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When I think back, I only think of those moments when you gave me so much frustration and cold shoulders. I can't help but think how stupid I must've looked in front of you. I was stupid because of love but you saw me as a fool. Your actions spoke a lot louder than your thoughts. I should've moved on the moment I realized but kept holding back thinking you would change your mind. I'm tired of being treated like a dumb fool.

Noticed you drive by in your sports car last Monday evening. It's so foolish how I feel numb every time I see you. Even though it's been awhile now, I can't help but zone out. I wonder if you've thought of me. If you ever thought that we could've had something. 

After spending the evening at a friend's house, I thought of you. I just wanted to hear your voice. I didn't think very much of it but after I heard your voice, I realized just how much I've missed you. I missed you, but I'm still going to keep my distance. I definitely need to move on with my life and change it for the better.

It's almost that time. I'm not sure what this means or what will happen to us both. I'm not sure if we'll even still keep in touch or just pretend that we never had anything. I wonder if you'll ever think of me and want to meet up again one of these days. I wonder if you'll ever think to yourself; where we went wrong... but it seems like I'm the only one who keeps thinking of us. 

Focusing on my own studies now without a heavy heart makes things so much better. I feel like I can do just about anything and everything that I want to do. I want to forget all the frustrations I encountered. How mean and cold you treated me. I don't ever think I can start this sort of relationship with you ever again. So please don't come close, don't come any closer to me.