#anxiety.

𝚈𝚘𝚞 𝚠𝚒𝚕𝚕.

~~ఌ~~

you will.

you will ace that test.

you will get a 100% on that exam.

you will write that essay well.

you will use proper grammar when writing out that paragraph.

you will.

you will get over your anxiety of not being good enough.

you will raise your hand and ask to go to the restroom in front of a class filled with thirty mean and dirty teens.

you will get up and take your test to the front of the class and place it on your teachers desk.

you will.

but what if you don't?

no. you will.

but what if you can't?

no. you will.

but what if you think everyone is laughing at you for the way you walk or the way you raise your hand?

you. will.

but you don't.

you don't ace that test.

you don't get an 100% on the exam.

you don't write that essay well.

you don't use proper grammar in that paragraph.

you don't get over your anxiety of not being good enough.

you don't raise your hand to go to the bathroom in front of the class filled with thirty mean and dirty teens.

you don't get up and take your test to your teachers desk in the front of the class.

you don't because you won't.

your head is filled with thoughts of what people will think if you walk weirdly, or what you wear, or if you smell bad.

every. single. thought.

your head is filled with doubts about yourself.

but why?

because you don't think you're good enough.

but you will.

eventually.

you. will.

a/n: okay, so a bit of notes if anyone reads this part, I wrote this poem a few months back after I switched into online schooling. It's about the constant thoughts that were running through my head the moment i stepped into the school building. Honestly, school just amplified my anxiety up to 100. I hated public school so much so that I had to write a poem to get my feelings out about it.

Don't get me wrong, i hate online school too, but if someone offered me a million dollars to go back to public.. I would not do that shit.

this feeling i have in my chest right now.

it feels like an air bubble, my heart racing, something in my throat and nausea with a touch of heartburn all at the same time.

i have to keep reminding myself to take deep breaths.

i have so much stress and anxiety and i don’t know why.