#apartmentwitchling

I really just wanted to create something, to write something.

It's so easy to get lost in the consumer role. Watching, listening, buying - that's not really what makes us who we are, is it? Is it? It's not like you can't have an active role in what you are consuming. You can read with a critical mind. You can watch a show and have thoughts about it. But it's easy to be less than that. To watch something, and read someones thoughts about it, and let that be it. Once I've been in that kind of role for some time I feel completely drained and empty as a person. This isn't why I'm here.

I have made some things lately. I made a crocheted pumpkin, and it's adorable. I painted my nails carefully, they're so shiny now. Small things like that is enough to break through the passive consumer role and make me feel human again. Granted I had to buy yarn and nail polish, but that's not buying for the sake of buying. It's consuming with the idea of a cute pumpkin vivid in my mind.

And it's gonna be a hot one. May I suggest making cold brew tea? It couldn't be simpler. Put 2 teabags of any flavor in a pitcher of water and keep it in the fridge for a few hours or overnight. Green tea works especially well, as it won't turn bitter and has a refreshing taste. Of course you could add sugar and lemon for a sweet refreshment.

There are so many practices and faiths around the world. They're culturally significant to people, and some are closed for that reason. Sometimes people find an interest in other faiths, because it holds more meaning to them, even though they don't have the heritage. If those people devote themselves to their new found beliefs, they're often accepted into the community - oftentimes it's just a surface level of attraction that waters down the significance of the belief.

But what I'm wondering is, if we strip down to our cores and remove everything we get from our cultures... Do all of the faiths stem from the same thing? Is it something all of humanity has in common, but it took different forms over millenia? If we are inherently different as people, that's a bit lonely somehow. But I'm not sure, what do you think?

I went to a job interview, and it went well. I really learned from the experience. Good news, I might be getting an income soon. Wouldn't that switch things up. But as always, any type of change is difficult at the start. It will be a challenge to balance family life with a full time job. I've been wanting this for such a long time though, it's time to make it happen. I finally have the chance to be one of the Big Girls with High Heeled Shoes on the Subway, you know what I mean? Aw man I'm actually so excited to get the chance to leave the reclusive life behind.

I have a lot of personal growth to do if I hope to do well at this job. A negative mindset really won't be helpful. Focusing on the positives is going to be important. Definitely taking time to get exercise in, to keep the energy up. Having a morning routine on lock-down, ready to go. Meals planned ahead. Yeah, the whole shebang.