[ BIRCH ]sender finally ends a tense argument by reaching out to apologize. - from quincey to lucy
Lucy had nothing to compare life with Quincey to —there were no rulebooks, or guides on how to handle suddenly being thrown into the blinding spotlight of second-hand fame.
Ignoring tabloids and magazines at the shops was one thing, but living in a digital world where anything and everything was available with just a simple touch of your finger — it was impossible to wear a blindfold to it all.
It had been easier at first, caught in the whirlwind of new feelings, new love. But she had a life of her own, and she couldn't be at his side 24/7.
She trusted Quincey, she did. But not being able to communicate with him as much as the two of them wanted and needed to brought on inevitable tension.
They'd just finished up dinner that she'd made (shepherd's pie — a white flag of sorts considering their conversation the day before hadn't exactly ended on the best terms). She'd ran to the store after class to get everything she'd need, and came over to his apartment afterward, knowing he'd planned to come home later that day after his interview for his tour promotion; the reason why they were in a sort of squabble to begin with.
He'd invited her to tag along, but she had class in the morning and wouldn't have been able to.
It was a common thread between them recently, just missing one another, or being unable to find the time to see each other in person rather than just on face time, or texting. Nursing school had siphoned a lot of her free time, and it was grating on the both of them. Both the guilty party in their arguments.
The dinner itself had been maddeningly quiet, the sound of silverware scraping against porcelain felt more like nails clawing down a chalkboard.
They'd attempted small talk before eating, but the tension between them still weight heavy, and the last text messages they sent last night were boring a hole in the back of her mind.
Pushing away from the dining table, she takes both of their bowls and starts for the sink, running them both under the faucet's stream to rinse them out.
Upon hearing him push away from the table, a small huff of air emits quietly from her. Emotions she'd been holding back all dinner rushing towards the surface, the dishes in the sink slowly growing blurry from the tears building up in her eyes.
Pull yourself together, Lucy—!
Turning off the faucet, she doesn't turn around to face him just yet. She can feel his presence behind her though, and she knew that the moment she turned around she'd break completely, and she wanted a chance to compose herself...
"Luce," his voice cutting through the silence.
Clamping her eyes shut, her shoulders rise and fall with the intake of a deep breath. Feeling the warmth of a tear sliding down her cheek, she quickly swats it away, before slowly turning around to face him.
Looking up at him, the soft and gentle brown eyes she'd fallen in love with meeting with hers, clearly full of remorse. She could already feel herself losing the battle with the tears that wanted to spill over.
Lucy was used to how things had been with Arthur; petty argument after petty argument, constantly finding something new to argue with her about.
She didn't want to argue with Quincey, but she was quick to build up walls and fight back, a defense mechanism she'd garnered with Arthur...
"You don't have to apologize..." the words are shaky coming out, and she hates that she can't handle this conversation without getting overly emotional.