#anamosity

Its my birthday and your name lingers in the air. The stress, the animosity, and the distain. Why are you like this. Why has your mind shaped me into a villian. Why do you constantly slander my name through your thoughts and actions. Manipulating the only constant in our lives. I know, no. I hope it is only a matter of time before you ruin that too but i hate waiting. I hate that we are still connected. That i will have to see you, again in this lifetime. That i will have to treat you with civility and respect when you won't. I hate that you have polluted my heart will a hatred i can't seem to shake. It weighs me down and chokes the breath out of me. It makes me what to scream and cry as it suffocates me. I don't know what to do. I've never felt this way before. All i can muster are these pages. In writing my heart out. hoping it will purge you from my mind and heart. It's all i have and it's all you've left me with.