#andreiledit

— andrew didn't budge beneath his weight. he was something solid to lean against, something violent and fierce and unmoving. neil couldn't remember what it felt like to have someone hold him up. It was terrifying and liberating all at once.

andrew kissed him like this was a fight with their lives on the line, like his world stopped and started with neil’s mouth.

“thank you,” he finally said. he couldn't say he meant thanks for all of it: the keys, the trust, the honesty, and the kisses. hopefully andrew would figure it out eventually. “you were amazing.”

— the foxhole court (2012)

He couldn't say he meant thanks for all of it: the keys, the trust, the honesty and the kisses. Hopefully Andrew would figure it out eventually.

you were supposed to be a side effect of the drugs.

↳ if you have to keep asking because—i'll answer it as many times as you ask. but this is always going to be yes. 

The more he falls for Neil the more he hates Neil, because Neil is the one thing in the world that could destroy him, and Andrew isn’t ready for that. He just doesn’t realize yet he’s too late to stop it.