Some posts have completely lost their context, some are so vivid it's like being back there, in that moment. And every time I announced I was back is like a pin prick in time where I was trying SO HARD – I truly meant it. I wanted so desperately to be back. So much has changed, but fanfic continues to be a safe, fun place for me when things are rough (and it's no surprise that I'm not doing so hot atm). But there's also this shame and embarrassment of not producing, of not answering asks – if you sent me something in the last few years, I am truly sorry for never responding.

@taznovembercelebration

“Hey,” Kravitz says, warming Taako’s bones like tea, slipping his hand into Taako’s. 

“Hey,” Taako repeats. He lifts their hands and kisses Kravitz’s ring, a habit he’s come to enjoy so fondly. It’s as easy as breathing, and twice as important. “What’s up, bones?”

“Your leg was shaking.” Kravitz sits next to him, giving him a gentle little smile in return for the kiss, like it was the battery he needed to light up his face. Taako leans into him automatically, pressing his face into the safe harbor of his shoulder. 

“Was I?” It didn’t even register. He’s been spacing out for….a minute. Ten minutes? Surely not more. Right? 

“Mhm. I figured it was a deficiency of vitamin me and rushed to your rescue.”

“Pompous and vain in your old age, my friend.” 

“Learned from the best what high self esteem does for a guy.” Kravitz presses a kiss in return to Taako’s soft hair, so familiar, so comforting, so...home. Taako closes his eyes and savors the closeness. His brain picks at loose threads, trying to tear it all apart, trying to ruin it from the inside, but it’s kevlar, baby, and their love is indestructible. He sighs gently, realizing in a rush just how tired he was, and how badly he needed this. 

“You wanna take a nap?” The together is implied. 

“Always. Let me finish up a few things, and then you can snuggle me until I suffocate.”

“Hell yeah.” It’s healing, the closeness. It’s warm and restorative and reorienting. It’s the place Taako really belongs, more than any other, and he finds a lot of peace in knowing, beyond a shadow of a doubt, Kravitz feels the same way about him. This tender rhythm they’ve built--Taako worried it would get boring, but it’s been so safe and welcoming he hasn’t had a chance to stop enjoying it yet, and he doesn’t think he ever will.