#annorexia

I hate how even though I’m supposed to be gaining weight, I keep losing more weight and I’m still for some reason excited about it

I hate just eating snacks all day, rarely getting myself to finish meals

I hate not knowing what a normal amount is anymore

I hate having fear foods

I hate not liking certain things I used to love anymore and being scared of fucking numbers

And I hate insomnia I just wanna sleep

I’m so tired of crying from the smallest things

I’m so tired of being tired all the time

I hate school and having to wake up early

I hate how my uniforms and most of my clothes fit oddly too big on me, making me look weird

I hate how I can’t gain weight