whatever our souls are made of

Nah, fuck that, CRICKET BAT 🏏 🏏🏏🏏*SMACK*

🏏🏏🏏🏏🏏🏏🏏🏏🏏🏏🏏🏏🏏🏏🏏🏏🏏🏏🏏🏏🏏*SMACK*🏏🏏🏏🏏🏏*SMACK*🏏🏏🏏🏏🏏🏏🏏🏏🏏🏏🏏🏏🏏🏏🏏🏏🏏🏏🏏🏏🏏🏏🏏*SMACK*🏏🏏🏏🏏🏏🏏🏏🏏🏏🏏🏏🏏🏏🏏🏏🏏🏏🏏🏏🏏🏏🏏🏏🏏🏏*SMACK*🏏🏏🏏🏏🏏*SMACK*🏏🏏🏏🏏🏏🏏🏏🏏🏏🏏🏏🏏🏏🏏🏏🏏🏏🏏

But Neil? Andrew is what saves Neil. Andrew saves him in so many ways, but mainly by giving him the strength to stop running and by forcing him to own himself (Take the contact lenses out! Lean into the attitude problem!! Bury Nathanial in Baltimore!!!).

So Neil knows that the only thing that will save Andrew is Andrew himself. Getting sober, finding his own things to want, building his own life. Neil isn't the only person who loves Andrew, but he is the only person who trusts Andrew to be himself, who trusts that Andrew does have feelings and the capacity to wish good things for himself.

Kevin says "I will give Andrew something to build his life around"; Neil replies "we should give him something of his own".

Nicky doesn't think that Andrew is good enough to date Renee; Neil doesn't understand why Andrew wants him, but he's buzzed at the idea of Andrew wanting anything at all.