2 months ago I was diagnosed with Multiple Schlerosis

3 days after that diagnosis, I was fired from my job.

I've been searching almost constantly for work, but little so far. I have already filed a lawsuit for my employer violating the Americans With Disabilities Act and the case is ongoing, my lawyer was confident last I'd checked.

I've had 2 MRI's one of my brain and another of my neck and my spine. There's some evidence of demyelination at the base of my neck, and she has formally diagnosed it as Progressive MS, which means if I want peace from flare ups, I can hang it up. I don't get remission.

I absolutely should be asleep, I'm gonna have to set alarms because they're dropping off the steroids tomorrow after 8 some time, so I'll need to be up early to sign for them. At least this one comes in an applicator rather than a regular needle so it should hopefully be less painful.

But upon reading my file, I discovered that she was able to change a diagnosis I've spent almost ten years trying to fix!

I don't have to worry about a bipolar diagnosis that's brought me nothing but the wrong medication and nightmares.

I'm sure the difference between them is negligible at best, but bipolar is a chemical balance, it's happenstance.

She changed it to BPD, which I do agree with. I display those symptoms, but I wasn't made that way. I was traumatized. Horrifically, and that's the difference, and having a doctor see that and call it out for being there was-- somethin' /pos

Chat I also have a boyfriend now?? And he knows about my DID??? AND WE'VE SAID I LOVE YOU??

Maze is having a blast most of the time making me blush. I never should've let them be able to talk to each other, they've unified against me now

I'd be lying if I said I didn't like it though..

So the first day of the shadow phase is a net 0???

Fuck it I'll take it.

That's mostly it for now, Maze and I spent the night chilling and repairing spoons while fortifying my soul for tomorrow, probably about to head to bed.