Antagonistic II
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Your heart races with each scroll and message you read. You swallow hard and turn the phone off placing it back onto the night stand. Your stomach feels terrible and your heart is racing faster than ever before, looking at hollis as he sleeps with out a problem in the world you use both of your hands to nudge his shoulder with enough force to awaken him.
"Get up" you nudge him a little hard this time which causes him to shift and rub his eyes.
"Hey" He smiles at you as he stretches his arms, his facial expression changes when he sees your face. The blanket falls down revealing his bare upper body as he sits up.
"whats wrong?" he furrows his brows.
"who's sienna." you hear the sound of your rapid heart beat through your ears. You fiddle with the tip of your thumbs arcylic nail in order to distract your self from all the emotions you were feeling.
"Baby..please" He stands up, his face pale.
"who the fuck is sienna hollis" you slightly push him causing him to stumble backwards.
"nobody" his voice raises slightly trying to convince you.
"She's obviously somebody if you told her you fucking loved her!" you wipe your eye to prevent your tear from being viewed by hollis but he knew.
"I love you..I only love you..just..please" he flails his arms up as he tries to explain him self to you but you knew better. He slowly begins walking towards you.
"can we talk, please." he reaches for you arm gently caressing it.
"talk about what? you cheating? how you promised me?" you remove his hand from your arm holding back tears.
Hollis stays silent not knowing what to say, after a few minutes passed of you both standing there in the presence of the tension between you two he takes a gentle step forward lifting your chin upward.
"I love you." He attempts to lean in to kiss you.
"Am I a joke to you?" you push him aside grabbing your purse from the bedroom floor making your way out to hollis's front door then slamming it shut.
"FUCK!" he covers his face with the palms of his hands.
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2 months later
You've completely blocked hollis on everything deleting posts and anything that involved him what so ever. You felt it was better to erase him from your life for the sake of your sanity. You might've been stalking him on your burner a few times to see what he's been up to, his music is starting to get a lot of recognition which makes you feel proud of him in a way, you remember the late nights you both shared when he would show you the beats and music he made and how he made them.
You missed him, you truly did miss him. But you knew it would be a horrible decision to run back into his arms. You miss the bickering, the horrible taste of cigarettes his mouth had, and his strong cologne that would linger every time he came over to your place, But you knew better you knew.
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4 months later
Out of curiosity you went on you instagram burner typing in Hollis's user name. His following increased by thousands and it honestly freaked you out a bit.
His story had a ring around it, with out thought you click it.
Your heart sinks, you knew it was you, you re watch it multiple times in order to process what was happening. You shut off your phone and head to your kitchen to get a glass of water to distract your self.
After you’ve calmed you re open your phone, unblocking Hollis.
Hollis what the actual fuck
You’re crazy
Move on
This shit is ridiculous
Fuck you
You turn off your phone and glide your hands through your hair letting out a deep breath trying to regulate your emotions.
You hear you phone buzz and immediately pick it up
miss u 2
“What?” You question Hollis out loud feeling your frustration rise. You throw your phone down and groan into your pillow
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6 months later
You haven’t communicated with Hollis for about 2 months now, you’re starting to get over him and move on. Your friends invited you to a club that was 2 hours away from your home town, it was a nice fancy one to be fair so it’s worth the drive.
You add the finishing touches to your make up then slide on your heels that were layed at your front door.
Lali
We’re outside!
Coming!
You grab your purse that was hanging at the front door entrance and walk up to your friends car. You see all three of your friends waiting for you as you approach the car.
“Hey beautiful” lali begins backing up from your driveway.
“Hey gorgeous” you wave at her giving her a wink.
You talk to your friend mila that is sitting next to you in the back seat as Lali and Emma talk to each other. A few minutes go by and Lali interrupts you and mila.
“Sooo y/n how are you and Hollis? I’ve been seeing his music everywhere lately and I need to know everything.” She looks at your through the rear view mirror and gives you a smile, she didn’t mean no harm but it felt like a knife in the heart to be honest. Your heart drops at the mention of his name, your stomach twisting with thoughts and feelings.
“We broke up actually..” you try to keep your tone neutral and mellow.
“What???” All three girls shout in unison.
“I’m so sorry..” Emma turns around to face you from the passenger seat her eyes full of empathy.
Mila grabs your hands squeezing it a bit.
“Fuck him he was a dick anyway” Lila takes a glimpse at you through the rear view mirror.
You give them a smile trying to be casual about the situation, waiting to get to the bar and forget about everything with a few drinks.
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You grab your purse and close the car door following behind your friends. As you all enter the music is blaring, there was two story’s and a lights that flashed constantly and it was pretty crowded.
You navigated your way through the crowd to the bar. Lucky enough there was a seat available, you sat down waiting for the bartender to approach you.
“What can I get you?” He leans against the counter.
“Sex on the beach please.” You grab your card from your purse handing it to him.
He lets out a slight chuckle as he taps your card onto the pay pad and hands it back to you.
“What’s so funny?” You smile as you put your card back into your purse.
“I’m just immature is all.” He grins as he begins prepping your drink.
His smile was cute his hair was short and brunette, his shirt white was pretty fitted it was clear he worked out.He shook your drink pouring it into a clear glass adding a lemon on the rim.
“One sex on the beach.” He winks at you giving you a witty grin as he hands you your drink.
“Thank you.” You grab your drink taking a sip watching him walk over to the next customer.
You turn your head around scanning the room to see if you spot your friends anywhere. The amount of people makes it impossible to try and spot at least one of your friends, you give up and decide to just sit at the bar until they text you and to be honest you kind of weren’t in the mood to dance and socialize with random people at the moment.
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After a few drinks you definitely felt each and every one that you consumed. You get up from the bar chair and try to find your friends. Your vision completely blurry and spinning you stumble and bump into every person that was near you. You couldn’t seem to find any of your friends they were probably drunk too dancing with some guys for all you knew.
You eventually find a corner that didn’t have many people and grab you phone from your purse to text Lila
Lxlu
Whee u aht
Whre re you
You try calling her but she doesn’t pick up, you do the same for Emma and mila but neither of them respond as well. You look around trying to find the exit and head towards the glass door that looks like where you entered from.
You open the door feeling the cold breeze you stumble as you try to find a wall to lean on to call an uber.
Your blurred vision slurs every app you see making it hard to figure out what you clicking, you then click the call button.
“Hello?” The voice on the other side low and raspy.
“Come get me please I..I don’t feel goo.” You wine against the phone.
“Where are you?” You hear keys jingle and a door being shut in the background.
“Uhmuh club.” You feel your head become heavy and slide down the wall onto the side walk sitting down with your back against the concrete wall.
“What club?” You hear a deep sigh and a car humming.
“The club the club the one with uhm lights and BIG oh my it’s BIG” you rant watching the cars fly by and staring at the headlights that were oddly mesmerizing.
“Can you like be more specific for me? Please?”
“Lights…and music is suppppperrrrr loud yeah loud” you tilt your head back keeping your phone by your ear.
“y/n the name baby what’s the name.” You hear the frustration over the phone.
You huff and his tone “I don’t knowwuhh stop being mad” you wine.
“I’m not mad, just try to walk over to the sign of something and tell me what it says.” You can tell he’s irritated which causes you to get up and stumble your way to the front of the club to read the sign.
It didn’t help that your vision slurred everything but you did your best to but together what made the most sense. “Cl-uh-buh- Nine zero?”
“I know where you are I’m on the way.”
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After about 2 hours you see a familiar black car approaching the curb.
Hollis
You were more aware than before but no better. You called Hollis. “Shit.” You lay your head against your knees hoping he would just disappear right now.
You hear clacking on pavement get closer and closer, you lift your head up to see Hollis, he was so beautiful right now it was annoying. He doesn’t say anything. He extends his hand for you to grab it in order to lift you up from the ground. You grab it his hand and stand up, you immediately let go afterwards and walk towards the passenger side, he opened the car door before you could even attempt to touch the handle, you get in rest your head against the leather seat.
Soon after he gets into the drivers seat and starts the car.
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You’ve both not said a word to each other for the past 30 minutes, you caught Hollis taking occasional glimpses at you from the corner of your eye but other than that minor one sided interaction it’s been silent.
You see Hollis blindly rummaging through the center console as he stares at the road, you know what he’s looking for, his cigarettes. Usually, you’d be the one handing him one and lighting it for him but not in this case.
He finally ends up grabbing one placing it between his lips, grabbing the lighter from the cupholder and lighting the cigarette.
You move your eyes from Hollis to the windshield, observing the cars and city lights.
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Hollis turns up the volume, driving with one hand as the other holds his cigarette. You loved this song and he knew it too.
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Hollis pulls into your drive way, you reach for the car door. “wait.” You stop and turn your head towards him still not saying a word.
“I-I’m sorry I’m so sorry…I miss you so fucking much.” His eyes look glossy almost like he wants to cry.
You analyze his face for a moment and open the car door.
“You shouldn’t have cheated then.” You slam the door shut and walk to your front door.
You grab your keys from your purse and unlock your front door. You walk into your house and drop your purse on the floor and make your way to your room. You put on your pajamas crashing into your bed trying to erase the thought of Hollis.
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You wake up to the sound of several notifications, you sit up rummaging your covers to find your phone. You grab your phone and look through the notifications
Lila
Did you see Hollis’s story???!!!
No???? What happened?????
Lila: 1 attachment
You immediately swipe out of you and Lila’s messages and click hollis’a name
delete the story
You’re a delusional ass bitch
move the fuck on
And @ sienna next time
Open your door
no
I’ll Delete the story if you do.
You groan walking to your front door, you open the door to see Hollis standing there with flowers and a blue box.
“What do you need?” You cross your arms, you were pissed at Hollis you despised him but you still had this place in your heart for him that you wish you could bury.
“You.” He gives you a cheesy ass smile
“I’m not in the mood for bullshit” you roll your eyes at him.
“Okay okay, can I just please come inside?” He pouts his lip teasingly .
“Whatever you need to say can be said out here.” You rest your hand on the door knob in preparation to close it if he says something idiotic.
“Fine.” He exhales handing you the flowers and blue box.
You grab them unwillingly and bike your inner cheek.
“Open it.” Rocking his hands in his pockets, he watches each movement you take. You look at the blue box that has a white ribbon around it, you pull the ribbon and open the box to find a diamond bracelet that shimmered.
“Oh..my.” You struggle to utter any other words, your eyes glued to the glistening bracelet.
“It’s beautiful, right?” His tone low, you can quite literally feel his eyes on you.
“Gorgeous.” You finally are able to remove your eyes from the bracelet and look directly at Hollis.
“Thank you..this still doesn’t disregard what you did if that’s what you wanted.” You close the box giving hollis a stern tone.
“I know..I know.” He lets out an awkward cough then looks at his surroundings.
“I just miss you so fucking much..it physically pains me, please just please give me one more chance and…I-i won’t fuck it up this time I promise I promise I really really promise.” His eyes become glossy and needy you can tell he truly means it by his demeanor.
“Okay.” You open your door a little wider enough for him to squeeze through, you shut the door as he walks in. As soon as you turn around hollis grabs your face and kisses you, his mouth tasted like a cigarette like it always did after he smoked, his cologne entering your nostrils making you melt against him. He guided you to your couch that was a few inches away from the two of you. He sat down still not letting go of your face, you straddled his lap deepening the kiss.
Soon after he pulls away and stares into your eyes "I fucking love you."
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