I know you probably wonât be back on here, ever, and if you are Iâm sure itâll be forever from now and youâll probably have forgotten who I even am, itâs raven by the way, but I just want you to know that I miss you so much I know itâs been hella long since you left, like.. 6 or 7 months actually, idk im just not doing good right now and I wish you were here so Iâll just rant to nobody thinking some day youâll read it, because you were the only person who ever understood me. god Iâm so dumb for ever letting you leave my life, you were the best thing that ever happened to me and I would kill for you to just come back for even a day just so that I could talk to you, and just know youâre there to listen and just idk be in your presence. im really sorry for anything that happened the last few times we talked, you didnt exactly leave under the terms I wish you had, then again I wish you hadnât left at all. we werenât in the best place or anything but that doesnât change the fact that I still miss you in general. I probably sound really dumb and anyone whoâs even reading this, if itâs not you, probably thinks Iâm literally crazy but Iâve just never felt so lost without a person in my life before. I cant even begin to think of the things I wanna tell you, first off SOSA is big as fuck now, she literally knocks me down itâs so funny but at the same time not because she is a killer. I got my license đđ I remember when I was getting my permit and you were like you can do it!!!! now Iâm all legal and stuff if you ever come back I am driving myself to see you baby IDC HOW LONG IT TAKES. I still friends with nooi she good, I bet she misses you too just a lil bit like a lil smidge :) I hate my psychs teacher so much you would hate her too she a bitch, I accidentally submitted one of my papers to her as âraven boss ass bitch loaderâ HAHA SHE TOLD THE VICE PRINCIPLE OF MY SCHOOL, but I didnât get in trouble bc IM a boss ass bITcH. but you knew that duh. my summer was ok but it would have been better if you were in it. I talked to this kid but he ended up being a fucking asshole, if you stayed I wouldnât have ever had to deal with him, he wasnât good you wouldnât have liked him either.. or the way he treated me, but itâs ok I donât talk to said person anymore. I SAW JUSTIN in concert, I canât remember if you were around when I got the tickets but I finally saw him live in July it was beautiful and he looked right into my camera. ik you would have been jealous bc you secretly were in love with him too. thereâs a kid in my school and I s2g he looks just like you every time I see him I think itâs you I wanna run up to him and hug him but then Iâm like wtf thatâs weird raven knock it off. I donât have anything else to really say, you would be really jealous of me I have the URL yourjustin HAHA, I have stepped up my URL game remember back when we met I was like queenkyliej now Iâm blessed as fuck. anyways, thatâs all I have to say. I hope Maggieâs good and you still hate peanut butter and I canât remember your dogs name and itâs frustrating me but I hope sheâs good too and I hope that you finally got an iPhone because androids are always gonna suck and I hope your school year has been going good so far it kinda just started a little, and I hope that you donât still snap girls in your classes bra straps because itâs not nice and it hurts!!! but I love you so much I really do and I miss you like crazy and I cannot believe I actually typed this all out my friend asked me about 28 times âwhat are you typingâ because itâs so long and my key noise is on On my phone I am dumb and I doubt youâll ever even read this but if you do you are amazing and this is why I love you even after youâve been gone for 6 months. Iâll never forget you and maybe in a few more months if youâre still not back, which I doubt youâll be, Iâll write another one. thank you for listening, even if youâre not here, I know you wouldâve listened if you were, I really needed to just talk to someone about something and this made me feel a lot better. I love you Alexander Ray dean and I miss you please come back I would kill for you to come back.
