#april12posting

on Sunday, April 12, my parents told me they wanted me out of the house by the end of the month. that same night, the older of my two sisters destroyed roughly two months of my HRT pills (Estradiol and Prog, if it matters). this in mind, i Need to get Out of here.

now, i'm in texas, so i've Been sending out requests to different organizations that assist trans people in moving to a safer state. but with the sudden time limit, those don't Appear to be an option (given each org's already-long backlog, i Can't and Don't expect them to prioritize Me), as they aren't Intended to be used in emergency situations. additionally, there don't Appear to be any queer shelters in the vicinity, so lacking even That as a stopgap measure, i'd like to take a chance on Leaving texas if at all possible.

that said, i need Help, but i'm not sure to what Extent. embarrassingly, outside of a few poorly-thought-out semesters in college over a Decade ago, i've never really lived on my Own. so it's a very "i don't know what i don't know" type situation.

i Know i need to secure a place to live, and a job (either Remote or Nearby). if i Really want to separate from my family, i'll also need to get My Own cell plan, and bank account. given my lack of a driver's license, i'll need access to some form of public transport in whatever city i end up in.

i don't know what Else i'll need. i don't know which (if any) organizations can actually Help me in such a short timeframe. i only Barely know which cities to even aim for in terms of safety as a black trans woman.

i. may ask for money Later, but for now i need Information. i Need to know what i'm going to need to Survive. i Need to know who i can ask for help, and who i can Reasonably expect to get back to me. i'd also Like to have someone to walk me through this, but i Get that that's asking A Lot.