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"Love was the law, religion was taught"
If only people could see how pure that love is,
How much joy it brings to someone.
My love is not wrong.
Your mindset is.
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"Love was the law, religion was taught"
If only people could see how pure that love is,
How much joy it brings to someone.
My love is not wrong.
Your mindset is.

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January 1st 2016
HAPPY NEW YEAR! Wooo. How was the last day of your 2015. me? I spent the day in the office and on new year’s eve I was in my room read a novel, playing piano tiles and watching Me and Earl and Dying Girl girl with a jar full of chips until I felt asleep. It was perfect.
Well, It was not. hahahaha. I’d rather be in island resort, sitting on the sand, watching firework. But since I’m broke, it seems really far from reality. Nonetheless, 2015 has been so good to me. Some of my dreams came true. I met some amazing people, went to places I’ve never been before, experienced new things, and became my country ambassador in international program (which was one of my childhood dreams), I am really thankful for that. And I hope 2016 will be nicer!Â
In 2016, I want to do more. In few years I would enter my midlife (which is very daunting, I’m not ready to not be called youth), so it will be better to me to optimize my time and try to figure my life out. I think I’ve had enough with my current job, it feels really tedious with same routines over and over again. I hope Ministry will accept me, so at least I can move and work in the field I am passionate about.  Actually, there’s nothing wrong with my current job. I’m not very busy in office so I still have some time to live up my life, the salary is okay (compared to what I do). But somehow it’s not my calling. Then I want to move to bigger city, this small town is not enough to live up my dream. It appears to me that very healthy to live far away from the place we was born in. It will make us more independent.. and free. Beside that, I want to make more money so I can provide better life for my parent, they deserve that. I want to see them stop working so hard and live peacefully without financial issues. I want to be 100% healthy without back and chest pain so I can go work out again. I want to get scholarship to continue my education.. etc etc. So many things I want to do in 2016... but I am very sleepy to write it right now. Yet I have to wake up early for a jog.
Bye now, good night! again, Happy New Year!
December 24th 2015
Few days ago, I got the email from a professional fellowship program I have applied. And they told me that I didn’t make it this year. It was very sad since I really really hope I can join this prestigious program. The program was about civic engangement internship in US which I thought very relevant with my job and education background. I started to think what was wrong with my application, was I not good enough for this program? It’s my speciality to pondering something, especially when I met failure like this. All the failures I made in my entire life suddenly popped in my head. How I got two letters of rejection for my novel from two of my favorite publisher this year, then my previous dysfunctional relationship which didn’t turn out the way I wanted it to, and why didn’t they accept me in medical school eight years ago? am I that stupid? am I a failure?
I know. It is very unhealthy to blame yourself of a failure you made. I tried so much to stop this excruciating habit. I realized that I feel this way because I always set very high expectation for every single thing I do. It is not possible to live up such a high standard for every single little things without a margin of error. We all imperfect. All we can do is giving our best and if our best is not good enough, that means we have to learn more and improve. And instead of blaming yourself for this dismal failure, it will be better for me to start to learn more, improve and prepare myself to be a better applicant next year.Â
Everything is possible if we keep trying. And a failure doesn’t define you at all.
he was there, I was there...standing in front of each other, heads down, thinking if what we have is enough...or is it better to, turn our backs to some years of love and hate affair.
Happy lang, walang ending.
Habang ako'y nagbabasa ng Chubby: Weight doesnt matter na sinulat nang aking paboritong author/writer na si marcelosantosiii nanonood rin ako ng Shrek 2 sa TV5. Ganun ako, pag nagbabasa ako, kailangan may magstimulate sa mga senses ko para di ako mabore sa binabasa ko. Kaya pag nagcommercial, dun ulit ako magbabasa. Sa kapapanood ko sa Shrek 2, marami akong napagtanto tungkol sa Happy Ever After. 1. Una sa lahat, naniniwala ako sa happy ever after (dahil na rin siguro sa kapapanood ko sa mga fairytales na yan o iba't-ibang love stories) pero mas naeenganyo akong panoorin yung mga bigo sa pag-ibig, mga imposibleng magkaroon o makahanap ng tunay na pag-ibig, yung dalawang taong ipinaglalaban ang lahat para lang sila'y magkatuluyan kahit ang labo-labo na. Hindi yung dahil sa fairy godmother nila e, may true love na sila. Hindi ganun ang true love. Sa pinapanood ko ngayon (dahil ongoing pa ang palabas), nakasentro lahat kay fairy godmother. Kumbaga siya ang nagcocontrol kung sino ang magkakatuluyan sa istorya. Pero di dapat ganun diba? Di naman natin kailangan ng fairy godmother para lang may masasabi tayong true love. Dahil ang true love, nanjan na yan. Ang kailangan lang natin gawin ay hanapin ito o hintayin ito dahil darating at darating ang true love. Hindi yung pinagpipilitan natin na mamahalin rin tayo ng taong gusto natin. Kaya.. 2. Ang pangalawang napagtanto ko ay kaya siguro maraming tao ngayon na nasasaktan, nahihirapang magmove on o di kaya di na nainiwala sa love (kasi sobra siyang nasaktan) ay dahil sa paniniwala sa happy ever after nila. Ginagawa nila lahat ng effort, pag-uunawa at lalong-lalo na ang magpakatanga para magkaroon lang ng happy ever after, pero anong nangyayari? Walang happy ever after. Dahil sa paniniwala nito sa fairy tale at true love, ang di nila alam, di siya yung true love. Kumbaga, dumaan lang sila sa buhay nila para sabihing walang true love. Dahil sa sakit na tinira nila sa kanila. Sabi nga ni Fiona, tulad daw ng ibang prinsesa, ang tanging hangad lang niya ay ang maging lumigaya despite sa kanyang anyo. Kung may magmamahal ba sa kanya dahil sa kanyang itsura. Ganun tayo diba? 3. Mas iniisip natin ang physical na anyo natin kung may magmamahal sa atin. Sabi nila, ang maganda para lang sa gwapo at mga pangit ay para sa mga kapwa nila pangit. Di nama makatarungan yun, dahil ang true love ay di nakikita sa anyo kung dahil sa tinitibok ng puso. Pero sa panahon ngayon, ganun na ang paniniwala sa karamihan ng mga tao. Ang mayaman para lang sa mayaman, ang dukha ay para sa dukha sabi pa nila. Di ganun ang true love. Diba nagkatuluyan naman sina Maya at Ser Chief kahit sobrang layo ng agwat ng yaman nila. Di yun naging hadlang para sa pagmamahalan nila. That's true love. Kaya siguro tayo pinanghihinaan ng loob ay sa mga paniniwalang yan. Kung di na lang kasi natin isipin na someday, someone, anyone will love to have a happily ever after with you. Think positive. 4. At huli, dapat ang true love, happy lang walang ending. Ibig sabihin ang love niyo dapat ay hindi natatapos. Kung masaya ka ngayon, dapat all the way masaya kayo. Di niyo iniisip ang future dahil ang mahalaga ang present. Ba't mo kasi iisipin ang pa ito kung kusa na lang itong darating. Isa pa, huwag na isama ang past dahil sigurong magkakaproblema rin kayo pag isinama pa ito. Dapat pag nagmahal ka, kalimutan na ang past at wag intindihin ang future. Sabi nga ni Vice, go lang ng go! At tandaan, ang buhay ay weather-weather lang. Sarap siguro maging action star. Haha. Now showing on Tv5, Wanted! Haha.

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