods for views, downloads, endorsements, votes, clout and everything inbetween. This insatiable unrealistic need for this clout chasing endeavor even got to a sadistic point where one time WfM/BCM almost lost to a Mod Author who's brand name is referred to as VTAW. Despite that VTAW makes mods that aren't usually in my personal category of mods to use except for certain exceptions, (like Wild Wasteland themed playthroughs,) VTAW was a matter of fact an incredible modder who jury rigs themed clothing and extremely large clothing packs for the public to use. Would some of them be a bit grandiose? Yes, but VTAW just like everybody else was making content for everyone to use for their playthroughs as they see fit. And one of his recent packs was indeed slated to be Mod of the Month, so when this makes its way on to WfM/BCM, you'd imagine as a "like minded" mod author that a set of congratulations would be in order, shoutouts or any of that sort.

No. WfM/BCM took his literal NPC of fanboys and outright bully VTAW. Out. Of. Nexus. Mods.

This demeanor isn't restricted to just modding either. To perface, I once made an inside joke (one that consistently rings true today) where I once told some of my people never listen to a CoDCel (do not ask me how I got that name apart from the fact that I didn't want to sound like a shitter like Sneako) because 90% of the time they'd always have the worst takes, genuinely objectively sucked at everything because they don't play anything else other than their favorite Stockholm Syndrome Simulator, are probably far-right chud gobblers anyways and are objectively the shittiest people you'll ever see on the face of this earth. A death of a Ghost Cosplayer can take their word for it.

And it rings true to this day with WarfighterMods/BethesdaCoDModding. Because a funny piece of history is this absolute egotistical cringe shit with him and "porting." No matter how you want to look at it: porting something really isn't that hard, granted that yea, there's still plenty of work for it to be done & it still requires quite a bit o things you've learned in any kind of game development classes. Grabbing some assets from one game into another really isn't that hard with the exceptions of hardware and software swapping. WfM/BCM for whatever reason doesn't think of it that way and usually ends up calling himself the Einstien of CoD Porting that it's some kind of quantum physics type shit that only he knows and use when throughout the course of his trogladyte life, despite the fact that there are at least three or more different people who have made CoD Ports of their own and those ports are ages better than Clownfighter's slopfest. Ages better that I'll shamelessly plug them here so you can see for yourself.

Blueeeen

Winter (Retired but mods still available)

Ozzy

Panzerkai

Alphaccca

And if you didn't think that kind of egotism didn't get him in trouble yet, it actually almost did. WfM/BCM actually outright lied one time that he knew and was friends with Infinity Ward Devs (who were on MW2019 during that time) and then backpedal on the matter while pretending to be the victim for announcing that he was moots with Infinity Ward Devs in the first palce when they started callout out those lies. And all of it is right here btw.

If egotistical bullshitting isn't enough, this absolute fucking loser is the definition of a Neckbeard if not the biggest incel you'll ever see second rank to Allout's favorite follower Poeman. This British man likes to LARP as an American MAGAt facist who'll treat women like objects be it co-worker or social. And if you think that isn't confusing enough, wait until you hear about the part where the troglodyte in question is all in favor for Ukrainians defending themselves against Putin's regime despite that the entirety of the United States abandoned Ukraine but would support Israelis on their genocide for Palestinians.

And making use of my already well-performed Archive Channels by myself mainly (as this was before I met Carlo) I basically bring you that exactly looks like.

I've sat on this for awhile because by the time I had everything together, my "metabolism" for discourses like these started to sour and stale, and naturally came to the conclusion that it's not sustainable anymore. For both good and delusional reasons. So it'd come to no surprise that this has found it's purpose again through explaining the story of how a dumbass like me exposed an entire far-right grifting ring and then some on top of explaining what I've been up to this entire time. While also closing the book on this incidental arc that became a lot of help this entire time.

As for everything else, well peachy as far as I'm concerned.

If this wasn't coming out of the mouth of a recovering cynic.

I actually remembered a time long before the Shadow Raven discourse that I asked this very same question. And it's pretty much about the same as it was being in a time where I once came to the conclusion that I was more than likely the most deranged individual of the bunch.

Considering this post exists, probably not far from the truth now that I used one far-right chud as a social experiment, went after the hate group he was hired by, dismantled their entire social ring, assisted in putting their leader on blast numerous times, and now what will be coming within the next chapter. Which is also on-brand for also being the most reckless around. Definitely got myself in trouble on such occasions, to this day, and it seemed like today was the day I don't disappoint on that field.

Other times, I always felt like I was the most hated even to this day. It's silly to think that now. People hating you off-rip and knowing that they do despite the numerous instances of reassurance and affirmations that this isn't the case. To some, a trivial matter- but in reality, a part of said reality and a brand new cog in a cycle of misfortune. Destroy a whole ethnic culture, you get cheers and uproars from mindless and brainless uneducated drones with no desire beyond the suffering of others. Expose an entire faction that conflicts with the interest of the country you are serving or living in, and you yourself might end up becoming the enemy of the state the same exact day and way they're currently perceiving it... while also paying them nine times out of ten.

I never talked to much people, and even when I did, I've imagined that they'd have certain disdains, or a slight suspicion that they were better off talking to someone else. And I would always go on personal debates on pinpointing the "whether or not's," on top of the times that I've publicly apologized for such matters. Thanks to Mr. Crandall and my own american people, I stopped caring about such matters. Not because of a self realization, but the bitter workings of inevitability.

Honestly, after everything, there isn't much I don't know on in terms of what I'm supposed to be doing or where I should be at now. Certainly, there are going to be some things that I deserve when they come and go, or there'll be things that come my way that I might tell myself I don't understand what I did to earn it- if not never deserved completely. But have to be faced all the same. Obviously, I can do better things, and present the improvements I've made only to fall flat into the face of a reality on all of it feeling just as fruitless as I (on certain times delusionaly) imagined it to be. More to some degrees.

Multiple countries are either falling into fascism or just straight up killing themselves, if not (and being pessimistically blunt) schizophrenically devolving into religious paranoia thanks to a singular religion that lives and dies off of violence. Being one of the only few Americans who'll spend the last of their functioning brain cells witnessing the downfall, conversions, and eventual public executions of what we used to stand for. Much like Mr. Crandall, there's not much to say on the matter, at least nothing meaningful. And on behalf of the American people I would like to apologize to you directly as to just how pathetic we are.

I could say a lot of things. But I fear there'll probably be never enough time to say them all be it sentiments or bitterness. Or anything. I know it'll probably fall to deaf ears regardless of the nature. And I'm okay with that. Since this course of the year I've made my peace with what I did and done. I'm used to people hating me, so it'd come to no surprise that there'd be plenty of that here and anywhere else give or take if that's a possible outcome. And there's always much worse outcomes than having a couple of upset and tricked faces. I knew what I was getting to.

Ashfall the Poltergeist Town

Around this time- after going through so much over mods for a 25 odd-some year old video game franchise, after a significant amount of coverage, yap sessions, and documentaries on the man behind the slaughter, you're probably wondering the odds and ends of what happened, or what's going to happen to Fallout: Ashfall, or even what's even on the table of possibilities to happen to Fallout: Ashfall...

and your guess is as good as mine.

Fallout: Ashfall has become one of the wonders of enigmas of any community. Probably surpassing The Frontier on some fronts thanks to just the sheer stupidity behind everything they've done to just avoid it. I've racked my head around ideas, thoughts, theories.

All the same.

Even before AshfallDude's involvements, Fallout: Ashfall was something riddled by discourse after discourse. Management replacements, management arguments, accusations, allegations, subterfuge and the sort despite the fact that the cases where it wasn't happening things were going fine. Certainly that wouldn't imply that a squeaky clean record makes a project perfect, but you'd think after going through the hoops and tribulations, learning lesson and consequence you'd at least have a rough idea on how to be avoidant of them in the near future to have a reasonably presentable record.

This mod project is never released, nor is there any indication that there are people working on it, nor is there any kind of trajectory to path that predicts their well-being, nor a proper trajectory path to when this actually releases. Yet people still egg on Ashfall, and people like Shadow Raven use it as crutch and a means to an end, with everybody else avoiding it like it was RFK Jr's Brain Worms. Which lead to a point in time where I had told myself that Fallout: Ashfall has got to be the strangest scam I've ever seen.

A scam in the fact that this is a front that nobody will ever win.

Considering it this way: if you're a member of the Fallout: Ashfall Team, not only are you bearing the weights of handling a full fledged "game into a game" DLC sized mod with the amenities that come with it, you are also bearing the weight of all the discourses that came with it. AshfallDude era and beyond. Chances are you are either going to spend day after day getting hounded on hour in and hour out on either working on the side of "wokeness" or on the side of Shadow Raven sympathizers, anti-woke losers & radicalized Monte associates. And sure, we can play with the idea and chance that you can have the power to speak out and fight against both sides of the allegations. What happens then?

Well good luck trying to convince a very good portion of them on your end to do so while they're either doing something that to a degree is sensible but doing so and handling it in the worst unhealthy way imaginable, or they're actively making this degree and anything akin that way much worse.

Where you had individuals like Cellblock Psycho who not only believed in the words of an alt account owned by a individual we will be talking about soon, but also went out of their way to virtue signal their way out of their accountability and tell you right in your face that you are effectively throwing baseless accusations at either Shadow Raven or akin. Even if you have some leeway of a chance, there's still the egregious amount of obstacles of getting anyone to help you out of the Ashfall mess like trying to explain to them why Abrams a former member was allowed in Ashfall for a brief amount of time- somebody who proactively jorked it in live Discord voice chats and posting straight up porn with unprompted whimsy who'll say they had nothing to do with it and then aggravate it even more and this is the shit he usually posts...

Or somebody like Dayglow who would look at this and say screw off but then turn around to have a mental breakdown, and then staging another mental breakdown not only with a moc-alt but with intent to frame after being found out that they were making friends with another alt owned by the same person and then out themselves as a literal informant for them by attempting to frame the person presenting the suspicion.

These two (Dayglow and Abram) are still mutuals by the way.

And beyond that, there's still very little of a chance you'll walk out unscathed. Either marking you down as a Urias Supporter- somebody who never existed for years on end or worse, and virtually zero way out of the mess you unwittingly put yourself in because you thought making silly goofy mods was fun.

if there really was somebody who was trying to set the record straight they're either:

Not doing enough,

Too hesitant to do anything,

Are part of the discourse and struggling for a way out,

Or are actively part of the discourse and doing everything to hide.

It's gotten to the point where its' hard to tell apart, harder to get somebody who stuck around long enough to tell it apart, and impossible to find any kind of solution to it in the non-existent event that you managed to tell it apart. And this is at a breaking point where it's probably more than likely going to stay that way until the project effectively dies, or takes a side full send and condemn themselves all the same. Hilarious enough, this "subterfuge" & "discourse" has degraded down to the point where now almost any input is meaningless. Meaning that if the Ashfall Dev Team wanted to put any actual effort into clearing their names, they can't even do that now because chances are the very first question that'll be on the table is "Are you a sleeper agent?"

If you're looking at this from the viewpoint of the latter two, I could add on by saying because that these are the feats that I've proceeded to do, done, did and succeeded at between August of 2024 and October of 2025 as Archive Channels 3-9, the "Official Ashfall Team Members" are doing everything in their power to effectively make my words, sayings, and endeavors be it from Sanity nor me meaningless by not debating. Not addressing. Not summarizing it. Not even acknowledge. But by framing. Egregiously. Some for those (who are less aware enough) that probably would be deemed "plausible" by their standards, while others seem to be outlandish and... let's say "on-brand" for some individuals, and everything else about almost as equally unhinged as the allegations on The Dude that they once bothered us to tell the assailants to shut up on.

Like a very goofy time where I apparently had an argument with one of the prominent "scapegoats" they like to use that I had no idea where they were even at, and even if I did- despite some qualms I had with their association, would still be short and to the point if not just never saying anything at all and letting them be at peace so they can enjoy the fact that they're at peace because that is certainly the least they deserve give or take.

And this was something they just conveniently posted at that same time-frame while I was figuring out the workings of GrapheneOS on my phone and de-googling my shit because Google is trash now and AI is just as equally shit.

Keep in mind that during the beginning of their conniptic shitfits that some goob decided it would be a funny idea to post some of my stuff in their official server, with I myself putting their "poster children" on blast for believing them over somebody who just wanted to get actual work done. And this is the kind of degree they're behaving in.

(although, it is agreeably reckless that such a thing would happen.)

As much as I want to be kind of... polite in this case, or say that this is something that certainly caused some damages here and there... There wouldn't be any damages to anything "valuable" let's say. I once originally started out hating the Ashfall group for not only bystanding, but also aggravating the situation whenever possible. But overtime, it kind of faded, and in place a set of different emotions and outlooks that just made me feel indifferent if not numb. There really wasn't much to talk about if not anything additional, constructive, and/or transformative. And I imagined one way or another, it was probably going to stay stuck being that way for as long as whatever "unseen force" we can't see keeps it that way.

And it's a little bit of the reason why this section resides here. Because I know one way or another, since I am the one that took down Shadow Raven Studios with a pluck of many, blind luck, brute force, and an intrusive thought I will inevitably one way or another be the primary target of the real star of the show and the "Official Ashfall Devs" or akin. Be it Shadow Raven, Monte, Graey, Dayglow, Outlander, Arccharger, Cellblock, Abrams. You name it. All of them will be after me in one way or another if this be public, or if they knew in any capacity before this. Even if the basis of their knowledge about me is is as simple how I have arcane knowledge of Shadow Raven that can't be absolved by just saying I was a good listener.

The truth? I rather it be that way than any other way.

As long as there's the idea and notion in my head that there's not a single minute that goes by where there's some form of a (semi-coherent) allegation over me, and I can go back to sleep knowing that there won't be a single allegation towards AshfallDude or any of his mutuals- that I end up becoming the next Urias or akin... that is what I mean when I said I already won.

Because in the bitter reality of things, I created an "elusive enemy" far bigger than The Dude, far bigger than facts, and far bigger than Urias. One way or another, it's not going to take long for them until they get desperate for a face to put on it. So in exchange for the aspiring potential hopes and futures for being a content creator, a dedicated fan, determined writer, and however else I wished others to see me for most of my communities, I give them what they want and make this retrospect bestow the weight of everything I buried for the sake of peace, the sake of safety for a community member I would considered my friend in another lifetime. Because at the end of the day, albiet morally gray, was a selfless act that I knew must be done if it meant somebody gets to walk out of it scot-free. And nothing in this world will ever make me omit that truth.

The other truth, was that I was never meant to make it as far as I did. As much as I wanted to run from it, a part of me told me one way or another that my time was coming. A lot of people's time was coming, believe it or not. Like it or not. I just happened to be the unlucky one on the draw. So it'd make sense for someone like me to do something this grandiose, this reckless and stupid to give a clear indicator that this is it. And if it was to be that way, I rather play it by my own rules than theirs. I've already made my peace with it, so you could say that this would be my alibi to it.

Speaking of such things...

The True Star of the Show

So you think this is the end. And if you want to leave it at that and skip to the monologue, or end this here and believe so, you are free to do so. However, I believed it the same way too until now.

I imagine, that throughout me talking about the endeavors of Shadow Raven Studios himself, there is one question that's been bothering you this entire time. How did Shadow Raven Studios manage to do all of this damage in the course of a whole year by himself?

And that's the neat part: He didn't.

This is the part of the story where everything turns upside down and make this entire discourse feel like the world's worst fever dream. And all of that begins where the start of Shadow Raven's downfall truly began. On one inconspicuous day when Sanity got recommended a video by a totally even more inconspicuous user by the name of DarkMastermindGaming who actually wanted Sanity to take their side. And misfortunately as it is, had they not yapped or kept to themselves none of what you're about to see would ever make it here.

Now, in most aspects of this, there would be a bit of a consensus that Shadow Raven did have allies in this case. On the surface. In the interest of time, this would not only be disproven- despite the time it took, but when it does, this facade certainly did go down in a doozy. Infact, there even had been whispers that DarkMastermindGaming, in the grandest scheme of things, was in reality an alternate account to the individual we will be talking about today. And with everything I've seen, known, dug, and exposed... That answer has to be a yes.

This is where we continue to How2Exist Pranks and Tutorials. Who despite the ironic name, was one of the first we knew was working with Shadow Raven Studios during that time with "actual content." The only thing about that, is that How2 was using AI and AI Generated content while also kitbashing a handful of stock images in the most asinine way possible as if it is going out in style. And this mainly helped with the establishment of Shadow Raven's friend circle considering a good portion of Raven's work- again, involves endorsing AI and AI generated content that he even exchanged with a few people. However... if you lock in and take a real good analysis of the video, (aka looking at the top right corner,) you will see the infamous watermark "invideo/allout."

And as everyone would guess for those with a keen mind, this would point to one individual by the name of Allout Monte.

I've been very adamant of covering Allout Monte throughout the months soon to be year, far & wide, thick & thin. So I'm not going to bore you with the basics. I'm not even going to link all the discussions I had about him because frankly, you are either going to look into my blog anyways to figure it out or you probably had read it in some shape or form and one of the conclusions that came into play is the fact that this all started with this specific individual.

Allout Monte, was the "apology hire" of the Fallout Ashfall Team, and despite the "record," was somebody who was the stank stark opposite of his non-existent resume and thought it funny to prove that by doing nothing for almost a literal year.

After this, came the process of getting kicked from the project and having a petty crashout over this ordeal and lauching a shitty trailer out of insubordination, either with the help of some "friends" or directly, Monte would proceed to reach out to Shadow Raven Studios about this matter and was lucky enough to pick the most dumbest and complacent option imaginable. As if that wasn't enough for such buffoonery, Monte proceeded under the guise of How 2 Exist (after releasing an abysmal "setting the record straight" video and abandoning that channel for whatever reason) to carry on slandering his employer while also showing that he is abysmally trash at forming hate groups. And hiding as it would be revealed in the future that it was owned by Allout.

For those who have studied my works and coverage of this ordeal, you can put two and two on how that worked out.

After getting exposed for being the fraud of the Fallout Community and outting himself as an AI bro and not some underdog writer that will be the Hercules of the modding community, he uses this same exact strat again, as Sneedclave Anonymous- although admittedly lasting longer than Exist, carried on the discourse for another few months until individuals like myself and others picked and pulled at the facade to see the truth once more. And the rinse and repeat process continuing after creating basically an entire diagram of Allout Monte's true self. Whether it was as Sneedclave A, a mock Isreali Enclave Account, Cletus the Sneed and whatever other redneck cringeshit he had, AIFalloutMods, you name it.

This kind of devolved into using YouTube alts, Twitter alts, and to a degree Tumblr alts to continue the botched works of subterfuge and swearing up and down the Vatican that they're still on the right side of history.

Until the very end. Where the famed Tamriel Community Rebuilt Watchdog comes into play, where if you have heard in their own stroke of luck, they managed to stalk, dox, and use my personal information as potential blackmail in order to ensure any guarantees that I speak nothing of this matter in the first place. If you've paid attention well enough, now would be the perfect proof and opportunity to tell you now. Not only will I be able to tell them the bittersweet truth, but to provide you the deadset proof that I am who I say I am.

Nathan Preciado is not my real name.

My real name is Harland Wright.

"Nathan Preciado" is a pen-name that eventually became a cavity fill for the real one with a complicated family history. One that I really wished I could've just asked the questions for one day, but the people that would have known exacts aren't really in the living mood to tell such a tale. But all that I know of it being that we were once DeWitt for a considerable amount of time until it got changed around my time to Wright. Then Preciado. And you get the picture apart from the fact that it actually saved my life.

Here's two things to just signify such a case.

The first being commonality.

If you did a simple search, you would find an overabundance of "me" across the internet. Football Player, Baseball Player, soccer, and the sorts. Influencers, musicians, I can keep going. If you're very lucky enough, there's even other offset chances that you might find AI Generated iterations of "me." Excluding the one owned by the Tamriel Rebuilt Community Watchdog. Tempting as it is to claim one of these authentice results as me, it wouldn't have been much of my style anyway.

The second. Is all in the last name. Preciado.

And the one very, intrinsic, peculiar, telltale heart of a curse that is the most asinine, ludicrous, and dumbest shit ever: is the fact that Preciado is a really fucking easy name to butcher.

Precidio,

Precillo,

Prociado,

Preciano,

Picardio,

Picardo,

And my new personal favorite thanks to an Allout Monte alt: Porcellio. A fucking rolly poly.

Combine that with the blankest social history you can find that's been nonexistent since god knows fucking when at this point apart using this name and specifics from the new and improved shadow of you, living in one or two states with the most racist motherfuckers on this side of the Honeysuckle, a no face on a stumbling, tumbling in silence, and the only place that has your pen name public on at least two accounts where you'd have to do a significant amount of guesswork... and you have yourself a dox alarm system. And additional concrete evidence of confessing that the doxer in question is a specific goofy goober AI Throat Goat named Allout Monte.

If you want it in English, Monte, you fell for the same exact trick that Shadow Raven Studios fell for that year ago. And this time, it's very cute that unlike him, you actually put some elbow grease unto it. You actually tried to protect your reputation the way that you did, and you actually tried to do homework- despite cheating and digging into an unsuspecting sod's IP Address. And imagine to my surprise that you took a look at that full name and told yourself, "this is the most Mexican name with a fuckass last name that sounds remotely Spanish, so because I am a racist piece of shit with no moral compass, I'm going to use this information and bend it to my will."

And playing with the idea that this isn't a case or this is a bluff, this would mean that you'd still have nothing about me. Whatever you found, whatever you'd have seen on your findings. The dates, names, and histories might as well be meaningless. Addresses might as well be something you pulled out of your ass. Most hilariously, you'd still have no face to put behind it. Either an AI Generated mimicry of another man's face, or just outright putting somebody else to call an assailant like you did as the Tamriel Rebuilt Community Watchdog. Not even mentioning the fabrication of IRL addresses and the sort. The reason why I stayed quiet with it the way that I did, was to give the illusion that you had a win that wasn't even existent in the first place. The same way that happened when Mr. Crandall made that same exact mistake. Except, I thought it'd be best to make that announcement on an anniversary. My anniversary.

That's why today is the day that I start talking about this. On the one year anniversary of an official "rebirth." It is my story told through my eyes, my mouth, my words, and my thoughts that can never be altered, construed nor nullified. Sure, having some of these tales may make me guilty of one or two things, vigilante justice being one of them. But between that and condemning the rest of my life into a cesspool of hatred and bigotry, I'd rather take the penalties of protecting the rights that is entitled to all sentient beings than to waste it all on oppressing them.

A final bid

Now, with everything all said and done, the cat being out of the bag, the truth being told, and all the fancy jazz that involves singing in the end. This is my final piece. The coup de grace that I've not only promised to Monte, but the followup that I promised Shadow Raven Studios. By the time you're reading this, I imagine that there's a fair bit of mixed emotions at middle grounds and a sense of anger at worst. Obviously, something like this, although not inherently evil, is certainly a morally gray looking glass. After all, in the grander scheme of things, I traumatized an entire grifting ring, used their trauma and their stupidity for a social experiment, forcing their leaders to abandon the internet for good(-ish), and then have live the rest of their lives being delusional professional yappers of the internet with a Prozac addiction withdrawal while I carried on with the rest of the day making videos and doing stupid shit. On top of, again, personally using them as a social experiment to not only evaluate, address, and understand my faults, but gave me a very free but very valuable lesson for future tomorrows to come. It's completely understandable.

Even when discussing it with several individuals, they did say that it was certainly something worth defining as excessive at the end of it all. And yes, 7 would be a bit much, (Although, more accurately, I'd say ten if you count the Rumble, Tok, and mayyyyyybe another socials) but I was always somebody who considered "the extra mile" something worth never having enough of.

Regardless, we are reaching the end. And before final goodbyes are to be said, I think it's only fair that I bring the final word, and play a little game for one specific person that you obviously know.

To the one, the only, the infamous Allout Monte.

Known as Wyatt Monte Paden a resident who's part time workplace is Back to the Arcade living in Pennsylvania where he potentially also proactively proudly steals the valor and credit of his father's work maintaining and running the place... And much, much more.

Now before I continue... I originally had this information, never wanting to believe it, and never wanting to make it public. When an informant who came to me explaining everything about you and dropping your name, workplace, and the sort - and only those things, not only did it feel way too far off, it felt too easy. There was no way that someone was as openly willing as they were with entrusting this type of information to me. But Monte was someone who made a lot of enemies, yet I imagine ones who'd look at upstart journalists to cover it and tell themselves, "This man doesn't need to know everything" & carry on with the rest of the day with the knowledge that this is where a former friend of ten years is at now.

Although I could be wrong, as again, most of the people I've seen agreed.

When I investigated into it further finding the Back to the Arcade accolades and news and finding out the next piece of the puzzle, my speculations got even more ergrigous. Why would someone, specifically a co-owner of a small little arcade area, go out of their way the way that they did to hide connected dots, gaslight anyone and anything that got too close, and went as far as doxxing and stalking and sending their girlfriends to seduce and honeycomb "naysayers" to ensure the truth never got out aside from association and reputation. It still bothered me, and something told me that the true reason was sitting there somewhere. It wasn't until one specific day, I took the opportunity to take a leap of faith at Wyat Paden in full detail...

When I read the words "Experienced political operative with government experience as a legislative aide."

You can bet everything that it all. Made. Sense.

Let us start with the basics...

If you've stuck around with everything I've covered about you, Monte, you would understand that during my coverage, analysis, and observations of you, Allout was somebody who skirted authority. Authority that nobody had in the first place but because there was someone threatening that "authority" they were to be taken care of swiftly and effectively. My occasional speculations of that came to the conclusion that despite the easy way out guess of this sort of narcissistic side effect, it was very uncommon to have such an aggressive trait to have in a calm and quaint community like- say a modding community. In fact, unhealthily unnatural to say the most. But I never questioned anything beyond that. Until this series of unfortunate events took place. Making the observation that this is speakings and sayings- despite schizophrenic, speaking and sayings of a politician, made all the difference.

Now go back to some texts and examples of the alts of Allout Monte. Read the words, and search your feelings to know what I now see has been true this whole time.

You will see that the words no longer sound like a dedicated Fallout Fan doing everything and anything for the community out of goodwill and prosperity. It is the sounds of a politician. Not just any kind of politician, a politician who just realized what might, can, could and would happen if somebody, and I mean SOMEBODY stumbled upon this information, let alone a representative of the Republican Party so hated, so despised. And this doesn't stick to just Paden naturally. It applies to each and every alt that his or his "besties" disgruntled hands has touched.

And if you want additional proof about this, compare the "evidence" of the Tamriel Rebuilt Community Watchdog on their previous investigation, then enter Wyatt Paden in your search bar to see it all. And, of course, every single file I have on record about this whole ordeal. That is why I'm making this whole thing after. Infact don't take my word for it, take it from the mouth of the totally legit Tamriel Rebuilt Community Watchdog who indeed confirm for us.

Even if you don't want to believe such a case, such a story is too grandiose for a discourse that started with arguing the perception of wokeness, do you still want to know what that also means no matter what way any one of us spins it?

Every statement, every remark, all that we've recorded you doing illegally, and commenting how legally fucked you were no matter what is to be done about it. Yea, all of that was basically real the entire time for the reasons we would inevitably find out soon that we never knew and never would've had you not kept going with this. You were literally legally fucked in this Ashfall discourse in every shape form and/or scenario and all of that tied to the fact that you abused your powers to defame and silence somebody. Regardless of whether or not you were ever enacting at that time.

Ever since the beginning of this whole back and forth, this was never a thing because of how much standing you lacked in the whole situation, knowing it's your fault. It's the fact that this was done, with said abuse of government power should any other snippets of knowledge decide to keep through.

I could continue, but lucky for you, you don't have to wait any longer.

Now Mr. Paden, I would hope you're familiar with the term, Mutually Assured Destruction, because that's the name of the game. Originally, when the focus was all on Shadow Raven, I thought that I was getting the unbridled raw results I needed on the way to be a better self. Turns out I was half right. Sure, Shadow Raven Studios was somebody already into the anti-woke, going on delusional psychopathic breakdowns and the sort. But you? Somebody so egotistical, so self-centered, so cognizant of a reputation that wouldn't have mattered in the end that you would resort to content theft. And not even be highlighted as that, but the biggest highlight being a Republican Legislative Aide and PA Chairman that got caught being the biggest fraud any community has ever seen. Even to the extent of Elder Scrolls Modders. You were that big of a fraud that you had Elder Scrolls Modders whispering horror stories about you. This also just makes every other alt that you make, every schizo rant, allegation, and cookie cutter jargon make much more sense than where we originally started. Because you're trying to erase something so plastered and so caked to your eraser that even your eraser has turned into a pencil of all-knowing secrets that you abused so much on. That the enemy of the community has a face, and not just the community, but the American people as well.

So here's the deal, I agree with Floof. No more subterfuge, no more diversions, no more alts, nor AI, nor gaslights, nor white lies, meltdowns, rants, loony talks, no more of it all.

I have everything about you all for you right here. All you need to do: is take the mask off and match that same energy. After all, you apparently have "Ben" and you have "me" with a single fragile stone. This is what you wanted after all. Be the center of attention. Having that Weinstein power that you tore down a significant amount of bridges for. So here's a chance to use your voice and claw your way out of the purgatory and prison that you built yourself. This is your chance. Certainly, you probably won't win anything in the end. But something in me tells me that somehow you know that too.

You knew what was going to happen in the end.

Oh and before you say anything. Yea, it was always part of the plan to take my mask off. Once in a motive that I once thought was put in a good light, good intention, and a hopeful reminder. And a message on who put us in this hell in the first place. I'm also just doing this shit for the love of the game and the honors that I get to tell my family members that I threw hands with a Republican Legislative Aide and won for the last few days.

I'll be waiting, Paden.

And good luck, dumbass. c:

With all due respects and regards,

Long before TikTok, and some of the stuff I've made content on in the past, one of my beloved franchise was Call of Duty...

Which is a statement that was regarded highly by many once upon a time, now an open season for people to get clowned on for reasons I'm more than open to cover in the next few paragraphs.

Everyone knows it, everyone talks it, so I'm not going to bore you with the basics you have heard time and time again. And to some degrees I was someone who believed that the 2000's Modern Warfare Trilogy, and the Black Ops "Trilogy," was the highlight of an empire taken away too soon.

Which normally I would be swearing up and down the Memory Lane explaining all of that to you, but by now, every other YouTuber or Creator who would do this for money over "awareness" has already done that, and broken records are broken records. And after what happened, I don't really have those regards, or wish to think about those regards considering the future.

That didn't end there though, there was a point of time- I'd say around the time of Advanced Warfare, where I noticed that something was wrong. And unfortunately, my reasonings for why I was feeling something was wrong, was not the proper same reasons why I am talking about this now. But at that time my "solution" to this was lightly and politely put the franchise down, step out a bit and let them have this "phase" that there were having at the time, come back, and on paper, there's a chance it would've been back as the holly-jolly CoD that I know and I can dismiss the Advanced Warfare - BO3 era as something a little goofy, a social experiment that wasn't social experimenting.

Never to say I hated some if not all of those experiences.

Advanced Warfare was indeed Sledgehammer Games' first iteration of this momentum swing "multiverse" that was coming together in an odd but appealing way that made me have a sense of respect towards the entire franchise model. Which might've as well been a good bit of this feel like an extent of subtle foreshadowing that I should've paid attention to from zero hour.

Black Ops 3 took the highlights of some of their best narrative experiences to make a sort of moc Ghost in the Shell type story in a world I was more than inclined to tell myself that this was just a sort of "Elseworld Epilogue" to a mini-trilogy that I already believed was amazing enough as is and honestly did not think much more should be added to it.

The bitter reality now, was that I should have stuck with that era until the end knowing that it would be the last few titles to enjoy it while it lasts.

Because Modern Warfare 2019 dropped. And that was where shit hit the fan. Something was tragically wrong now. And instead of walking out when I had the chance, I minded my own business, and carried on with assumptions I should have never had in the first place. That I might as well have called my first sets of recorded cope. It wasn't until the time of Treyarch's Black Ops: Cold War came about where I spent the entirety of that life cycle learning how the sausage was truly made during that time. And when I did, I would not say the reactions were "comfy" now.

Which I'm not going to bore you with the in-depth detailings and the sort, I'm just going to speedrun the entire jist of what happened that made the entire franchise hated the way that it is:

So around Modern Warfare 2019 - BO:CW, there came along a sort of system in set on their online multiplayer experiences- which on paper and on face value, was something that did not sound as bad. To some degrees, it'd work how it would intend to work, and on first glance sounded, looked, and felt like every other day in a multiplayer space like CoD.

However. Two factors came into play to put two and two together to paint the picture that was already in place in pieces and in plain sight that stayed that way on vicious prayers that nobody is to be smart enough to find it for one of these factors:

The publishing company

and

Reading the fine print.

The first factor is a no brainer, and that is the publishing company Activision.

If you want to know in a extremely in-depth perspective that has a depth that's much more than you deserve to know, you have two options and- let's say twenty or so second timer in this:

Type in "Activision Lawsuit"

Or go here

Twenty or so seconds later me here- hey, hi. How you doing? Everyone feelin' fine after that road trip?

All morbid jokes aside, about four years ago, Activision Blizzard would go down as the most egregiously scummiest publishing company known to man. Now is it the definitive worst? Definitely not. There's still plenty of space and time here for the next set of people to take that mantle one way or another. But you'd definitely imagine that they would be the undefeated champion of this.

SA case, after SA case, alongside horror stories and literal stories of hell coming out of them. Enough to basically scare away anyone and anything especially with someone who once had high affinities for such a company.

What started as a twenty odd-some years of being able to provide content to many consumers worldwide-ish got bulldozed into oblivion in just three by outting themselves as ome of the most abusive companies if not the greediest.

On to the second, and another Segway into the topic, fine print.

Basically Activision thought it would be funny to use the entire new system to rig the entire multiplayer space for the sake of gaslighting people into getting more bundles and avoid working on the game for the sake of pretending to be Fortnite. They even went as far as to gaslight an egregious amount of times in the hopes that people are too brain-rotted enough to forget about the affair entirely. Among a shit ton of other things that Fooly would have field days upon field days with.

I had the entire knowledge now that Activision was proactively trying to turn my entire comfort franchise into a literal scam, a empty shell that was filled with nothing but money thefts, eventually pay to win, and everything in-between. Saying that I was not a happy camper at that time would be an understatement of the century, and the times when Activision spent some of said time outting themselves as unregistered sex offenders didn't do any justices either, and gave the whole ammunition that I needed at that time and forevermore.

Now the good news was that I thought for the ninety percent of the time doing this in a emotion viscously indescribable by myself even, I thought I was doing fine with it.

The bad news was that this basically became an introduction into something I had full knowledge of, but didn't have real proper experience of until that day and some other events moving forward. Which is to be saved for later. But for the reason and purpose of excerpts, that is for later.

But in the end, the entire string of events basically made me quit and abandon the entire franchise for good, never to return again, and leaving everyone and everything into a demise I hope and pray nobody else has to be the witness, researcher, and/or participant of.

There was a point in time where recently with my new XBox One and Gamepass I had an entire idea to do a retrospect on myself and the relationship with the franchise by trying out MW19-3 and BO6 after some time. Admittedly, it was kind of elaborate if not convoluted, but considering the amount of time and history- alongside taking some of Penguinz0 advice on the accounts of hating things, I thought it would be worthwhile to try. Several days, two games,

I did not last 5 days.

To this day, nothing has changed my outlook on this franchise.

(This is not for excerpt reasons, it was that trash of an experience.)

Now, bitter truth, I was never sorry for ever calling any of these things out, I still think that Call of Duty is the worst "experience" you can get in the gaming market, I think it was an absolute disgrace that this was how the entire franchise put themselves down under all because of Fortnite being the more popular at the time, and unfortunately I also considerably believe that no matter how many artists, cosplayers, content creators, and the sort you into that community, no amount of that is going to change the outlook CoD potrays now- at least as long as Activision has something to say about it. Personally, I even doubt that it would even if they're gone. But I do feel that I was a little too agro on the matter. Again, this was coming out of someone who got around to CoD 3, 4 & W@W when I was about like 9-12, who took a break for one arc and came back to see that it all turned into a dumpster bonfire fueled by dogshit. Not mentioning the part where said individual found out that it was dogshit fueling the dumpster fires. Of course, you would make it your goal to report, warn, and even get everybody to look behind the curtain, and the truth was that the community was too stockholm'd to see that. So the best course at that time was to just walk away and abandon both franchise and community, which I did. And I don't regret that.

But yea, that was about it, just a little tidbit for what's to come later.