#amara cullen

name ▪️ Amara Cullen

status ▪️ alive | confused | self-destructive

physical shit ▪️ 23 | female | average height | black hair | grey eyes | super pale | two scars on back 

personality ▪️ pessimist | slightly depressed | bitter | constantly exhausted |

relationships ▪️ Damien - best friend/lover/it’s complicated | Camille - best friend/colleague | Joshua & Yara - siblings

other facts ▪️ bisexual | stripper | heavy smoker | commitment issues | daddy issues | general issues

Amara tried to answer, but the words got stuck in her throat. The pain got worse, she stopped breathing. Her lungs burned like fire. It smothered her.

My OC Amara from my WIP Almost like dying. I used this as reference for the pose.

I wrote something that probably won’t make it into the first draft, so I’m posting it here. It’s what happens when I try to be dramatic and stuff. Also, have a moodboard!

“You know that feeling when you’re drunk, but you’re not really drunk? Or when you sleep, but you don’t?” Amara could barely keep her head up from the table. “It’s strange!”

Everything, including the barkeeper in front of her, blurred before her eyes. She felt sick, but so carefree - all her problems seemed so far away. She tightened the grip around her drink.

“You know, the feeling when somebody you once knew walks right past you and doesn’t recognize you.” She giggled, then she bit into her sleeve. Her chest burned of alcohol and anger and it hurt. It hurt so much.

“I think you had enough!” The barkeeper tried to take her glass, but Amara emptied it with one gulp.

“Ha! You thought!” She laughed, then her head became too heavy for her shoulders to carry. Everything hurt. Everything burned.

“M’am, would you like me to call someone for you?”, he asked, while his face drifted forth and back before Amara.

“What are you talking about?” She moved her head to quick and pain pierced her brain. “I’m fine! You know, I’m talking about this… feeling… when you can’t remember… your favourite song or your favourite food. When everything is far, far away… I hate that feeling!”

Black flashed in front of her eyes. She felt like puking, but she didn't. She felt like passing out, but she dug her nails into her skin and stayed awake.

“It feels like burning.” Her breath was flat and she could feel her heart hammering against her chest. “It feels like drowning. It almost feels like dying…”

I... have zero self control. Sometimes I hate myself for it.

Anyways: I wrote a thing! And it’s kinda good? I feel like I should write this, so I’m doing it. Lets see where this leads. I have no idea what I’m doing!

As you can see, I have a title but I feel like I’m going to change it eventually. I also made a mood board. And I decided to show the prologue to you, because I can and I need validation.

Please tell me what you think! (also if you think of a better title, tell me!)

| Almost like dying | Excerpt |

“Do you believe in god?” A warm voice interrupted the silence.

Amara looked up to see the church’s pastor standing next to the bench she was sitting on. “No.”

Thank you so much for asking!

5. On an average day, what can be found in your character’s pockets?

Damien carries his keys, his phone, his purse and a lighter for Amara.

34. Is your character more likely to keep trying a solution/method that didn’t work the first time, or immediately move on to a different solution/method?

Eliza tries the same method multiple times to see, if she made a mistake, but then she moves on to another method.

25. How quick is your character to suspect someone else? Does this change if they are close with that person?

I would say, this depends on the situation. If she clearly knows, she didn’t do anything, she always suspects someone else from her family(mostly Josh or her mother). But honestly, it’s because the whole family is a fucking mess.

45. What does your character believe will happen to them after they die? Does this belief scare them?

“What do I have to do to make you moan?” Amara kept kissing Elizas neck while her hands searched for a opportunity to slip her hands beneath Elizas shirt.

“Please don’t”, Eliza whispered. “There are people around.”

Amara and Eliza from my WIP Almost like dying. 

Thanks, @ronjadelahaye, for tagging me!

Rules: Bold what applies to your character. Feel free to add to the list!

Character: Amara, from my WIP Almost like dying.

[ COLORS ] red. brown. orange. yellow. green. blue. purple. pink. black. white. teal. silver. gold. grey. lilac. metallic. matte. royal blue. strawberry red. charcoal grey. forest green. apple red. navy blue. crimson. cream. mint green.

[ ELEMENTS ] fire. ice. water. air. earth. rain. snow. wind. moon. stars. sun. heat. cold. steam. mist. frost. lightning. sunlight. moonlight. dawn. dusk. twilight. midnight. sunrise. sunset. dewdrops. magic.

[ BODY ] claws. long fingers. fangs. teeth. wings. tails. lips. bare feet. freckles. bruises. canine. scars. scratches. wounds. burns. spikes. feathers. webs. eyes. hands. sweat. tears. feline. chubby. curvy. short. tall. average height. muscular. piercing. tattoos. lithe.

[ WEAPONS ] fists. sword. dagger. spear. arrow. hammer. shield. poison. guns. axes. throwing axes. whips. knives. throwing knives. pepper sprays. tasers. machine guns. slingshots. katanas. maces. staffs. wands. powers. magical items. magic. rocks. mud balls. pyre. teeth. rifles. bow and arrows.

[ MATERIALS ] gold. silver. platinum. titanium. diamonds. pearls. rubies. sapphires. emeralds. amethyst. metal. iron. rust. steel. glass. wood. porcelain. paper. wool. fur. lace. leather. silk. velvet. denim. linen. cotton. charcoal. clay.stone. asphalt. brick. marble. dust. glitter. blood. dirt. mud. smoke. ash. shadow. carbonate. rubber. synthetics.

[ NATURE ] grass. leaves. trees. bark. roses. daisies. tulips. lavender. petals. thorns. seeds. hay. sand. rocks. roots. flowers. ocean. river. meadow. forest. desert. tundra. savanna. rain forest. caves. underwater. coral reef. beach. waves. space. clouds. mountains. poppies.

[ ANIMALS ] lions. wolves. eagles. owls. bears. falcons. hawks. swans. snakes. turtles. ducks. bugs. spiders. crickets. birds. whales. dolphins. fish. sharks. deer. horses. cats. dogs. bunnies. praying mantises. crows. ravens. mice. lizards. werewolves. unicorns. pegasus. dragons. rats. livestock. foxes. peacocks. griffins.

[ FOODS / DRINKS ] sugar. salt. candy. bubblegum. wine. champagne. hard liquor. beer. coffee. tea. spices. chili. herbs. apple. orange. lemon. cherry. strawberry. watermelon. vegetables. fruits. meat. fish. pies. desserts. chocolate. cream. caramel. berries. nuts. cinnamon. burgers. burritos. pizza. french fries. ambrosia.

[ HOBBIES ] music. art. watercolors. gardening. smithing. sculpting. painting. sketching. fighting. writing. composing. cooking. sewing. training. dancing. acting. singing. martial arts. self-defense. electronics. technology. cameras. video cameras. video games. computer. phone. movies. theater. libraries. books. comic books. magazines. cds. records. vinyls. cassettes. piano. violin. guitar. electronic guitar. bass guitar. harmonica. harp. woodwinds. brass. bells. playing cards. poker chips. chess. dice. motorcycle riding. eating. climbing. running. exploring. taking care of animals.

[ STYLE ] lingerie. armor. cape. dress. tunic. vest. shirt. sweater. boots. heels. leggings. trousers. shorts. jeans. skirt. jewelry. earrings. necklace. bracelet. ring. pendant. hat. crown. circlet. helmet. scarf. brocade. cloaks. corsets. doublet. chest plate. gorget. bracers. belt. sash. coat. jacket. duster. trench coat. hood. gloves. socks. masks. cowls. braces. watches. glasses. sunglasses. visor. eye contacts. makeup. ties. uniform.

[ MISC ] balloons. bubbles. cityscape. light. dark. candles. war. peace. money. power. percussion. clocks. photos. mirrors. pets. kisses. diary. fairy lights. madness. sanity. sadness. happiness. optimism. pessimism. loneliness. family.friends. assistants. co-workers. enemies. loyalty. smoking. drugs. kindness. love. hugs. revenge.