#andtheworldahead

I feel this so strongly nearly every night, definitely if you can change your environment, do it. even if it’s just sitting outside and listening to around you. idk. whatever you can do.

I feel like I need to be doing something and sitting and listening isn't really fitting that. Like I could maybe go for a walk but even that seems too calm. Driving fits it a lot better and hey hot chocolate is always good so after I finish my pasta I'm gonna go do that I think

I took some time to chill out and Ari and I hugged a lot and I slept for like 10 hours and I'm feeling a lot better now. Thanks for having my back.

Also can we all appreciate my youngest sister's response battle cry:

They fuck with you or Ari, they fuck with me. I guess if they want to skip along humming the ignorant tune and believing there are no consequences, they can go ahead, but I'm sure as heck not going to reinforce it with my presence.

 let me tell you a story: back in the day when I used to do rpgs there was a site called the marriage plot and the rp description was something like "the government now pairs people into arranged marriages" and for years I thought that was the plot of this book and I'm actually disappointed that it's not, because that would have been BETTER

tyrhannahsaurus said: bummer. i loved middlesex. was hoping to like marriage plot.

I mean you still might? clearly some people do! but the characters are so thoroughly unlikeable and the narration is so weirdly detached-psychologist-esque that it just feels like such a slog to me. 

YAY! I'm so glad your Dr was on board with starting you right away! I'd pick a day where you can celebrate properly afterword. Like, if it's nice enough go on a long walk or go out to eat or something.

Thanks for all the nice replies on my post about seeing the doctor, everybody!! And yeah, B, you have the right idea! I'm going on Friday after work, and then I'm gonna come home and Ari and I are gonna celebrate somehow! Dinner out, maybe? COUPLES MASSAGE?? (I could really use a massage, man. All this stress in my shoulders, uffda.)

:3

I relate to this entire post so so so so much. I feel insecure about having to prove myself either way! It obviously doesn’t matter to my partner b/c he is the best, but somehow the pressure from others is still there!

dayum, my friend

you have no idea.