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AWWWW thank you so much!!! <3333 I'll just link my writing tag since I don't have 5 fics posted, lol. any new readers be warned, there's a lot of unfinished stuff ;)

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like a human being

The grime has been washed away. The blood matting his hair into a mane and adorning his skin, like a hunter wears the pelts of his prizes, stripped away by freezing water sluicing down his serrated edges and suicidally slicing itself into thin streams.

Happy Wife, Happy Life

Johnny’s Roadhouse was a gathering place for hunters. Like Hudson’s, like Harvelle’s before it burned down in ‘07. Smack dab in the middle of the country, nestled in Northern Missouri at the intersection of four states, and the perfect rendezvous for it. Hunters passed through it for a drink on the way to their next hunt, returned there at the end of one like it was the closest thing they had to a home.

(WIP) bridling chaos

A few days isn’t long enough to regain the sense of normalcy and the harmonic tandem lost over four months. In Sam’s case, that is. Dean hasn’t seen Sam in over four hundred years.

So Dean stares at him, now. The way he shuffles around their dim motel room like everything is standard, unchanged. Unable to sense the twisted thing inhabiting Dean’s skin, when Dean can smell the off flavour of his blood, can sense the darkness which muddies him around the edges.

I only have two published fics and one work in progress haha, so this is all I have to offer for now.

...do I have 10.23 opinions? *deep breath* Yes. yes I do.

What’s strange about the staging of Sam’s potential execution by Dean in 10.23 is that it’s not, at first blush, chiefly about Dean ~saving Sam from himself~, because it’s not Sam who’s primordially cursed. It’s about Dean saving the world from Dean. But in a twisted feat of Dean-logic that only SPN could pull off, Dean’s got to use Sam as the price to do so. By using Sam as the offering Death demands, the narrative manages to turn the onus back on Sam anyway! Now, suddenly, Dean’s got to save the world from Dean by killing Sam.... in order to save Sam from himself. Which is, like, not at all straightforward. The batshit logic is enough to make my head spin, but it certainly fits that Dean is trying to jam the fratricidal square peg into the save-him round hole.

Okay, so, timing. Dean’s fully onboard with killing Sam once he decides Sam’s commitment to getting rid of the Mark is going to set the Darkness loose. He argues with Sam, beats him, gets him on his knees. I think Sam’s struggle just convinces him more, here: Dean’s several miles past reason or violence being anything that could sway him. He’s operating on two brain cells and both of those brain cells are labeled Tortured Control Issues. Sam fighting back is just fuel on the persecution issues that have him convinced that Sam’s resistance to the kill-Sam-and-shoot-myself-into-space plan is wrong and bad and selfish, and Sam is wrong and bad and selfish for bringing it up.

Then Sam gives in and agrees. This changes Dean’s attitude, since Sam isn’t combative anymore; but when he tells Sam to close his eyes, it’s still with intent. I hate the damn pictures, but it’s not until after Sam takes them out that Dean changes his mind. He doesn’t tell Sam to close his eyes again, and when he says “forgive me,” he is fully planning to stab Death. Much to my chagrin, because what a waste of a perfectly horrible setup.

not a dumbass question at all! fandom terminology can be deeply confounding. i myself have been exploring early seasons ff.net fics for MONTHS now and i still don’t have a firm grasp on what the hell limp!sam means

anyway, a sam stan is basically just a fan of sam winchester. if for whatever reason you like him or find him interesting and (usually) think he’s the best part of the show, then congrats you’re a sam stan!

common sam stan traits include (but are not necessary!):

-no demon blood apologism he didn’t do anything wrong

-queer!sam truthing

-not really focusing on shipping even if we have ships

-a certain.........bitterness.....towards certain characters *cough*dean!*cough*

-frustration at the way the show sidelined its most interesting character

Hello hello! Sorry if I’m late in responding; OhSam is on a wee bit of a vacation while the boss (me!) is out of town for a bit. But! What I can recommend is a couple of places: there’s a Sam-centric prompt meme on AO3, that while not currently active, the prompts are still there and I guarantee the folks wouldn’t mind getting fills, regardless. https://archiveofourown.org/collections/SamWinchester_Prompt_a_thon

The taste hits his tongue, and he feels it, the ways everything around him comes to life. The light bulbs all turned bright, and he doesn’t just remember walking around at dusk staring at the Christmas decorations, he feels it, the temperature and the wind against his skin, how he felt, what it meant.