hey aph, Iâm hoping Iâll find solace in your replay.. Iâve known about the law for a long time. Throughout the years, Iâve been through so many creators about the law until I safely landed on a side of loa that I resonate with deeply; this side of tumblr (aphroditeapprenticee, hera @sexydreamgirl, you) and sticking to edward art and neville. Iâve also stopped bring swayed easily by new trends or creators (I donât follow them anyway, I just stick to the ones Iâve listed above).Â
Yet, for some odd reason Iâm still unable to figure out yet, Iâm not applying the law. I dislike my life very much, I dislike my circumstances very much and everything surrounding me, I even dislike myself. Well, one might suggest to figure out what I truly desire to be, but thatâs the thing! Everything I desire are things I TRULY want and my desires havenât changed throughout the years either.Â
I come home, after a long and terrible day and I still donât change my inner being. I try only to give up after a few days. Iâve been trying to finish edwardâs art book for a month now yet Iâm procrastinating to do so. I was so happy when you came back in late december but Iâm procrastinating reading your replies. I procrastinate reading nevilleâs books and lectures, I listen to edwardâs lectures regularly on youtube yet nothing ever truly stick to my mind that I carry with me throughout the day or actually apply.Â
I want to change, I truly do. I want to change myself, my circumstances and my life. Yet I just donât stick to it.Â
Iâm not committing to my life either, I just do the bare minimum and go about my day so I donât ignore my circumstances. I donât want to work hard and put in effort in stuff I hate. But Iâm not committing to the law either.
What the HELL is wrong with me? itâs not finding adequate resources about the law problem, itâs not a desires problem; everything on my list are stuff I truly want and I donât change them either. I truly feel lucky to follow creators like you and others and follow edward art, because I know even when people know about law of assumption they still could follow unreliable resources and creators. Is it that I feel the need to educate myself more on the law before applying it? Is it that I feel what I desire is impossible (I desire a complete new appearance, a new family..), is it that Iâm undisciplined? But I read so many time that you donât need discipline but love to truly commit to manifesting.Â
I do realize this a very long ask so forgive me. but I desperate for an answer that will quenche my thirst and answer this question that have been ruminating on mind for quite a while now.Â
Thank you!
You are desperate for an answer that you already have! Youâre not missing the answerâyouâre avoiding itâbecause youâre afraid of what it demands. It demands a radical, permanent assumption that you are already the one you wish to be. You arenât broken or lazy. You are hesitant to let the old self die. You claim that you donât commitâbut you are committingâjust not to the life that you desire. You are more loyal to the story of your current self than to your desired self. You say, âI dislike my life, my circumstances, myself.â And in repeating that, in believing it, you are applying the Law of Assumption perfectly. You are giving reality to what you do not want by assuming it repeatedly with feeling. You do not need more knowledge. You have more than enough. You donât manifest by knowing the law. You manifest by applying it. That means the moment you declare, âI AMâŚâ and fill in that blank with beautiful, powerful, desirableâthat moment, if accepted, is the turning point of your world. Stop waiting to feel ready. That feeling will never come, because your current state doesnât produce it. You must change your state. You must move in imagination, even just a step. Your desires arenât too bigâyou were shown them because theyâre yoursâbut you have to start with the place that all transformation begins, within. Take the end that you desireâa new family, new appearance, etcâŚ, and rest in it. Not as a fantasy, but as a fact. And when the old self risesâas it willâdonât argue with it. Simply turn again, as often as you need, back to the wish fulfilled. Effort is not what materializes your desires, it is acceptance.















