I normally have blended parts co-fronting or co-conscious at any given time. This gives me a general sense of normalcy and consistency of self.
And then there's days when a protector gets triggered and shoves the "less functional, more emotional" parts into the corner and I'm in a severely defensive state.
And, most often, calming the protector is followed by a rapid resurgence of the more emotionally vulnerable parts. And I feel so sad and so crazy and so worn out.
Like most days I could believe that I'm just making up being a system and then this shit humbles me to the core.
Anyway, this just happened again and I'm so tired.