#alsex

Brenda knew before alexis knew brenda knew

it's times like these when I miss you the most :(

"I want you down on all fours, cause you're so dark, babe. But I want you hard."

I know you probably won’t be back on here, ever, and if you are I’m sure it’ll be forever from now and you’ll probably have forgotten who I even am, it’s raven by the way, but I just want you to know that I miss you so much I know it’s been hella long since you left, like.. 6 or 7 months actually, idk im just not doing good right now and I wish you were here so I’ll just rant to nobody thinking some day you’ll read it, because you were the only person who ever understood me. god I’m so dumb for ever letting you leave my life, you were the best thing that ever happened to me and I would kill for you to just come back for even a day just so that I could talk to you, and just know you’re there to listen and just idk be in your presence. im really sorry for anything that happened the last few times we talked, you didnt exactly leave under the terms I wish you had, then again I wish you hadn’t left at all. we weren’t in the best place or anything but that doesn’t change the fact that I still miss you in general. I probably sound really dumb and anyone who’s even reading this, if it’s not you, probably thinks I’m literally crazy but I’ve just never felt so lost without a person in my life before. I cant even begin to think of the things I wanna tell you, first off SOSA is big as fuck now, she literally knocks me down it’s so funny but at the same time not because she is a killer. I got my license 💕💕 I remember when I was getting my permit and you were like you can do it!!!! now I’m all legal and stuff if you ever come back I am driving myself to see you baby IDC HOW LONG IT TAKES. I still friends with nooi she good, I bet she misses you too just a lil bit like a lil smidge :) I hate my psychs teacher so much you would hate her too she a bitch, I accidentally submitted one of my papers to her as “raven boss ass bitch loader” HAHA SHE TOLD THE VICE PRINCIPLE OF MY SCHOOL, but I didn’t get in trouble bc IM a boss ass bITcH. but you knew that duh. my summer was ok but it would have been better if you were in it. I talked to this kid but he ended up being a fucking asshole, if you stayed I wouldn’t have ever had to deal with him, he wasn’t good you wouldn’t have liked him either.. or the way he treated me, but it’s ok I don’t talk to said person anymore. I SAW JUSTIN in concert, I can’t remember if you were around when I got the tickets but I finally saw him live in July it was beautiful and he looked right into my camera. ik you would have been jealous bc you secretly were in love with him too. there’s a kid in my school and I s2g he looks just like you every time I see him I think it’s you I wanna run up to him and hug him but then I’m like wtf that’s weird raven knock it off. I don’t have anything else to really say, you would be really jealous of me I have the URL yourjustin HAHA, I have stepped up my URL game remember back when we met I was like queenkyliej now I’m blessed as fuck. anyways, that’s all I have to say. I hope Maggie’s good and you still hate peanut butter and I can’t remember your dogs name and it’s frustrating me but I hope she’s good too and I hope that you finally got an iPhone because androids are always gonna suck and I hope your school year has been going good so far it kinda just started a little, and I hope that you don’t still snap girls in your classes bra straps because it’s not nice and it hurts!!! but I love you so much I really do and I miss you like crazy and I cannot believe I actually typed this all out my friend asked me about 28 times “what are you typing” because it’s so long and my key noise is on On my phone I am dumb and I doubt you’ll ever even read this but if you do you are amazing and this is why I love you even after you’ve been gone for 6 months. I’ll never forget you and maybe in a few more months if you’re still not back, which I doubt you’ll be, I’ll write another one. thank you for listening, even if you’re not here, I know you would’ve listened if you were, I really needed to just talk to someone about something and this made me feel a lot better. I love you Alexander Ray dean and I miss you please come back I would kill for you to come back.

I just miss Alex so much nobody understands that I would do anything to have him back in my life he’s the only person that ever understood me

Can we all just take a moment to appreciate Alex Gaskarth for his banging self and beautiful lyrics