#angelo.text

By celestial body alive through belief

Of solace denied, she begs and she pleads

Treads over longing, moss and debris

Speaks to decievers in amethyst skin

Begs them to tell her where she has been

Mimetic child, pray, where is your home?

In the pulsating, permeating rythm

In the shimmering darkness

In the mist of sweat

Faint, glittering chimes, metallic accessories sway and jerk in discordant unison

You are a part of a bigger organism

Here, you can reach out and feel the cellular wall

if you let it

And i want

To sink

Who am i to decide the guilt i carry

Is not mine to bear

Reaching upwards

towards the surface

Far too insolent an undertaking

(insubordination; hubris)

I ache to be lifted out

Of what i dare not strive to leave

Petrified by the spectre

Of beastly eyes

Observing

Above a rippling one way mirror

My teeth now serve as allegory

  Lips pull back, reveal a

story

Jaws clenched tight around my tongue

  Cheeks sucked in, by molars

stung

Incisors chipping further yet

  Canines ground til nothing's

left

How strange to see

  that smile again

How sharp it stings

  to know what's been

I used to burn so fucking bright

A pyre built of fresh cut

pine

fragrant, crackling fire burns

capricious, lively child

still yearns

Like those sparks i used to singe

Like that smoke i used to

linger

I only wanted to be harmless

   Try not to think about it

Try harder

   Try more

Try harder to be human

   Try harder to be palatable

Try harder