#anothermelon

i'd be lying if i said i understand EVERYTHING about guys

but right now i cant really pinpoint anything that confuses me

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he has black hair, so lush it makes me sad that i cannot feel it through my fingers. he has a goofy smile, the first time i seen it, i felt the need to make him smile at least once everyday. the first day we started talking, i said good night and we spoke for 30 minutes after that, because good byes are the hardest, and i didnt know it then, but he is the same guy that complains if i pull all nighters, maybe its him caring? maybe he thinks im talking to another? but in reality im sitting on tumblr, im seeing couples, and quotes and these sweet things, and all i can think about is how handsome he must be looking with his head resting on his pillow, and his blanket over turned 

then i think about how it would be if i were with him, laying beside him with his muscular arms wrapped around me as if there were no war in the world that could remove the peace in that moment

he's music taste is amazing, i wonder if he'd like mine, maybe some day we could spend the night listening to our favourite songs and talk about our lives how it was, and how it would be

he still doubts how i feel about him, whether it is real or not, and i sometimes question if he really finds me special

we're not on an i love you basis, but every now and again he'll say it, or i will, and i promise you, no matter what happens for the rest of the day i smile, my heart smiles, my eyes smile, i am happy

and my crush, he is an open book where as some of my pages are stuck together, he's managed to pull them apart to read the hidden messages, he knows my secrets like no other, not silly secrets like how i drink milk before i go to bed, but the kind of secrets i have to guts to share with anyone, my deepest fears, the ones that make me cry at 3am, craving for someone to hold me 

and wow, there is so much more to him, the glimmer in his eyes, his buzz cut hair, how he compliments me, im his steak and he is my nugget, i think we arent hungry for food, more for each other

sometimes im on my laptop and i hear my phone buzz, and i'll drop everything just to reply his text, other times we'll call each other but it ends in bad network error, hello hello helloooo, can u hear me now? i can hear you but can u hear me?

maybe just once, i'd like to talk to him without any added problems, but i am here and he is there, and i sometimes find the world unfair

and even tho i'm scared to fall for him, i have a feeling he'll catch me, and if even a hair on my body is hurt, i feel like he'd care for me day and night

i'm not good with ending these things but yesh this is my crush and even tho he doesnt believe it,  he is handsome in everything he does, his character and his looks and he has my heart under lock and key 

OH GOODNE SS B LESS YOU YOU PERF PERSON

GHDGHDS GGJ 

t HAN K YOU VER Y MUCH