#amnesia reader

• Final Fantasy VII • Oneshot •

> Hurt/Comfort

> Gender-Neutral Reader

> Reader has amnesia

> Pre-established relationship

It always hurt.

When he lost someone, it hurt more than any wound he received. He could heal what bled with materia and potions, but the hole left behind by those slipped through his fingers? There was nothing.

When you had lost your memory, it was like being lodged somewhere deep and dark. You were here, and also you weren’t. He didn’t know whether to grieve or to hope. One moment, he thought maybe you came back, but then you’d go back to being lost and he’d silently mourn. He wanted to be supportive, but at the same time, he was scared of getting his hopes up. He was stuck between two blades, each slashing at his slowly fraying heart.

The rest of Avalanche could see it. Tifa especially, the way Cloud tried to hide it. He didn’t want to bring anyone else into his mess, but it didn’t take long for him to take solace in whatever advice they could give. He was desperate at this point because it’d been weeks.

> “Don’t lose hope. They’re just taking it slow. They’ll remember you in time. All of you.”

> “Yeah, and then you could go back to loudly making out at 3am.”

> “Yuffie!”

> “What?”

The loss of affection did sting.

The way you tensed up during a hug. Blinked confusedly at subtle advances you’d known like the back of your hand. The way you said you weren’t comfortable with kissing just yet.

He had grown out of past insecurities and difficulties with loving you long ago, and every time you touched it felt like a reward. A reason to keep going. Keep trying. But now, it felt harder to when you didn’t want it. He felt like he was pushing a boundary. It made it tempting to default to his old, stoic self.

But he wouldn’t, because, where would your reward be? With all your hard work of trying to remember, it was only fair he’d be waiting with open arms. After all, you did the same for him.

Sighing, he nodded slowly as he took in Tifa’s words. Either too tired to care about Yuffie’s comment, or didn’t find it in him to deny it.

If you were really taking it slow, he could wait. He’d made you wait with his cold shoulders and nonchalant words. A pain that didn’t bleed, but stuck sore with the feeling of being rejected. He couldn’t shoulder it, but he felt the need to the more he thought about what you did for him. And about you as a whole.

Frankly, he didn’t even have to shoulder it all alone. Slowly, he felt he could afford leaning on the others here and there while traversing this new territory. And somewhere along the way, perhaps he could guide you back to them. To him.

It was all worth it in the end, when he saw that smile. That knowing look in your eyes when tears drew down your face like memories resurfacing.

You remembered the day Cloud confessed. You’d been getting small glimpses here and there about your love life with him, but this was the last piece. The most important piece.

He’d been a blushing mess, and just like then, you cupped his cheeks. Something warm, positive and right swelling in your chest as you gently kissed him on the nose. Remembering how nice it felt to feel his skin on your lips and hands. How it felt to have him look in your eyes like you were his everything. It didn’t feel foreign anymore, it felt like coming home after a long trip away. Tears of his own slipped from between his lashes, and with a gentle laugh you thumbed them away.

> “Sorry for making you wait.”

> “It’s fine. I finally found you…that’s all that matters…”

But before I do, here's some(crappy) lineart of my favorite scenarios(reader x yandere!skekzok and homeless reader x skeksa), skektek being wooed(by someone who isn't me I swear *sweats*) and of course dear, sweet, and very unluckly scardy cat reader, because it seems like everyone and their fizzgig adores her.

(I can't draw skeksis so plz forgive me orz)

(I’m feeling better atm so I think I can answer this one well enough)

(also I assume you mean readers, though they are all gender neutral save for Emmelyn(female), and I(genderfluid so either male or female)

In truth it would be a bit jumbled. When the Urskeks split, it was when the crystal was pure, and they themselves were trying to purify the evils within their souls. 

So, putting this into perspective, a darkened crystal would certainly bring about a different outcome, or maybe similar. I’d assume the split would be by accident more than purpose, so whatever the reader was thinking would heavily dictate how the split would be like(So if one wished they were stronger, one half would get all the strength and the other would be all the traits that they see as ‘weak’)

The way the Skeksis and Urru look kinda remind me of Thra itself, so  I would fathom a guess the human splits would look similar to some being or two similar to thra itself…whether that means similar to skeksis or gelfling I’m not sure.

Maybe they look pretty similar to their original selves, maybe not. I’ll try to draw some concept arts if I can (or if others can because you guys are far more creative in that department)

As for what the babes would be like if they were split(I know they would not have their memories, but I assume they would still hold quirks that came from their past and memories, though they wouldn’t know why), I’m going to go with the conventional Urru/SkekSis split-

Emmelyn: Her split would be based upon her caring nature. Because of this her ‘skeksis’ half would take on the more destructive and protective nature of it, to near suffocating for the ones she places her protection over. Her temper would be short and anyone who dares hurt or tease the ones she’d protect would get an earful

However, her Urru half would be a lot calmer, wishing instead to help better the ones she cares for. She would hold a protective nature over them, but in a more subtle, self sacrificing way. She’d go through fire for them, and basically be a parental figure to all the others.

Morgan: Skeksis half would certainly be more like a pirate, ruthless and brutal, enjoying the life’s pleasures, unabashed, and nearly obnoxious. They’d drink until drunk and shout songs at the top of their lungs until they lose their voice

Their Urru half would be more reserved. They would be as tough as nails but also take pleasure in the smaller, easier parts of life. Instead of sailing or adventuring they’d be swimming about pools of water, soaking up sun, and living their best life

Miriam: probably one of the more similar to their original self before the split. The ‘darker’ half would probably be more snarky, less afraid and more willing to speak out. This side probably tends to hide in the darkness well and notice every little detail of the world, but maybe not the people themselves. 

The ‘lighter/urru’ half would be pretty much good ole’ scardy cat, but with a lot more fear. They’d hide often and be a bit overly fearful of the world around them, but a master of hiding and being undetected. This side would be better at reading others, and their voice would be so soft it would sound more like the wind.

Aarya: Honestly I feel like their illness would be the main reason for their split, since it has taken up so much of their life. 

What I mean by this is- One half would be all that feared and loathed it, the one who grasps for life, for a cure, for anything to allow them to survive longer, and live like a normal being. They’d probably also try to ignore it, going about their day as if they never were born with it, even if it causes them to faint and fall terribly ill.

Their ‘good’ half would be the part that fully accepts it, knowing it will happen and all they can do now is accept it and enjoy the life they have now. The most in tune with the world around them, they would appreciate all the simplistic parts of life. Probably would give the best advice as well, full of knowledge beyond their years.

Talliesin: Their skeksis half would most likely be rather…loathing of life, for its wrongfulness, for what it had done to them.For the split, for the fact they are connected to another being that looks similar to them but isn’t. They are bitter, and tend to grumble and sulk more often than not. Their music is harsher, and can send anyone into angered frenzy if they wish

Their urru half would be similar to Ursol, but instead of being able to control thra, they would influence the emotions of others- Their music can comfort, heal, bring safety to those who are scared. They would be a parental figure, similar to Emmelyn, though they would be the one to cheer them up, bring them happiness.

Artemis: Strength would be both halve’s strong suit. The Skeksis half would be more of a war like being, enjoying the thrill of overpowering their enemies, but would also tend to bully anyone who annoys them(SkekSIl). They always enjoy proving themselves to be the strongest, and will constantly get into any and all fights to show off their strength.

Their UrRu would be much calmer. They would still be strong, but they’d inherit their calmer nature, the playful and chill side. They would often help out with lifting things, but they’d prefer enjoying life and such than constant battle. 

Both sides are still Ace AF

and Ariel(me, I’m not sure if you wanted me or not but others have so why not?):

To put it simply…since I’m me and not a character, there’s a lot more aspects for me to consider(especially when it comes to childhood trauma and mental illnesses)..but i’ll try to simplify it the best I can:

My skeksis half would be the one to internalize all the hatred and abuse taken, and instead throwing it back onto the world with a roar. I’ll make this one a he. 

He, would most likely be the most chaotic, strong but uncontrollable. He hates seeing weakness and refuses to allow himself to feel sorrow or pain, which only worsens his own conditions. He has a hatred for being talked down upon, or ordered around, which leads to a lot of misbehaving and punishments. When he is belittled or talked down upon, made to feel weaker or insignificant, he will snap, roaring and willing to rip out the throat of the one who spoke to him like that. He would have constant anxiety, yet ignore it. He’d probably have all my bad coping mechanisms, and a constant fear and thoughts of death, always weighing upon his mind. He is, however fiercely protective of the ones he cares for. He will inherit all my fighting and strength

My Urru half would probably be rather…bad as well. She’d have my depression and other problems. Anyone who raises their voice at her will send her into a panic, curling up and crying for forgiveness. She doesn’t know *why* it sends her into such a panic, but it does. She always doubts herself, always feels like she isn’t good enough.

She if often within her own world, her mind being her main solace, and when not, often contemplate life and death and what it means, maybe if anyone would miss her if she left… She would certainly inherit my musical and acting talents, preferring to make music about fantastical worlds than fight. In fact, she would hate fighting. She would be a pacifist at heart. She would care for even the smallest of animals, crying if they perished, whether or not if she could help them or not.

One thing bother would share is their hatred of being alone. That’s when the darker thoughts creep in, and Urru me would often seek out another to hold and hug during the night, if not she’d awaken shortly after from a nightmare or unable to sleep. SkekSis me would try to ignore it, not wanting to show this weakness, even as the thoughts grow darker, even if he awakens after a nightmare and is trapped in sleep paralysis.

He if often moody too because of this, given he barely ever gets sleep.

All the reader characters (Scardy cat, pirate, kickass, and amnesiac) are in the same universe.They all have some hijinks, talk about life together, and have like a tea party or something where everything is chill and fun.

Kickass would be the big sibling who’d beat up all the skeksis who hurts their little siblings.

Scardy cat still has so many fizzgig pets and she loves the all. 

Pirate brings back cool things from their adventures, always saves gifts for frens

Amnesiac(Named Emmelyn, thanks to @whisperinghallwaysofmirrors for giving them so much backstory) bringing hers and Haryn’s children about and helping the others when possible

My own sketches of some of the Readers; I only had references for Artemis and Aarya, so I guessed mostly for Miriam and Emmalyn. Feel free to correct me on their appearances! They look lovely sweetie!!

(I have drawn the two before, but it’s way earlier in my posts ^^; like probably some of the first 10-20 asks to it’s really down there! but also as readers they can basically be however you wish so~~~~)