#am!r

IT CAN’T END LIKE THIS

IT CAN’T END LIKE THIS

TELL ME IT AIN’T GONNA END LIKE THIS

OVER NO THIS CAN’T BE DONE

REWIND BEFORE THE CREDITS RUN

CLOSER ON THE TIP OF MY TONGUE

FELL IN LOVE WITH NO PARACHUTE ON

We pushed, we pulled like a sumo

When I met you I never thought I would fall in love so fast. I was still completely broken from a relationship that sucked so much out of me. I was down, under-the-rubble, suffocating and fighting for the last few breaths that I knew I had left in me.

And then you came along and attached that respirator from your heart to my mouth and I sucked in as much of your love as you were able to spare, right into my lungs.

You were generous. That I do remember. You were tender and gentle. You were beautiful, and so was your love.

Maybe if I had been the only victim out there, you would still be here. Maybe if you had been the only victim of what you had just been through, I would still be around you too.

Alas love demands to be spread and we are just slaves to it, aren’t we? It asks to be given freely with zero demands, and so you and I oblige, as we should.

Only but a handful of years later we find ourselves in completely different galaxies, so far away from those places we once called home, together.

Our orbits spinning in rambunctious form. Our bearings completely defying everything we ever knew and trusted about them.

A star twinkles from the distance in the night sky and I know it’s you. I wink back and know that you saw that wink in passing.

They say that the speed of light is faster than anything we know, but I think that the speed of life beats that by far. I think that the speed of life is immeasurable that way.

—CYRUS PAVEL [original title: Speed of Life]

Max, Rozes & Am!r – The Foundry – Philadelphia, PA – November 9, 2017