Jun 13, 2025
Lmao love the feeling of the psychosis and dissociation creeping in as I wait to find out if any of my colleagues can help me stabilize after that appt, knowing that if no one is available then I just get to sit in this until tomorrow night with no relief and even infusion day can't salvage that
I get that I can't talk to anyone outside of work about this and I'm not going to but also I might shatter like glass if I have to carry this alone for long
#already weeping uncontrollably and shaking so hard it took me 15 min to type this#trying not to do the thing where I bitter that any time someone else needs debrief time I hop in immediately to offer it#but the one time i do it's radio fucking silence#like it IS after the practice closes I can't fault people for not checking the work chats#amd YET#and fucking yet
