#answer tbd.

❝ ah, doctor Baizhu. good! good. uh, someone wanted me to tell you that you look very submissive & breedable today. not my words! nope! absolutely not. i would never. ❞

❥ ; @umbranatus​ │ unprompted .

          ❛ a - ❜

he is ... concerned . only mildly . but the concern is still there . of all the words & lines for others to use on him , breedable was most certainly not one of them . he isn’t sure if he should take pride or take offense to this . but more so to the subject at hand : he is contemplating on actually determining the validity of the other’s claim of them not being his words . if they were , then he would have preferred that kayn just outright say it . because if it were true , if these were not the man’s words , then who in the world had gone around to say that the doctor looked like the latter choice of words . 

submissive ? he could handle , the doctor was fine with . seeing as he can be at times . but breedable ? well .... this raised many questions .

         ❛ breedable ? ❜

          ❛ that is a new one . ❜   though he may be aghast by the vulgar term , the doctor shows very little negative response in it . he doesn’t particularly have anything in him to respond normally or even correctly . he is in shock . should he be angered ? or worried ? he doesn’t know . luckily his patience with the chaotic civilians of liyue has given him the ability to remain calm , even in times of duress or shock .

instead , he choses to mildly entertain to other in order to get a better understanding of the situation . 

❥ ; health pt. 2B

original post about his health & mentality on it . health pt. 2A  health pt. 2C

foolish of you to assume he struggles .

alright , all jokes aside . it depends . are you asking on a physical level ? or on a mental level ? it also depends on the time of day as well i suppose or whatever mood he is in . but for a general standpoint ? i would like to think he actually handles it very well actually ! for the most part . 

he definitely is pretty calm about it for a majority of the time depite the impending doom of death . do not get me wrong , he is absolutely terrified , but sometimes he refuses to acknowledge it . ( just pretend your problems don’t exist right ? ) not at all healthy to do , but he does it nonetheless .

he does have bad days , like many others . & when those bad days hit , it is nothing but paranoia , sadness , & fear . he wants to live ! he is quite young for who he is , but he has never been able to have just a day to simply .... breathe . but he doesnt bother to stop for a moment becuase he doesn’t have that luxury of time . but i digress .

on a mental level ? depends on which mentality we are looking at . again , mostly , he handles it pretty well ! i think subconsciously he knows that fretting will not help his situation & only worsen his condition , so he stays calm about it . but sometimes his mind likes to :) about it and do a lot a subtle & ‘ gentle ’ reminders about it .

on a physical level , i would say he’s doing better than what most others would handle it . he’s doing good . maybe not so great , but still good . sometimes he forgets that he has anything wrong with him . & we all know that if it weren’t for gui & qiqi talking about it , nobody would have known that he is actually sick . but he doesn’t make it a secret about it , just nobody asks . again , i have gone off about it but ..

look , it is like this . the whole reason for his research in everlasting life , is so he doesn’t have to struggle with his mortality . ( but that is something i also mentioned in my original post about it as well . ) either way , you can’t think about your fragility if you are focused on your research right ? he just plain refuses to sit back and & die though , he doesn’t accept it . that part is clear just in how he puts effort in keeping qiqi safe & happy . he genuinely wants that . his concerns & struggles are definitely on the back burner .

❥ ;  @hauntics - pt. 1 │ amphy style icons ! ( slowly acpt . )  

i will get to zhongli eventually . i had worked on his icons a couple of days ago , but didn’t like how they came out so i scrapped it for now . i decided to at least give you albedo though ! i have yet to actually do his quest in the game , but once i do , i will have more caps for you to make ! i actually like how these came out though ! i hope you do too .

❥ ;  @fluminas │ amphy style icons ! ( slowly acpt . )  

of course ! i don’t mind at all ^^ 

i have noticed that barbara’s best caps are when you are actually having the game run in real time rather than going to the stats page most of the time . regardless though ! i tried ? to get that softness for her ? i think i did okay ? i also tried to get her eyes to pop out a bit . it really depends on the lighting but i think its a good one for her !

❥ ; @viraga​ │ amphy style icons ! ( acpt . )

tried working on some darker purples for you i dont know if i like the border color all that much , i might try to get it to a closer purple as the one in the icons . so this one is still experimental ! ( ok so update , i actually did make the purple darker for you there , but i am not re - saving / re - uploading the icons heh ... )

“You know, you should try to be a little friendlier to people. It wouldn’t hurt.”

❥ ;  @hauntics​​  -  albedo │ misc .  ( accepting )

ah  ,  well  the  scientist  most  certainly  knew  exactly  where  to  get  under  skin  the  doctor  with  just  a  simple  statement  .  though  whether  it  was  on  purpose  or  just  by  chance  still  seemed  to  be  in  question  .  he  wouldn’t  put  it  past  somebody  who  was  struggling  with  own  humanity  to  try  to  deflect  it  towards  another  as  a  means  to  avoid  pressure  .  or  maybe  he  was  simply  just  too  daft  .  yet  how  can  a  young  man  with  absolutely  no  social  skills  to  boast  about  dare  to  make  a  comment  on  how  baizhu  should  treat  others  ?

an  attack  ,  of  course  ,  on  character  .  yet  he  stood  there  unfazed  by  the  comment  .  instead  the  slightest  wry  smile  drew  thinly  on  lightly  pressed  lips  .  if  albedo  was  looking  for  a  reaction  ,  it  wasn’t  going  to  be  any  sort  that  would  cause  the  man  to  lash  out  .  nay  ,  his  patience  was  far  greater  than  that  for  a  childish  remark  . 

         ❛ you mean more than what i already do as a physician ? ❜

despite  not  being  too  keen  on  trying  to  change  ,  he  was  ,  however  ,  inclined  to  take  suggestions  on  how  to  seemingly  treat  those  around  him  better  than  he  had  been  -  if  there  was  room  for  improvement  that  was  .  wouldn’t  ( shouldn’t )  take  what  had  been  said  to  heart  too  greatly  ,  for  what  was  somebody  like  the  other  to  really  do  or  say  on  the  matter  ?  both  had  their  inhuman  traits  about  themselves  .  not  that  he  was  open  about  himself  as  much  as  the  other  had  been  ,  but  !  to  each  their  own  .

       ❛ pray tell then , my ingenious acquaintance . for i do not think i know what you mean by that ? can you show me ? ❜

eyes  narrowed  ever  so  slightly  .  he  knew  .  he  knew  in  some  regard  at  the  very  least  .  but  it  was  a  warning  .  as  much  as  he  appreciated  the  young  man  for  their  similarities  &  their  casual  discussion  of  morbid  topics  ,  there  were  some  things  that  should  not  be  crossed  without  permission  .  &  today  baizhu  did  not  have  the  energy  to  play  games  .  he  was  not  doing  to  well  at  the  moment  to  be  cornered  without  warning  .

i’ve been made aware , yea , when i went to remake on an old account and was trying to clean up stuff . not sure what to do as that’s private but like if they wanna cry and assume things . that’s on them . i’m honestly really disappointed & upset . especially since they clearly see it in a completely different light than i do but i cant control how they feel . they’re wrong , and they never wanted to listen to my concerns cause thats not what i got upset about but . i’m also not going to argue & discuss it with a wall . especially since one of the individuals involved owes me like 500+ in money cause i had loaned them out money to pay for food / bills / etc. ( & they would consistently come & ask me for more . )  and im really not lying . i have the paypal receipts & dms for proof .

dont think i need to go on about this . but i can if i have to . 

as for your other thing . i have constantly changed names since 2010 cause i never liked my penname for very long . i normally change out every 1 to 2 years . when i found one i did like ( lasted i think like 4 or 5 years ? ) , it was too femme for my taste ( though my partner and several of my smite friends still call me that ) . i was hesitant on using ghost at the time cause i dont like using names of old friends , but when i asked one of my smite friends ( his name is seth ) what he thought i could me as a supernatural thing , he said ghost . and i had 2 other people who had agreed . lmfao . i figured , well i guess since i already know people with the same names , then it wouldn’t hurt to use ghost . i wasn’t doing it cause of them . i literally did it due to what seth said . but i dont particularly care if people use my old pennames with me . people still use amphy , i dont care . people still use my femme name , i don’t care . hell . somebody still uses my old penname from 2016 . i do not give a shit . i just prefer ghost because seth said that i have tendencies to act like a ghost from time to time due to vanishing and reappearing . which is true . i have friends from 2012 that i will like not talk to for years and then message them out of the blue and check up on them  & see how they are doing . thats what i do . that is quite literally it . 

salt.

anybody who thinks its a forced interaction is smoking something. cause I do agree with reblog karma immensely. so much to the point that even if i don’t reblog from the person ( and i reblog from the source ) i STILL send them something. it’s honestly just common curtesy and its decency. like if i follow you, then i wanna interact so obviously im gonna expect reblog karma.

maybe not as much as a level as me, but again, its called common decency to send in an ask. like you are posting it, you are asking for something. it kinda miffs me a bit when i see people reblogging from the source, then they get asks, but then i dont get any and its like. at that point, i may as well have just have been a prompt source lol.